jackie B.
This could be me again some day “This is my journey” ~ ~ 05.10.06 ~ ~ (post surgery - surgery date 5.2.06) I have been thinking about this surgery for 3 years, To my father Whom I love and Miss Alot! ~ ~ 05.11.06 ~ ~ I HAVE BEEN DIAGNOSED WITH SLEEP APNEA WITH HYPOENA AND THEN I HAD 2 PERIANAL ABSCESS/CICST AND CAME DOWN WITH BRONCHITIS AND A PNEUMONIA- (WHICH WAS THE REASON MY FATHER WAS IN THE HOSPITAL IN THE 1ST PLACE SO MY MOTHER WENT CRAZY FOR A BIT. UNDERSTANDABLE. AND MOM I AM STILL ALIVE!........) BUT THEN I ALSO KIDNEY STONE AND THEN I GOT APPROVED FOR LAPAROSCOPIC ROUX-EN-Y GASTRIC BYPASS SURGERY AND 1 WEEK BEFORE SURGERY, I CAME DOWN WITH BELL'S PALSEY, AND IT EFFECTED MY LEFT SIDE OF MY FACE AND MY EYE, WITH BLURRED/DOUBLED VISION, MY FACE WAS PARALYZED AND I COULDN'T SHUT MY EYE BUT HALF WAY.... (BOY COULD I DO THE ELVIS SNEER THEN... FUNNY- BUT NOT.... AND THE EYE PATCH WASNT THE GREATEST HOOT EITHER.) THEY ALMOST DIDNT LET ME HAVE THE SURGERY BUT, I GOT TO HAVE THE SURGERY EVEN THOU I WAS ON A HIGH AMOUNT OF STEROIDS. ~ ~ 07.02.06~ ~ I AM CURRENTLY 2 MONTH OUT AS OF 7.2.06 I AM DOWN 55 LBS AND FOR THE 1ST TIME IN 13 YEAR I AM LIGHTER THAN MY HUSBAND BY 5 LBS. I HAVE BEEN EATING ALOT OF GOOD FOOD AND DRINKING ALOT OF WATER AND ALOT OF WALKING, AT LEAST 1/2 HOUR A DAY, ANDTHEN 1/2 HOUR OF TONING. IT IS A LIFE STYLE CHANGE, BUT IT HAS TAKEN THE 3 YEARS TO GET HERE, TO PREPARE ME FOR A BETTER LIFE. ~ ~ 07.06.06~ ~ MY PERIANAL ABSCESS/CICST THAT I HAD BACK IN FEB. OF THIS YEAR IS BACK... AND LARGE AND IS HURTING READY BAD I HAVE A DR APPT AT 10.30 AM TODAY TO GET IT CHECKED OUT. YESTERDAY I WAS IN A LOT OF PAIN AND IT WAS VERY LARGE AND HURTING REALLY BAD AND HAS BEEN FOR THE LAST SEVERAL DAYS. WELL I WENT IN AND GOT NUMBED UP AND SHE CUT IT OPEN AND STUCK A Q-TIP IN THERE TO OPEN IT REALLY WIDE TO DRAIN THE INFECTION OUT, SO I AM NUMBED AND PACKED... TEE-HEE I KNOW TOO MUCH INFOR!!! WELL NOW I AM SCHEDULED FOR DAY SURGERY ON 7.13.06 AT 4 PM AT MERCY HOSPITALIN COON RAPIDS, SO I'LL LEAVE WORK EARLY FOR PREP ON THRUSDAY AND GONE FROM WORK ON FRIDAY AND BACK ON MONDAY. AND THE REASON FOR THE SURGERY IS THAT THE PERIANAL ABSCESS/CICST HAS CHANGED IN TO A FISTULA AND WITHOUT SURGERY IT WILL KEEP COMING BACK. ~ ~ 07.09.06~ ~ Today I weighed myself and I went up 3 lbs.... I feel it is because I haven’t been able to walk in the last week or exercise because it is hard when your butt/anis hurts from the fistula and you have almost non stop drainage and have to have gauze there to catch it, other wise.... I am feeling better today not so much pain, but still concern about having another surgery, I had the hemroidendectoped Dec of 2004, and I still at times have ongoing issues with that. But What worries me is the ABSCESS/CICST, fistula, I can get again in the same region, not the same spot due to the surgery I going to have. I have had a colonoscopy back in 2004 and was given the all clear. But, there is always something in the back of your mind (cancer) when you have several issues like that there. Emotional I am doing good today but still can’t stop thinking about the surgery. I am going to have another hot sit bath to help the pain and the draining. Brian left for work early today, he works from 3 p.m to 11:30pm Wed thru Sunday, so I spend a lot of time by myself. But he stopped by his mom's house on his way to work to pick up my mixer and bowl she had barrowed and she just yelled at him on how he and Jeff are just like there father- no good and abusive...and Johnny is the only good son...she will never let him (john-there father) rest in peace. It is so sad that she can’t let go of her hatred towards him for the sake of her sons. They can't even talk to her with out her going off and yelling about him being no good and calling him fuckhead this and fuckhead that. It's to the point that 2 of the 3 boys don’t want anything to do with her. Because of the way she acts and talks. And she doesn’t understand.... and thinks it has nothing to do with her. I miss my father, we had our issues, but there is a time to