babynurse1
I Love Summer
Jun 26, 2010
We spent the day at the pool ....with Jennifer and little Logan.....watching him and Madison together is so much fun....I can not believe what a good swimmer she is getting to be.....at 8 yrs old, I guess the last 5 yrs of swimming and diving lessons are paying off, I told her that will be her college scholership money being on the swim team....LOL......I think I got a little sunburned!!.....Lately I have not been doing a good job of eating, I've been to busy or just do not feel like it, I eat my yogert ( my main food staple) and s/free puddings, and always, always drink drink drink!!..as far as eating a reg meal Ive not done so good with that, I need to just force myself and another reason is because it still hurts alot to eat, or i get sick to my stomach, take your pick...
Most of the time I forget I even had any type of surgery and just go on about my daily business, ( that is the way it is suppose to be ) that is until I eat something and it hurts so bad, then today when I wore a 2 piece bathing suit to the pool , I was reminded that I had surgery and this was the outcome and how happy Im that I did have it!!......eating used to be such a big part of life....now it is because I have to eat to survive, not that I want to eat because it is there or taste good.....and Im full after only a few bites...that was the hardest to get in my head it took me a long time to stop giving my self large portions and then wasting it because i could not eat it.....or going out to eat and ordering alot, now I can eat 2 or 3 bites of something and be full.....i do try to eat 2 or 3 bites of a few different things on my plate......I was a big salad eater before now it does not taste good, tuna is another thing that i have lost the taste for.......YUCK!.....it is so odd how it changes your taste for things, even some things cooking will make me sick. I still love mexcian food and spicy food.......one of the worse is my love of coffee, I could drink 4 cups every morning, now i drink 1 cup of coffee wtih s/free vanilla creamer in it........I really want french toast but i have not had any, I know I could but I do not even want to try it , even if i could do it all sugar free and low cal. I think I would be addicted to having it!!..I would do a better job on cooking and trying new things if I felt like eating and had the energy to actually cook it, I do a great job for Madison and make sure she has her balanced meals etc....I'm a different story. She knows about my surgery and if we are out to eat or in the store she will say you can not have that because of sugar, she even knows where to look on the labels for sugar and carb, protein content!........Im not sure if this is a blog or a open diary !!!.........Im watching 3 dogs this weekend mine included......OMG they are keeping me jumping, mine is a schnauzer, one is a Bichon Fr. and the other is a 8 month old chiuauawa ( however that is spelled). Yesterday we went to see Marmaduke, what a cute, funny show , I told Madison we will have to buy that one, I love the $2.00 movies, plus yesterday was almost 100 outside, so it was nice to sit in the movies with something cold to drink and relax, I bring my own big bottle of crystal light and when Im told I can not bring my own stuff in the movies I show them the card my dr gave me that i had this surgery and for them to please allow me to bring my own drink and to order off the childrens menu, so far Ive had no problams with it.
I need to have my surgeon or family dr check out this area on my lower back left hand side, it has been hurting for a few weeks now, sometimes it hurts alot more than others, it just does not feel right, maybe it is just my back giving me problems again , after 12 back operations it could be anything, I get to see a wonderful dr that specializes in back problems he actually is the inventer of this new surgery and device that is not as invasive, Ive heard good things about it, he is my surgeons cousin which I did not know until I was talking to him about it, he said he would refer me, but not until Im all healed , and that could be a few more weeks out.........come on it has been 7 months!!...for the first 3 months I was seeing him every week ,,,,then every 2 weeks and now it has been 4 weeks since my last visit.......It is 7:35 pm and Im really tired so Im going to go sit outside watch the dogs play for awhile , wait for Maddy to get home, she is with Jennifer and Logan and then Im going to bed!!........her and I usually have movie night on saturday nights but not tonight , I could not stay awake to watch it, we pick a movie , crawl in my bed, eat popcorn and she usually falls asleep..lol..............
Tomorrow is another day ............Night
