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Holy moly, i can't believe i am officially in the 100's, I have to say this is a wonderful feeling and I can almost taste my goal!  Victory will be mine (as Stewie says)!  WOohooo!

So I just had my 6 month check up and am officially down 100 lbs, yeah!!  The doc was very happy this visit, so that makes me happy.  I'm doing well, haven't had any problems except the ones I create myself, like the one night i thought i could eat half a poptart...mmm yeah, dumb move I CANNOT tolerate sugar at all.  I was very sick that night and have not eaten anything stupid since.  I still make myself sick (get the foamies) when i eat to fast, but it is a rare occasion these days, i'm finally learning to eat slower, cause really who wants to be hung over the bowl puking.  Excersing is becoming a challenge again, i was doing so well for months, walking every day, most days twice a day getting in 5-6 miles a day,,but these last couple weeks work has been interfering with my walk schedule i'm going in early, working thru lunch and geting out late, just in time for the sun to go down.. hopefully work will find some replacements for the 2 people who just quit real soon so i can start my walking again, I really miss it and the energy it gives me!  Anyway, that's my update.  I feel like I have a new lease on life and this surgery was the best thing I could have done! No regrets!

So I don't know what happened but since the beginning of the week everyone has been complimenting the crazy out of me, it's like they all joined up had a meeting and decided to lift my spirits, lol.  Anyway, the weeks only halfway over and i hope the compliments keep comin, they definitly are helping to raise my confidence that i'm doing something right FINALLY! 
And I have to say i've been more motivated to take my daily walks, and i've been picking up the speed, one night this week my fiance didn't believe i walked as far as i told him because he said i got home to fast.  I told him to look at my red face and sweaty body and tell me i'm lieing, lol,, he's lucky he didn't i was feelin fiesty, ha ha! 
I really have no regrets about this surgery, sure it's been hard but it seems to be getting easier the healthier i feel!

So, I had my 3 month follow up on Tuesday and I have to say I’m feelin bummed. The day started great, I got on my scale and I had finally hit 250, 67 lbs gone forever, now I had lost 17 lbs 2weeks before surgery so since my surgery I had lost 50 lbs, I was super psyched. Thought I was doing great. So I get to the doctors and I get weighed, great 250 didn’t gain any on the drive over. Nurse says I’m lookin good, looks like I’m doing well, she leaves, I start reading all the things hanging on the doc’s wall to occupy my time, great there’s a chart and it gives the chart of how much you should be loosing if you weight this much and are this far along, so I find my starting weight, look under 3months out and wooohooo it says 35-55 lbs is the normal range. I’m pretty happy now. So Doc comes in, normal chit chat, blah, blah and then he says ‘you aren’t doing as well as you could be doing’,,what? Did he just say I’m slackin? He continues ‘I’d like to have had you loose atleast another 5lbs…blah, blah’ I’ve completely blocked him out now, he’s rambling on about how I’m eating to much that I should cut my portions in half, not going to support meetings, (insert Charlie Brown’s mom here) I wanted to cry. I didn’t even try to defend myself. I was pretty pissed. He shakes my hand and I’m off to see the nutritionist. So she also said I was a little slow on the weight loss(thinking in my head then they should really tear that chart off the wall) but she is asking what I’m doing, what I’m eating and not accusing me of anything. So all in all looks like my problem is I am not eating enough. I’ve only been getting in about 27 to 30gr of protein and I should be getting 60. So I’ve started eating breakfast and lunch again (before I’d only manage to get a cheese stick or 2 in throughout the day, then a good supper) and hopefully I will be up to par when I go back for my 6 month. The rest of this week has been a real downer, I’ve been feelin like a failure and the rain isn’t helping with depression! Hopefully next week will bring sunshine and happier feelings! 

Well i had my one month and things look great i've lost 34lbs but that includes the 14 I lost the week before the op.  I feel great and i'm back to work.  I was sick as a dog last week and had to take Wed-Fri off but after 5 days of antibiotics and some great cough medicine I am back to work again.  I feel like life is movin on and it's gonna get better with every passing day.  I'm now on Phase 1 foods, yeah, ooohhh the glee of chewing again!  And I figure by tomorrow I can start back to walking, since i couldn't all last week , i feel so much better after a walk with my guy, so relaxing.
Anyway, that's all for me.

Toodles Peeps

Mel

Well, i'm back.  Surgery went well, longer than expected i had some old scar tissue issues from my gallbladder surgery years ago, other than that I went under the knife at 9am and was out of recovery and in my room at 5pm.  Boy ohh boy was i feeling like crap-o-la.  Who authorized the mac truck to hit me while i was under anthestisia??!!  I made very good use of my pain meds, self medication possibly the best thing ever, my first night went fairly well.  Next morning I asked when i could get the terribly annoying catheder removed, they said by the next day, i made sad face and asked if sooner could be arranged, few hours later my wish was granted!  I began my first sips of gross protein juice stuff, can i just say, YUCK!  But i managed to drink 5 of those 2oz cups thru out the day, cause hey, that's how i roll.
The true battle would be my first bathroom attempt.  I shuffled my way to the stall and began the descent to the thrown.  Ouch, press pain button, okay i'm peeing yeeeahhhh, oh geez, i have to wipe..okay okay i can do this, sure i have IV's in that hand, wires hanging, a dangling drain hanging from my tummy, okay i'm ready to go...OMG this is horrible, phew thank the Lord that is done, note to self get the toilet paper you brought with you and put in bathroom now, we never want that sandpaper to touch our delicate parts again! Wash hands and shuffle back to the chair.  Day 2 almost done, thru in a couple walks around the floor and then later since i wasn't using the self medicater that often they gave me Toradol, possibly the bestest thing ever, within 1/2 hr i felt stronger, not so tired, and ready to face another night.  Day 3 I feel really good, slept well.  Doctor came in and said I could go home later.  So my day consisted of getting unhooked from everything, drain removed(eeeewww, can i note this was the weirdest feeling having that pulled from my stomach), IV's removed, i got dressed, did 5 or so walks thru out the day, tried to get in as much liquid food as possible, everything is staying down nicely only complaint is and i'm gonna get graphic here,, holy liquid shits!  My ass was hurting, i guess liquid in , liquid out, but ouchie, i really was patting myself on the shoulder for bringing my Charmin!  Well by 6pm i had my discharge papers and then a lesson on giving myself the Lovenox shots,,um yeah, did I mention a little snafu, i can't do it.  I have no idea but i cannot get my hand to stab myself in the stomach, it is so weird..i mean i use to be a cutter and had no problem with a razr blade, and i am tattoo junky, so this issue of not being able to do this stupid little shot to the belly is so weird.  Anyway, my fiance did it and has continued to do it since we got home, 10days twice a day, God i love that man! 
So here I am back at home, trying to get in enough protein and liquids daily, trying to stop thinking that i have 4 weeks of this blended diet and i can't wait to actually chew food, trying to take a couple daily walks, trying to stop thinking about work and how am i ever gonna get thru these couple weeks off it is so boring, trying to remember to keep positive.
I feel the weight coming off, i see it in my face and i am so excited for the many months ahead!  More to come when i have more to share!

Holy Crap, I can't believe it's finally gonna happen, 13hrs from now i'll be on my way to a healthier, happier and dare I say sexier me.  I'm running around tonight trying to make sure everthing is all set for my return, making sure I take everything I need to the hospital.  So exciting.  Well i'll be gone atleast till Friday, so peace out peeps, keep me in your thoughts.  Toodles for now, Melanie