let go and move on. I have been working on that myself. It has been just over 6 months since his death. And I still feel numb. I did go shopping the other day and bought two shirts, 1 size 1x which is way to big but it is a flowing skirt like shirt and I liked it and it was on clearance...and the other is a size large... Woo hoo. I don’t try a lot on due to I don’t want to upset myself if I can't get into a size smaller yet. Well but who doesn’t have that issue. Right!! Again it not a # it is how I am feeling. And I am feeling good about my weight lose. ~ ~ 07.10.06 ~ ~ Today is a great day even thou it looks like I gained 3 lbs. But I was able to get into my size 20 Capri’s today and also my husband used my truck and normally he moves the seat forward and when I get in I have to move it back because of my stomach... Guess what I didn’t have to move it backwards and I had room to move around. ~ ~ 07.12.06 ~ ~ Well today I feel great emotionally- Last Night I went thru all my clothes and I was able to pull out all my 3x, 2x, 1x clothes, I had 3 loads of wash, I washed everything because a gal from work is going thru them and taking what she wants and giving me the rest back, so I can do a clothes swap (swapkins) with my support group at the end of the month. Where you drop of clothes and you can get new sizes for yourself. I also had my pants belt that I wore for quite sometime when I 1st got it; I was in the very 1st hole. The after the surgery I kept going down holes and sizes until there where no holes left. Brian checked measured it and it was 6 inches... WOW!! ~ ~ 07.14.06 ~ ~ SURGERY UPDATE Well I made it; I'm a little drug up still, because there still is quite a bit of pain. Yesterday was a very long day, I left work at 9:30 am and got home by 10:00 am and had to start the surgery prep by doing 2 Fleet enema's one at 10 and the again at 11 the first one wasn't that bad, but the second one I could feel it running thru my intestines and the crapping and burning sensation was bad. I was glad when that was over. I don't want to do one of those again too soon. So, Brian drove me to Mercy Hospital in Coon Rapids and we got there about 1 pm and my surgery was moved up from 4 pm to 3 pm. I meet everyone that was going to work on me and they were all great and nice and very informational. I got to talk to Dr Heather Rossi and she said if everything goes good, she should be done in about 1/2 hour. And that they should be able to cut it out and it would make it heal from the inside out and it should not come back again. She would be doing an exam to make sure there were no other trouble spots starting. Worse case would be that it would be too deep and around to much muscle and they would have to band it off for a couple weeks and then have another surgery in several weeks to fix it then... Well it lasted 1/2 hour, she only had to cut it out, and no banding needed!!! Whew, good, really weren’t looking towards any more surgeries. Well, They gave me Vicodin 50 mg- 2 tabs every 4 hours as needed...(also got Xylocaine 2% jelly, which you put it on and it numbs up the area….. I also have 3 days left of taking Augmentin to help the infection) Well the Vicodin was really needed. It took 1/2 hour to drive home and about after 20 mins into the drive, I was really feeling the pain start up and I was getting carsick. When I got home I took 2 tabs, and went to bed, I still had the gauze packing inside of me. Long story short, it was causing extreme pain. It was so bad that the Vicodin wasn't relieving the pain at all. Finally, around 11 p.m, I called the on call Dr and he stated to take 500 mg of aspirin every 6 hours on top of the Vicodin and even though orders stated to take the packing out the next day and take a sit bath, But he wanted me to do it now. Which as soon as the packing came out the pressure and the stabbing pain was greatly reduced. But believe me, not gone. Today, I don't remember much, because with taking the Vicodin every 4 hours it knocks me out right away and I sleep for 3 to 3 1/2 hours and then I do it all over