Nov 24, 2009
Well, I am 14 mos post op and at the maintaining phase. I've had a rough go of it since September. I developed a bowel obstruction and Peterson's Hernia on the anniversary of my surgery. I had emergency surgery to celebrate my one year surgeriversary. How fitting !!! I had a scare for possible cancer as well this month when a lymph node had to be removed to rule out lymphoma. Now I have a lovely 2 inch scar on the side of my neck to match the patch work quilt on my abdomen.
I don't know if it's the depression or what but my eating habits have gone down the shitter since July. Which coincides with my move back up to New England. I am now lactose intolerant so that is not helping as I cannot use my prior menus which were supplemented by protein shakes made with milk. I will give them a try making them with water but I am not optimistic about that outcome. The chronic diarrhea gets tiresome. I already have issues with staying hydrated, so that doesn't help matters.
I am not putting weight on, but I know that I am headed for trouble if my metabolism slows down with the way I am eating. The sweets monster has become my enemy. My self control and will power is nothing. I still dump, but I eat them anyways. I think its the stress I am under with the divorce, crappy financial situation and my chronic medical problems that are tapping my reserves for will power.
On the up side and what I should focus on is the relationship I am in now with a wonderful man. I met him in August and he has stuck with me in and out of the hospital. Unlike the ex who couldn't be bothered unless it was convienent. I didn't plan on falling in love with him, in fact, I was on a self induced no strings attached mission when we met. That has since flown out the window, along with my self control when it comes to eating sweets. It's not him to blame for that, I was partaking in that destructive behavior before I met him. He is actually quite the health nut, and very diet and food conscious. He is involved in mixed martial arts so he understands alot of the nutrition stuff that we as RNY patients need to adhere to. We just have different reasons for doing so.
So, I guess it comes down to, now what? The chronic diarrhea isn't going to go away with the new found lactose intolerance. Cheese has been a major part of my diet post surgery, so I am worried about not getting my calcium intake. I know milk is out of the question now. Lactose free milk is ok, but not that great. I need to try the soy milk to see how I do with that. I have to stop the sweets. There is no way around it. Once or twice a month is ok, but this daily intake has to stop. I also started drinking soda again. Not alot, and not even everyday. I causes a lot of tummy upset and yet I still drink it. I think it's time to restart the food diary. Getting back to the basics and staying on track. I don't want to let all this hard work go out the window. This wasn't an easy journey, but I definetely do not regret it.
With Thanksgiving upon us, I have lots to be thankful for. My beautiful new body, my lovely daughter, my cancer free health, my supportive parents and friends and most of all, my new found love. Despites lifes ups and downs, I know I am blessed and lucky to have what I have. I do not take any of it for granted.
10 months post op
Jul 07, 2009
I am going to my 20th high school reunion at the end of the month. This ought to be an interesting trip. Flying is so much better now with out my extra person worth of fat flying with me. No more seat belt extenders and my hips fit into the seat with tons of room to spare. I can actually sit cross legged on a plane now. That is pretty cool !!!
I've noticed that now that I am in a maintenance mode, that it is harder to get my fluid in each day. I am fighting to get 32-40 oz a day in because I am having to eat more calories per day to prevent malnourishment. There just isn't room in the pouch or in the day hour wise to get more than that in when I am eating 1500 calories a day. If i go back to 800-900 calories, I have room for the fluid.
I am so very thankful for Dr. Partridge for giving me another shot at my life.
Jan 26, 2009
I am bored with food. It seems like it's the same old thing day in and day out. I am striking out on a lot of recipes. They sound great in principle, but when prepared, are nothing like what I was anticipating. Eggface has great ideas, only they don't taste as good as I had hoped they would. I haven't been adverturous enough to modify them to suit my tastes. Maybe if I spend time doing some test cooking, I can figure out what I need to make them work for me. But, that takes effort, for which I have no energy or inclination to give. Whahhhhh....I am bored with cheese, tuna, bananas, oranges, soup, salads and chicken. I have beef occassionally but only if it's beef stew or pot roast that slow cook for over 8 hrs. Meat that is cooked for less time doesn't sit well with my pouch. I did try a breakfast sausage on Sunday morning...I wasn't impressed. I will stick with my bacon. At least that goes down with little or no problems.
