why does everything have to be complicated?

Mar 27, 2011

I'd like a little simplicity. I'd like to not have to sort out all my feelings and rationale and pro/cons and whatever.

I don't know how I'm supposed to behave toward this guy- I don't know whether I want to seek him out when I've got stuff on my mind or not. He's not a very good listener- well, scratch that, he can be a good listener, but its not his usual thing to pry with me. And my usual is to wait for people to ask questions. I love it when people ask me questions. Hell, it's probably my favorite thing when I want to talk about a subject with someone. Questions show they care enough to be actively thinking about it. Questions give me a segway into putting my incredibly jumbled confusifying mind into cohesive sentences. Eric assumes if I'm being vague I dont want to talk about it. Or maybe he just isnt interested (but I doubt that). So, I had the option- instruct him on how I am, wait and hope he figures it out, or just let it be? If I was actually dating him, and my goal was to grow together, I'd instruct him- but do I want us to grow together? Am I just passive to it? Or am I trying to put the breaks on?

yeah, so, complicated is lame.

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