again. At 6 pm tonight, I dropped myself down to 1 pill and I am still awake. But I can still feel the pain, so I took another sit bath, then came to do this update. Picture 4 taken today. ~ ~ 07.23.06 ~ ~ Well Today was another great day, I went to the support group, Swapkins, Where you take in your clothes that are to big and you lay them out with everyone else’s clothes by size to make it easy. And you look through for new sizes for yourself. The greatest thing is everyone there ranged from all sizes. There was a lot of clothes. I took like 9 to 10 paper bags full from spring to winter wear. I brought home two nice full ones back for myself. And I was really happy with that, every thing I picked out by just eyeing it up fit me! There are like 2 or 3 items, I would feel better in after losing another 5 to 10 lbs but they still fit! I hated getting new clothes and getting home to find out they didn’t fit because, I hated going into the dressing room seeing it not fitting and I would give up on shopping, because it made me soo sad. I also went down like 2 or 3 lbs since my last weight in, But that is good, even thou I haven't been able to exercise the last 2 weeks due to my other surgery and being so sore. Donna on me plan to pick it up again and walk for ½ hour at lunch at work. I also plan on weighing myself every couple weeks. But will only update the weight chart now monthly. ~ ~ 07.27.06 ~ ~ HAPPY ANNIVERSARY 10 YEARS! WOO-HOO! Brian and myself got married 10 years ago today in PIne City, MN in the marina on 3 pontoon boats tied together. It was a beautiful day. We have had our good times and enough of the bad times to in the last 10 years. But here we are a total of 13 years later. Hoping for 13 more!!! *** I just got beautiful flowers from my husband from Bachman's delivered to work it has roses and other little pupple flower and greenery..... I can't do it justice. I'll download the pics later. ~ ~ 08.02.06 ~ ~ Well not much to update on beside I am feeling alot better, I still get sore only once in a while and have been off pain pills for 1 ½ weeks, wasn't easy. still use gel here and there. I am no longer extremely obese. JUST OBESE! can wait to be just fat, just a bit over weight, a bit chubby..... I know. I know alot more hard work, and it doesn't end there. Brian will take some new pictures of me this weekend so I hope to update the three month pics. ~ ~ 08.15.06 ~ ~ Tonight Klarisa is visiting!!!!!!!! She will be staying until sunday 8.20.06, I cant wait to see her. I mean, We talk on the phone. But I haven't seen her since my dads funeral in December. I don't have alot planned. I have to work all week also, from 7.30am to 4.00pm so guess who is driving me back and forth to work to have my truck... Humm.... Saturday my mom will come in town and have lunch with myself and Klar and a friend of mine and her little boy. then go shopping. then sunday take Klar out for breakfast with her friend leanne and her little boy. Other than that it up to Klarisa. ~ ~ 08.20.06 ~ ~ Well Klarisa is home now and the week went by faster than I would of liked. Klarisa put me to work and got me to finish her scapbook ffrom the year 2004 thru college and her 1st apt.-(2 pages each) alot to get done. My arms and hands are sore, but I get that way when I use them too much, soing things with alot of details, like cross stiching and even crocheting. I'll be sore for several days but at lease the book is done and she has it. It made her happy. Klarisa was surprised on how I looked and happy to hear and see that I really do watch what I eat now. **** Happy news- I got into my size 16 shorts this weekend... wow... Well I am tired so going to get somethig to eat and relax the rest off the night. and watch some tv. ~ ~ 09.01.06 ~ ~ Ok Today is my last day at my current job at Assurant Health that i have been with for 3 year 1 month and 1 day.... Wheww mouth full... The company has been very support for me this complete year with starting off with my fathers death, then to me helping out my sister chris in CA for two weeks and then myself