Now that I am working on getting my calorie intake up, my water consumption is suffering. I am only getting 48-56 oz per day. Even that is a struggle. Somedays I can get 32 oz down first thing in the AM. Other days, I find it's 4pm and I still haven't finished the first 32 oz yet.
I need an attitude adjustment....Calgon...take me away !!!
Jan 17, 2009
Ooh, it's soooo close !!!
Dec 15, 2008
It's winter time here. The ice from the storm finally melted yesterday, which is why I could go and walk. Prior to that it was worth your life just to leave the house and get to the car. There is nothing more fun than 8 steps down to a downhill slope to get to the car on ice.
sunny Sunday !!!
Nov 08, 2008
I love my WLS. I love the results I am having so far. What bugs me is eating left overs. Most of the time, the pouch doesn't like it the 2nd time around. Why is that?
I am astounded by the way foods that I used to crave no longer taste good when I try them. We went to Outback Friday night. I have been dying for some steak. I nibbled on my salad, eating more of the lettuce and cheese than anything else. Tried a sliver (one strand) of a blooming onion. Tasted okay but went down heavy. Didn't want any more after that. Got my steak, it was hard as a rock. My daughter graciously shared a 2 oz chunk from hers, but I could only eat about 1 oz of it. It did taste heavenly. I wasn't impressed with my green beans but her broccoli was excellent. I also tried one french fry, it tasted like card board. YEAH !!!!! Fries used to be my greatest addiction.
I am finding that all it takes is a sampling of my former favorites to realize that I am not impressed with them any longer. I am bored though with my current menu but afraid of experimenting with new stuff. Especially, when I am not at home. Friday night was a big risk. Fortunately, it didn't back fire.
With the beautiful sunny weather today, I am gonna take some more pics. I am already down another size in clothes !!! Look out 12's, here I come !!!
Damn, it's almost that time...
Oct 26, 2008
I am returning to work on Wednesday.
I am trying to decide what I want to wear. Maybe I will go today and buy a new shirt with my birthday gift card !!! Shopping always cheers me up.
On surgery day I was 256. As of yesterday, I weigh 226, and I am down 2 sizes. I am quickly running out of clothes. I am keeping my new purchases to a minimum, just enough to keep from going around naked...very frightening !!!
Oct 01, 2008
Weddings should be fun
Sep 27, 2008
I had to go to a family wedding last night. Being in ketosis made the process quite miserable. I had hot flashes the whole time. The wedding service was short and sweet, but the reception was pure agony. I had to sit thru 2 hours of food that I could not eat. And Goddess did I want to. The cheese and veggies, the salad, the roast beef with green beans and roasted potatoes. I could have withstood the dessert just because sugars are such a no-no. But all the healthy foods that were there were killing me because I am on that blissfully blah pureed diet. So I ate my cottage cheese in my little cup with my baby spoon while everyone else enjoyed real food. My SIL even had the balls to tell me how good everything was. Gee, thanks....bitch...
Finally the food course was over and it was time to dance, only, I couldn't dance either. No strenuous activity, so I could only slow dance. This also sucked....what a miserable fucking time.
I should have stayed home !!!!
It's good to be home.
Sep 19, 2008
I still have alot of belly swelling and water retention. I know it will come off, but I am just not as patient about waiting for it to happen as I should be. I have had no complications. No nausea, vomiting or diahrea. Had my first BM today. I walked 1/2 a mile this afternoon as well. I am going to slowly increase back up to my 3 miles a day point. Still have a little lightheadedness from the Dilaudid, but that is getting better. I only took Tylenol all day. Then I switched back to the Dilaudid tonight. I hope to be able to wean off of it entirely by next week.