Evelyn,
You are in my thoughts and prayers daily, sister. I know that you are in the hand of the One who knows you best - in fact designed you to be the beautiful woman that you are.
'"The Lord bless you and keep you; the Lord make his face shine upon you and be gracious to you; the Lord turn his face toward you and give you peace.'" Numbers 6:24-26
Blessings,
dina