getting sick and taken time off and then getting the cicst and taking time off, then quiting smoking.... and then getting the bell's palsy and then having my surgery and then having my cicst return and having surgery on them again... and then just all the normal stuff that happens in life with little bumps down the road...... Well after all that i am ready to start an new part of my career, with my new body that i got into size 16 short!! wheww .... Everyone Have a Great and Safe Weekend! ; ) ~ ~ 09.06.06 ~ ~ Ok, Today was the 2nd day on the job and I still love it. Hey how many companies have 4 oversized recliners in the cafeteria so you can lay back and watch TV??? and a large buffet room for company party and events attched to a patio. And the crem of de crem..... an work out room... YES a work out room with 10 different things to workout on plus a vcr and dvd player with a large TV..... and a locker room to clean up in/shower. And yes there are alot more little thing that add up also, but to many to name.... So I am very happy with my decesion. I will hopefully update pics later next week. Have a great Night Everyone! ~ ~ 09.17.06 ~ ~ We last week at my doctor appt they put me on iron and vitamin C and I am also working for an hour 3 days aweek after work. I didnt go biking this weekend just wasnt movitaved... Plus the monthly visitor came which I am not use to. Before the surgery I had 1 to 2 a year. and since the surgery I havent missed month....ick.. Sorry the all the women that had it monthly for most of your lives... So far this is the only thing I dont like about the surgery. I am still loosing a quite a bit of hair but from what I hear it will hopefully slow down around 8 or 9 months. I also have hit a small platue, with the weight lose. If i keep losing 5lbs a month I will be happy because I am still loosing. ~ ~ 09.20.06 ~ ~ Well last night was my first major cheat- I was thinking ice cream and chocolate... but I went to burger king on got Brian an order of french fries and a chocolate shake and I got myself a vanilla cheese cake.. Yeah I ate it but I ate some of Brian’s french fries dipped into his shake... Yup a Minnesotan thing.... Well today I am back to the fruit and veggies with meat for lunch and yogurt with granola for breakfast. And I will be working out for at least an hour tonight. ~ ~ 09.25.06 ~ ~ Well I went shopping this weekend and very happy to see that Ii was able to buy pants in the size of 18 and some 16, the 16 might hang in the closet for several weeks, because I feel they are alittle bit to snug. But very glad to be in the 18's... Brian also looked at the scale on Sunday, because I thought there was something wrong with it but it showed me at 201-199???? not to sure. I am going to workout tonight so I plan to double check with the work scale. Because it also has matched the one at home.. Well time to workout for an hour then head home. Ps. We, (mom,tim, debbie, deanne) went to the event for Macy's and it is traveling around the country, it was fun I will post a small pic tonight. ~ ~ 10.02.06 ~ ~ Today is my 5 month date!! WOW Sometimes it seems longer than that. I will be updating tonight with pictures. and you can see my first haircut since surgery, Been afraid to get it cut due to the hair loss but I think it's ok. You cant tell. ~ ~ 10.04.06 ~ ~ Sorry still working on Brian getting my photos taken so I can resize them and upload... hopefully within the next couple days....SORRY! ~ ~ 10.05.06 ~ ~ Ok! DONE!! if you didnt let the page complete load... go back to the top to veiw the filmstrip of pictures. Faces, frontview, sideview. Now that I am 5 months out I will do adding of me/profile picture every other month. ~ ~ 10.12.06 ~ ~ FOR ALL OF THOSE NOT IN MINNE-BURR-AAA (MN) we have had snow the last 2 days and it is freezin'. and yes it was sticking on the 1st day.!!! this morning I had to scrapp snow off the truck windows..... Not a happy camper! BUT for the good news.... my mom and myself and brian went in ton ticket for Trans-Siberian Orchestra on dec 30th at the Xcel Energy Center, main