Marsha Joseph
In a few hours
Sep 14, 2010
Well it's almost that time. I was so overwhelmed the last few days but today I have peace! God's will be done in my life! I will post as soon as I can.
I am ready for this journey and glad for the friends Ihave made thus far.
Thank you Toni...... you rescued me in the midst of panic!!!
Catch you on the slim side!!!!!!!
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I am ready for this journey and glad for the friends Ihave made thus far.
Thank you Toni...... you rescued me in the midst of panic!!!
Catch you on the slim side!!!!!!!
Life Changes
Sep 13, 2010
I need to blog. I have never been more nervous in my life than I am at this point. I felt like running and never stopping. Running from me , life my weight, my insecurities. I didn't realize how much of an emotional toll this surgery would have on me until last week.
I look back over the past year and there were times when i just loved me and my weight didn't matter. I knew I was sexy, had my head held high and strutted my stuff and then thers today. I don't feel so hot today. I feel ashamed and sad, lonley and scared, confused and angry. Angry at me for not trying harder, for not doing more and giving more to myself. i seem to give to everyone else but me. 09-15-2010 is my turning poing and I want to give more to me! Even if it means being selfish!
I want to learn how to swim, so I can swim with my boyfriend, I want to run and not from my problems or life but run with the sun warming my face and and the wind welcoming me as if I was one with it. I want to love with reckless abandonment, inspite of what has been said or done. I want to give of my time, my heart, my experiences. .... I WANT TO GIVE ME!!!
I welcome this new life that is to come, I welcome not only changing how I eat but changing how I love, how I give, how I think and how I speak. My ACTIONS will speak for me! I AM MORE THAN A CONQUEROR THRU CHRIST JESUS....I AM A CHAMPION AND I CAN DO ALLL THINGS THRU CHRIST WHO STRENGTHENS ME!
I won't give up like I have done in past times thinking I can't make it, it's too hard. I WELCOME THIS CHALLENGE.....I WELCOME THESE LIFE CHANGES
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I look back over the past year and there were times when i just loved me and my weight didn't matter. I knew I was sexy, had my head held high and strutted my stuff and then thers today. I don't feel so hot today. I feel ashamed and sad, lonley and scared, confused and angry. Angry at me for not trying harder, for not doing more and giving more to myself. i seem to give to everyone else but me. 09-15-2010 is my turning poing and I want to give more to me! Even if it means being selfish!
I want to learn how to swim, so I can swim with my boyfriend, I want to run and not from my problems or life but run with the sun warming my face and and the wind welcoming me as if I was one with it. I want to love with reckless abandonment, inspite of what has been said or done. I want to give of my time, my heart, my experiences. .... I WANT TO GIVE ME!!!
I welcome this new life that is to come, I welcome not only changing how I eat but changing how I love, how I give, how I think and how I speak. My ACTIONS will speak for me! I AM MORE THAN A CONQUEROR THRU CHRIST JESUS....I AM A CHAMPION AND I CAN DO ALLL THINGS THRU CHRIST WHO STRENGTHENS ME!
I won't give up like I have done in past times thinking I can't make it, it's too hard. I WELCOME THIS CHALLENGE.....I WELCOME THESE LIFE CHANGES
It's almost here
Sep 12, 2010
VENTING.......... I had a really rough weekend... very unhappy with me, my looks ...feeling so blahhhhhhhhhhhhhh
it's almost the 15th I am still nervous but very excited......
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it's almost the 15th I am still nervous but very excited......
Nervous
Sep 10, 2010
This is my first blog and to be honest I am really nervous! I still don't have any friends on here and I requested a few still waiting but I need support. I am so nervous and I am actualy thinking about cancelling.
I am torn because I know it will be a great change for me but I am still unsure if maybe I can just do it on my own.
I know God will be with me, I am praying for strength!
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I am torn because I know it will be a great change for me but I am still unsure if maybe I can just do it on my own.
I know God will be with me, I am praying for strength!
About Me
Boston, MA
Location
30.9
BMI
Surgery
09/15/2010
Surgery Date
May 07, 2010
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