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I have lost quite a few pounds since my surgery 83 to be exact, however I am trying to figure out howto lose more. I am only losing like one pound every now and then and I am starting to get frustrated, and feeling like a failure. I really need some assistance and motivation.

It has been one month since my surgery and I went back to work on Friday. I was so exhausted I didn't know what to do with myself all I could think about was falling asleep. I tried my very best to work the full day but I found myself nodding off. My energy level is always super low. I also found out that the tiniest bit of grease will really mess me up so this dumping syndrome is kind of getting the best of me. Once I vomit it is like all my energy is gone and I am not even thinking about food. Through all that I have noticed that I am not so round anymore, my face is slimmer, and so are my arms yyyyyaaayyyy. Thanks for the support everyone.

Well... I would like to believe I had a very fast recovery I didn't have any pain at all and I am able to get up and move around. My only problem is the temptation and the fast food that i see all the time. There was one time I really wanted a chicken mcnuggett but I knew it could make me sick so I decided not to go and get it well I cried that day because I realized that Obesity is really a mental disorder. I knew the surgery would fix my weight issue but for some reason I was hoping and praying it would fix my mind to well the answer to that is that it hasn't.... my mind keeps telling me that I want something when I know I am full, this bothers me because I hate these urges. Well today I forgot to eat and i was out running around and I figured a small hamburger chewed really fine wouldn't bother me wwwwwwwweeeeeeeeeeellllllll lets just say I was wrong it made me really sent and now I understand dumping syndrome. I couldn't make it to the bathroom. I will just leave that like that. I am trying to find someone who can trick my mind into not wanting any food that will slow my weight lost.

I am so nervous which I know is normal but I am so jittery... I was up all night due to my Dr. making me take 4 Dulcolax pills y'all know that was a catastrophe lol. Well I will be back later to tell you all what is going on and post some pics of me pre op ttyl OH Fam!!!!!!!!!

Is what people say everytime they look at pictures of me when I was younger, I hate that. One thing is that I have always been a confident young lady, no matter who judged my physical features. I always listened to my family, and others,  judge my appearance, "You have such a pretty face, you would be a beautiful girl if you lost some weight!" What people failed to realize was that beauty really does come from within, no matter how much society says being smaller than a 6 makes you look better, I am still the same person whether I am a 6, 16, or 26, I am still a beautiful person inside and out!!!! I have noticed how a lot of the F.A.T. (Fabulous and Thick) people call themselves gross and disgusting and ugly, I personally believe, those of us who judge ourselves in that matter, are just basing our decisions off what society says. What I always remember even from church was that GOD wants us to LOVE OURSELVES no matter what, and if you are unhappy change it, my dad says to me all the time, "things you can change change them things you cant just leave them alone." I know most of you by now who are reading this are questioning why I chose to go through WLS well...... here we go... here is my story........

Growing up I was a tomboy, I was a very active child I played football and softball and always roller bladed then one day I had an asthma attack which caused me to no longer to be able to play these sports, which of course I still ate a lot of food as if I was still active, which in result caused me to gain weight ( steroids in my meds didnt help much either.)  Even now about 8 years later I still have that active mind just not the body because my doctor explained to me I would have a lot of issues later on in life because of my weight. That made me want to do something about my weight; I tried dieting, exercise, starving, you name it I tried it. Well then a couple of my family members decided to get weight loss surgery, I was scared because of all the horror stories, but started researching and after seeing and hearing all the success stories I decided to go through with it. Now we all know that not everybody agrees with this decision but I have a support group from all ends to help me get through this!!!!