floor. For all of you that dont know the story behind thid special night and why it's so important to get tickets again this year.... Last year my mom and dad bought tickets for me and Brian but i knew about it, So the big syrprise was really for Brian... dad was so excited about the tickets he gave them to Brian early ... a couple days before he went into the hospital... my dad couldnt stop talking about it it and asking Brian about them and promised Brian that next time he would come with us.... Well as you know my dad died a week later. we went to the concert 2 days after dad died which was very, very hard. Brian wasnt sure if we should go at all and was thing of not going. but mom talked him into it and re-explain on who excited dad was about this gift...... We went and had the worst seats in the world the very top row and it was so steep Brian and I were both light headed and dizzy. We went to the customer service area and explained the seating and before I could even finish explaining the lady said no problem she made one quick call and got us 2 seats 2 sections down front row, of the upper balcony... when me and Brian saw the seat we got we cried ..... dad did it again..... We did tell the lady my father got us the ticket and he died a couple days ago and she said sorry and I hope you enjoy your night on your dad! WE DID!!! Check them out in your area... you wont be sorry money well spent! Click on the name below to see their website. I will have there music out her durning xmas. ~ ~ 10.18.06 ~ ~ OK CAN WE SAY STRESSED!! We for everyone that hasn’t heard my mom is in the hospital again...!1st off she was in a car accident on Oct 2 and decided not to tell any of us kids until a week later. Let's just say we understand she is an adult and felt she needed to do this on her own.... BUT... Yes there is a BUT....She was hurt and it could of been worse..... The guy that pulled out in front of her was drunk and this makes # 5 for DWI's.... GREAT>>>YEAH... NO>>>>>>> Well the car got totaled. Now she has been in the hospital since last Sunday night (10.15.06) Stanley and Ellen 2 of mom's neighbors took her there thinking it was a heart attack... then she was admitted to the hospital. And we have gone from one diagnoses to another. Well I hopefully get another update tonight. ~ ~ 10.27.06 ~ ~ Mom is being released tonight. I'll be picking her up after work, and she will be staying at my house for a couple weeks... She has a pic line in her arm and there will be Nurse's visits. Hopefully the anitbotics will do the job and there will not have to be any surgery. As for me I have exersised since last week Thrusday, I feel a little guilty for that but I have been so tired and my diet hasnt been the best. I am kind of scared to even get on the scale because of this. Well see. Have a Great Halloween weekend and stay safe!! ~ ~ 10.31.06 ~ ~ HAPPY HALLOWEEN!!!!! Well mom is at my house and she is doing better, we have nurse visit and lab runs (pickup) and she is doing the IV at 9 am each morning. She is having another MRI this morning and a dr visit and another dr visit on thrusday. So still keeping me very busy. Thanks to everyone for the support. It is really cols and windy today feels like the 1st day of Winter... YUP I said it WINTER... BRRR... Well the only bad news is thru all of this I started Smoking again.. But I plan to quit. I need to, But somehow it helps with the stress.... Dont ask me why, But it does. But with it so cold out I only smoked a 1/2 cig because of the very cold wind. Maybe if it stays this way I'll cut back sooner than later. ~ ~ 12.04.06 ~ ~ Hey I AM BACK!!! Sorry havent had the time or energy to update, But I am back on track, As of this morning I am down to 188 lbs That's 3 lbs away from my 100lb goal lost. Well I try to get on track with updates better here. Have a great day! ~ ~ 12.11.06 ~ ~ Hello again still at 188lbs but I went shopping this weekend and I am in a size 16 jean and not squeezed into. Wooo-Hooo! I bought my self and new coat with a real mink fur trim Size large. and a bunch of new