MY NAME IS TERRY LEE AND THIS IS A MINI STORY OF MY LIFE. Keep in mind that Ihave always been majorly over weight had thoughts of suicide many times because of it. And so here is my story I hope it isnt to grafic for this site I have had a long struggle just to live.. My dear brothers and sisters in Christ, I am so thank-ful for the christian community who has helped me in my life or I wouldn't be here right now or I would be in prison today. Lets start back when I was a little girl at the age of 8 years old. I lived in Brown Hill Pa. and across the street was a friend of the families and his name was Richard who had raped me when my mother was gone to the store I was covered with blood from head to toe just about .. Many things happened from that time till I was taken from my mother and placed in foster care with Mr. & Mrs. Ray Anderson who at that time lived on Crane Road in Edinboro.. I didn’t realize it at the time but it was the best thing that had happened to me in my life. I was a rotten kid didn’t think that no one could love me so I lashed out with the things I did like stealing ,lieing ,smoking, and breaking into their home. I was very ungrateful.. Mom and Daddy took me to church many times a week to the Franklin Center United Methodist Church for six years they filled me with the word of God and the Love they had for me that I didn’t think I deserved they never stopped lovin me .. Then I had pushed them to far and I w as taken from their home and I was devastated . I ended up in a foster home in Erie who didn’t care bout the kids just the money coming in every month.. I ended up going on a date and was raped by two men on 26th street it was brutal .. Ran away from there to my real mothers home I found her in Union City PA.. Went there and stayed and was hiding from my case worker I didn’t want to go back to Erie he finally found me and gave my mother back custody of me..Which at the time was not a good thing I was messin around with this man and that man doing all sorts of drugs and really didn’t give a darn.. From the age of 16-21 I gave birth to 3 boys which I couldn’t take care of so my mother got one and the childrens dad got the other 2 ( not their fathers but their dad) .. I was to involved with my drugs and sleeping around. Got married at 26 years old and again at 32 years old then in 1996 I was divorced for the 2nd time.. Then here came that garbage I was doing.. I was living in Lincoln Nebraska and on my own no man no husband I was free I thought.. Then I ran into a gal I worked with that introduced me to Meth for the second or third time I got to doing that and I meet this guy named Tony, we started doing Meth together and I ended up in and out of jail for various things drug paraphania and domestic assualt cause he was beating me all the time I done Meth for over a year straight every day I ended up selling Meth with 5-10 ounces going through my apartment a week. Which made me not hungery to eat anything or sleep at all. I had done almost every and any drug imagined. In that 14 months I lost over 100 pounds. I did this for over a year and I was getting tired of it going to jail , doing drugs I was tired just sick and tired. So one night I had bought a 8 ball ( 3 and a half grams) of cocaine and I got me a bag of needles sat down and told God, you either take me or show me what I am to do cause I cant take this anymore I am sick of it, then proceeded to do the cocaine. I had blacked out for a little while when I come to all I could think of was the woman who was my mom here in Pa Mrs. Blondie Anderson . She had planted that seed of Christ a long time ago and I never forgotten it. So I packed my car and I was off so I thought with 36.00$ in my pocket and a half tank of gas to go over 900 miles.. So down the road I went and guess what just outside of Lincoln Nebraska my car broke down Satan didn’t want me to go anywhere I looked at my car but couldn’t see nothing cause it was night time I sat there for about 15 minutes this car passed and then a few minutes later here it come again there was a gentleman and his wife and daughter in car and he tried to help me got me some anti-freeze but that didn’t work so he told me to follow him to the gas station up the road a little bit and then him and some one else was checking my car out and found out that the pistons were bent all I could do was sit down and cry. I wanted out of there so badly the wife come to talk to me and asked where I was going to I told her well I was going to my mom’s in PA but I was gonna stop by my girlfriends house in Seymoure Iowa first. She went to talk to her husband and then come back to tell me to put in their car what I really needed, that they were going to take their daughter to a baby sitters house and take me to Seymoure which was 4 hours away and they just lived 10 minutes down the road. She was saying that that is the Christian thing to do I began to feel a little funny thinking that I just might be worth something.. I got to Seymoure and emptied the car and they gave me their address to me God Bless you Terry and we will keep praying for you ,, back to Lincoln they went. My friend of 12 years and I was happy to see each other so I thought we sat up the rest of the day talking I told her what I was doing and got myself into and she said now Terry Lee you know better and I thought that she would help me after all we knew each other for a long time I was sadly mistaken.. I was trying to get a bus ticket to my mom’s here in Pa through Red Cross, while trying to do that I called mom Anderson and asked if I could come home she said I was crying so hard she could only understand home and she realized it was me and said yes that’s all I needed to hear.. The next day Sheri went somewhere with someone and when she got back she flipped out saying that I wanted her husband and believe