Three Months Post Op

Sep 21, 2010

 I am 3 months post op and I feel great. I have lost a total of 70 lbs including pre-op diet. I have lost a total of 53 lbs since the day of surgery. I have energy now and have been doing things I haven't done in a long time. I have been slacking on working out and I haven't been eating the greatest. One thing I do stay away from is sweets. I had a Smart One's dessert one night and it wasn't pretty. So, I keep my distance from the sweets.
I want to be out of the 200's by December. That's my first goal I set for myself and would be such a huge accomplishment. In order for that to happen, I really need to get my butt in gear. Start counting calories and back to working out on a regular basis. I can do it!! (Hopefully) 50 lbs for the first 3 months and hopefully 50 more the next 3 months. 
It doesn't come off as fast like it did in the beginning. The next 3 months will be much harder. 
When I do reach Onederland, you can bet I will be celebrating. It's getting closer, I can almost smell it! 

*New 3 month post op pics coming soon!

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*Stuck*

Aug 12, 2010

I wake up everyday and I weight myself. I know I shouldn't do it everyday but It seemed like the scale was going down a lot. I was so excited!!! The last few weeks my weight has stayed pretty much the same. My warped mind thinks maybe this was it and I'm only going to lose this much. Maybe I am done! Anybody else think this way? Maybe it's because I am eating more and trying different foods.
I also had a "WOW" moment this past weekend. I picked up doughnuts for my family and I use to LOVE doughnuts!! I would eat white cream/chocolate frosted doughnut anyday! I got a dozen and even picked out my favorite. My "WOW" moment came when everyone was eating them and it didn't even phase me. The old me would be so excited to eat that and even have 2 or 3. Even plan mentally in my head to sneak another one later if there was any left. I use to get so excited about food and that's all I would think about. I can't believe how my life has changed and how I view food. It was really a breakthrough moment.
Back to my question of being "stuck" does anyone else have this problem?

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5 weeks and going strong!

Jul 27, 2010

It's been 5 weeks since my surgery and I'm doing so much better. I still feel tired during mid-day and have to lay down. I'm hoping I will get more energy soon. There's something about the chewable vitimins that I can't take anymore. The taste of it makes me gag and I'm throwing it up after I take it.
I'm trying different foods. Everything seems to be going down fine. I think about certain foods that I haven't had in awhile and once I try a little, I'm so over it! I always wonder if I'm eating more than the average person and if I'm stretching my stomach. I never get to the point of when I feel stuffed. I just have that fear of making my stomach bigger.
I look back before RNY and how much I ate compared to now. I was a BIG eater and I thought about food so much. Now, it doesn't seem as important to me and I'm not obessing about food like I use too.
On July 1st I went to the doctor for a check-up and I weighed 300lbs and today I weigh 267. I've lost 33lbs in 27 days. I read other OH blogs and some people have lost more and some less. I don't know if I'm average or not but I will take 33lbs! My clothes are much looser and I'm droping sizes and feeling good about it! I would love to be under 200lbs by Christmas. That would be awesome. Just have to get on the treadmill- God, I hate working out!

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From Hell And Back

Jul 06, 2010

  It started out on the day of the surgery 6/21/10 I had to be at the hospital by 6:00am. Arrived, checked in, and everything was smooth sailing from there. Next thing I know, I am in my room. The frist day wasn't bad at all. My boyfriend was right there and I felt okay. The 2nd day I volunteered to take a walk down the hall. By the end of the 2nd day in the hospital I noticed I was in a lot of pain. Now it was the third day, the day I was going home. I noticed I was in tons of pain, so much where getting up and going to the bathroom was unbearable. I needed a bed pan. I wasn't breathing right and my blood pressure was dangerously high.   My doctor and his team that came by to check on me that afternoon couldn't believe I hadn't gotten out of bed and I saw the worried look in his and his team eyes. They gave me a blood transfusion and thought that would help me. Hours later and the blood transfusion wasn't the answer.They ordered a cat scan, thinking there was a possible leak. I just had the "leak" test the day before and everything was fine.   I had the cat scan and then the storm hit! Turns out I had a cyst on my kidney that erupted at some point, I was internally bleeding. After the cat scan, they said things are pretty serious. They even said life of death because they also thought I had a blod clot in my lung. With a bleeding cyst and a blod clot in the lung was not good. They could take care of one and not the other. It turns out, I didn't have the blood clot in my lung but I was still internal bleeding from the cyst on my kidney. They knocked me out and put a breathing tube in me. I had a MRI and the next thing I know I woke up the next day and saw my parents coming in the room. I had a collapsed lung, and also got ammonia.   My doctor said I was one of his easiest patients on the operating table. I am not on any medications and had no health problems besides being obese. So why me? I was in ICU for couple days then on another floor and by 6/26 I got to go home.   If it wasn't for my boyfriend Dave and both my parents and best friend who flew from NY to take care me, I don't know where I would be. I had an amazing Doctor (Dr. Ben David) who was with me every step of the way. I am truly blessed to have that love and support team. If I didn't know already, I know now how much Dave loves me. Words cannot describe how he was and how he takes care of me. All the Doctors and nurses were telling me "you better marry that boy".   I'm on my 3rd week and I'm starting soft food. It's going okay. I still don't feel like myself and have zero energy. I sometimes feel like I'm behind but I have to tell myself I had a major complication and I won't be where everyone else is at yet. I did gain 30 lbs in the hospital from all the fluids but I have lost that plus 12 more lbs.   I don't have any regrets, I just wish I could be AMY again. I know she's in there and soon, hopefully she will be released and ready to start this amazing journey.
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RNY EVE