shirts. Some are form fitting ..woo-hoo wounld of dont that a year ago! so as of Dec 2nd I am down 12 inches in my waist and 11 on my hips. Woo-Hoo! and ONLY 7 months out. I hope EVERYONE has a very Happy Holidays, I am taking for work next week Dec 19th thru Dec 26th returning Dec 27th. And Not to sure what I am going to be doing ... But the 21st is dad's 1 yaer Annv of his death. Brian took off so beside going to therapy I am sending a quite day with him. P.S. I will try to update my picture soon and my grid, Have been busy working on family x-mas gift projects. ~ ~ 12.25.06 ~ ~ Merry Christmas to all. Have a great day! ~ ~ 01.01.07 ~ ~ Happy new year to all let’s hope this year is 10 times better! ~ ~01.03.07 ~ ~ Well it's the New Year Hopefully this year will start out better and end better than last year. Dont have much to say other than I am at 183 lbs. 3 lbs away from loosing my 1st 100 lbs. Have a Great Year Everyone! ~ ~ 01.08.07 ~ ~ Good Morning everyone sorry for the look for my site they have converted the format and I haven't had the time to fix everything..... ****** BUT GREAT NEWS AS OF LAST NIGHT I WEIGH IN AT 178!!!! I AM OFFICALL 102 LB DOWN!!! WOO-HOO!!!! BMI Categories:
but was unsure if I wanted to do it because my mother had the
lap band 7 years ago. And had so many problems with the lap
band and still does to this day. I finally decided about a year ago.
I am submitted my information the week of Thanksgiving to
Park Nicollet to review to see if I was a good candidate.
Within a week I got my response and they where forwarding
my information to my health insurance company (health partners)
for approval. Which I did receive giving me approval from
1.31.06 thru 1.30.07 to have the surgery done.
Well every thing went smooth for that, butrough and bumpy for me
emotionally. Dec 21st 2005, my father was in the hospital for
Bronchitis and a slight case of Pneumonia, Which was not that bad,
but it was the blood clot in the back of his knee that dis-lodged
and caused his sudden death. After that I was there a lot for
my mother, who lives 1 1/2 hours from me, but I am
the closest living child to her, So me and my husband did a lot
to help her out. Then in Feb I quit smoking and drinking coffee
and drinking soda all in the same week... Only thing that helped
me with that, was I went to CA to help my sister with her 1 month
old baby, (and 3 other kids), who was born shortly after my dad died.
Which he was planning on being in CA for 2 months to help her out
due to she was suffering from a syactic nerve. So my mother went out to
CA for Jan. and I went for 2 weeks in 1st half of Feb and my other sister
took the other half of Feb. Then my mother blew her knee out and was
in the hospital for a week and then she cameto stay with my husband
and me for a month 1/2.
~ ~09.02.07~ ~ Well long time no hear, But here I am 1 year and 5 months
out I am down 111 lbs and my BMI is 30.9
can be better I have gone from wearing 3x to 12/14's
depends on the maker. Per my doctor I have lost 75%
of my body mass and So that means I have reached there goal.
I would like to loss at least another 20lbs all in the
lower stomach area. That would put me about 95% of my body
mass lost if i loose another 20lbs. It's hardest spot to loose.
I have bought my self a new bike and I have been biking abit,
But you can always do more.
I am still having back issue though, So next week I am going to
go so an orthopedic doctor to have them do a MRI and get new
custom made orthodics for my shoes and to see what they suggest
next for me since, I have lost all this weight and I am still having
back pain issues. I will try to update better, But not much is going on.
~ ~ 09.04.07~ ~ Well Back from the Dr office they took a x-ray of my back
and didn't see anything that they could treat but feels I may still have a
hernated disk so friday I will be going for a MRI. I will update more then.
I hope every had a happy and safe Holiday.
Your Body Mass Index
The Height you entered is 5 feet, 2 inches. The Weight you entered is 169 pounds.
Your Calculated BMI is: 30.9