it or not I could of cared less about a man at that time. Told her husband why the heck did he let me take the car to get cigarettes and called me some few choice words. So I gathered what I could carry and off I went walked down the road and someone picked me up they took me to the paved road let me off , I thanked him and got out . Sat across the road sitting on my suit case’s I started to cry so hard that my chest was hurting, this mini van went by me and had husband wife 3 kids in it went down the road towards where I just come from. A few minutes later here comes the mini-van again it pulled up front of me and stopped, the lady opened her door and asked if I was alright I said no that I just wanted to go home and I couldn’t do that cause I didn’t know which way was Des Moines Iowa was cause I was told by Red Cross that if I could get there they would buy me a ticket home. Crying un-controllably the lady turned to her husband talking some thing I couldn’t hear what they were saying she turned around and asked me I have a deal for you if you come to church with us we will take you to Des Moines Iowa what do you say ,, I said yes I will go to church with you. So back into Seymoure we went and I got out of the van put my stuff in the church and then the pastors wife and the lady that just gave me a ride took me in this room and was like cornering me telling me that I needed to talk about Jesus and I needed to accept him and all that stuff that was the last thing I wanted to hear at the moment finally they gave up, when I was ready to flip out on them. Then up to the sanctuary we went listening to the pastor he was saying they had a guest speaker that night and guess where he and his family was from that’s right Des Moines Iowa he gave his talk and then the pastor asked if he and his family could give me a ride to Des Moines they said yes of course.. Then the pastor come and was talking to me I don’t remember what was said but he in the end gave me the Bible that his dad had given him , and I still have it today, he was a nice gentleman. When the evangelist was ready to go I jumped into the van and off they were,, they started asking me questions about my life and my family trying to make me feel comfortable and they did I felt like I was safe, first time in a long time. We got to Des Moines and they dropped me off at the shelter there and the people put me in a room with a lock on it they could see that I never been in a shelter before . The next morning I got up and I grabbed my stuff and asked where I go to get to the welfare office they said across town I didn’t have no money at all for a bus. So the guy running the shelter took me in this room and gave me enough money for the bus and said don’t say nothing cause that could get him in trouble I said I wouldn’t. When I finally got to the welfare office I filled out the papers I needed to and waited and waited they finally called my name and they could only give me like 43.00$ , I called Red Cross and talked to the guy who was helping me before and I started freaking out, keep in mind that I was going through with drawls from the Crank and Cocaine he just kept saying Terry you need to calm down and assured me that they would get me home to Edinboro Pa.. When they finally got the money for my ticket it was donated by a local church. They come and got me, got my bus ticket and gave me 5.00$ for something to eat . Took me to the bus station paid my ticket and said bye and I just waited and waited and waited the bus finally came and the next day I was at my mom’s. Mom came to the bus station here in Erie I was so dirty I wouldn’t even let her hug me, I was ashamed.. Got a shower that I hadn’t had in like a week and ate some food. My mom say’s that when she come and got me that I looked like I was on deaths door my skin was grey and yucky I had sores all over my self, arms, face and legs from the drugs it was awful. Mom got the bed ready I told her mom I wont be able to sleep I haven’t slept in like a week seemed like she said just try and I guess I feel asleep. While I was sleeping mom got on the phone and had prayer chain for me that I wouldn’t have with drawls and I would get better, when I woke up the next day I didn’t have any with drawls at all.. I am thank-ful that Christ has straightened me out cause I am married now to a wonderful man and I doing GOD’S work and am fulfilled. So you see all through my life I have had the christian community around me and I thank GOD that they were. Kept me alive. Got me to here and changed my life through Christ Jesus . So now my life is full of love I had finished my Koinonia 184 and now I am bless to be able to help others in their walk through Kairos the prison ministry, me and a number of others in this room is involved with. Kairos is a blessing to me cause I have 3 boys and all of them have been in prison. I love working for Christ doing his will and watching the results right in front of you. So just remember you can always turn to your christian community for help or just peace. My Christian community is awesome people I had a funeral last year and my friend who took me didn’t like funerals, but she took me out of love for me. That’s christian community. Last year I had to go to California because my mother was dieing in ICU and there was no one here with my husband to watch over him and who did that my Christian community. Remember that if your real family turns against you, you always have people to talk to your Christian community. MAY GOD BLESS YOU AND KEEP YOU SAFE THANK-YOU. THATS MINI OF MY LIFE NOW I AM DOING SOMETHING FOR ME AND GETTIN THIS SURGERY DONE TO STAY AROUND LONGER FOR MY HUSBAND AND MY FAMILY BUT ESPECIALLY FOR MY SELF -------------------------------------------------------------------------------- |
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