Jun 20, 2010

    Today is the day before my surgery and I can't believe how fast time flies by. Tonight, I will feel like a kid again on Christmas Eve. Tossing and turning waiting for morning so we can open presents. This year is a huge gift I'm giving to myself and it's the best present I will ever receive. Tomorrow will be my first day of getting a healthy, happy life. I've been wanting this for a long time and tomorrow starts my weight loss journey. It feels as if my doctor is handing me a key tomorrow to an unlock door that I could never have opened before. Once I am inside, I am never looking back. The support from my parents and boyfriend has been so incredible and if I didn't have that, I don't know what I would do. Thanks for accepting me and loving me the way I am now. I'm sure this chosen path will be bumpy at times but It will be worth it in the long run. I can't wait to be the person I always wanted to be. I'm ready and you haven't seen anything yet!  





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Never Again

Jun 12, 2010


As I am approaching my surgery date 6/21/10 I am thinking about all the things that hopefully will never happen ever again. It's no life to live being this heavy and these are a few things I never want to think about again....  
Never Again

~Dodging pictures or hiding in them. I hate my picture taken and I don't want to see how I really look. Or have me "Tagged" in pictures on some site.
~Passing a mirror in a store and I can't even look at myself because I am so ashamed.
~Worrying about when I go to a restaurant if I will be able to fit in the booth comfortably or have my boobs laying on the table, as if it was my main course!
~Eating McDonalds 2-3 times a week and seeing the same drive thru woman. Sometimes I will order more so it looks like I am bringing some food back to my "anonymous" friend- LOL
~Terrified of the airplane seatbelts. Avoid flying now!

~Having people say "oh! but your face is so pretty" and the rest of me is??
~Going to an amusement park and of course waiting in a line worrying if I will even fit on the damn ride.
~Avoiding going out with friends because I look and feel disgusted.
~Hopping out of the shower and getting dressed so fast so nobody can catch me naked or so I can't even see myself.
~Have some excuse when I jump on the scale to only see it going up. I will have some excuse that will make me feel temporarily better for ummm 5 min. Man, I have a lot of periods! Haha
~Thinking people are always judging me when they see me. I feel complete strangers walk by me and think to themselves "how could you let yourself get like that."
~Love Lane Bryant but I'm so ready to cut the ties in the near future. I even hate carrying the Lane Bryant bag around in the mall. As if people didn't have a clue already I would shop there.
~Going to a social event and looking around the room to see if I am the biggest person there.

That's it for now. I'm sure there's many more but I have to pull the plug at some point. I can't wait till a year from now and read this back and think about everything I went through and how miserable I was being fat. NEVER AGAIN!


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The Beginning...

Jun 06, 2010

Hi! I just joined and I am looking for new friends and support. Tomorrow I start my liquid diet  for 2 weeks and I have my surgery on 6/21/10 I'm nervous and also I am very excited. Tonight I had my last "supper" and of course I went out with a bang. I have an emotional attachment with food and I am beyond ready to change my life for the better. 
Many people say after they have surgery, they feel that they have their life back. Being over weight my whole life, I guess you could say I can't wait to have a real, normal life. 
I'm ready and can't wait to meet new people along this path to weight loss!
BRING IT!!! 
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06/21/2010
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