Sheila L.
My name is Sheila, I'm working toward getting lap-banded, hopefully as soon as possible. It's not exactly what I wanted or figured I'd ever need in my life, but here I am "ALL 251 lbs OF ME" I'm one of them big people I never wanted to be, and swore I'd never be... Something good I learned from being Obese is that even though the person is huge and not as pleasing to the eyes, they still have that inner beauty that no one see's, they're people just like everyone else is. I will always look at an obese person with a different view than before. I love you all. People ask me aren't you afraid of getting this done. No, I am not afraid of dying if that's what you are saying, I'm afraid of living like this for the rest of my life. I've wasted too many years of my life, I'm tired of feeling helpless. I use to be this really slim, petite person (110 lb) I was that fun in the sun chick, it was my favorite thing. My husband and I use to take off and drive down the coast line, and walk the beaches, in a little small bathing suit... Believe it or not I even use to be an aerobic instructor, I use to wear them little leotards and tights, but then all of a sudden here came this big huge fat person, and gulp, she ate me... Now I'm this little sexy momma inside this huge obese person, fighting to get out. The big thing wrong with this, is that this huge person has me captive, this big person won't quit eating, I do believe she ate another person, and I now don't have anymore room inside her, I've got to get out of here!!! I am being squished, and I am feeling as though I am drowning. I can't breath in here anymore, I can't walk anymore, and guess what? I feel invisible where I am. Yep especially when I'm around people. I've been left out of a lot of things, especially if it involves any kind of walking, or fun stuff. And of course I don't blame anyone but myself for letting this fat person eat me... I love being with my family, I'm fixing to be a great grand ma, yep 55 year old great grandma... I'd love to go shopping with them and help with the baby shower. Also I want to be able to hold that new baby when it come, I'd like to be able to live a longer life to see all the kids prosper... Now a days when we go places I feel that I hold them back, they're always say "poor Mom" "Are you OK"?... It's no fun anymore doing the things that I once enjoyed doing, believe me, "this is not me". I use to not mind posing for pictures, now I hate having my picture taken.
I enjoyed walking, I use to walk from one peer to the next peer at the beach, now I'd be lucky to make it to the sand. I love the beach, I love the sun, I love the mountains, I love to lay in the sun, and get a golden tan... But obesity and sun don't mix. I stay hot and sweaty, I tell my husband that one day he'll come home and find a pile of ashes on the floor, and it'll be me... I don't get enough sunshine anymore, my doctor says that I have a severe deficiency in vitamin D. I get overheated in the sun.
My Grand kids can't sit on my lap anymore, there just no room, shoot even my cat has a hard time finding room on my lap now-a days... Sometimes my cat will just sit next to me, she still loves me... I even found her laying on top of my stomach while I lay side-ways in bed, it's like a heated water bed to her... I have sleep apnea now, The day I brought home my CPAP machine (sleep apnea machine), I believe foxy kitty thought I was some kind of predator or monster, it took her awhile to come around the bed, I guess I do look scary... She's cool with it now thank goodness...Wish I was :( I'm hoping to get my life back, and also I'm needing help from who ever there is that wants to share their knowledge of lap band...
