Lawd!! Please pray for me.

Aug 15, 2009

Ok so I'm at my cousin's house for her daughter's 2nd birthday party.  There is so much food here that it ought to be a crime.  Fried Chicken, Potato salad, homemade mac and cheese, turkey, hamburgers, hot dogs you name it.  UGH!!  So I'm downstairs in the Man Cave trying to stay away from the smells.  My aunt came down from NY and made these coconut and rum concoction that EVERYONE is saying is off da chain.  I'm DYING ova here!!
Please keep me lifted in prayer!  I told them in November they need to have a "Surprise" 39th Birthday Party for me and have the same homemade food but only with healthier ingredients   LOL
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Im Home

Aug 12, 2009

Hello Everyone
I'm finally home.  Surgery went well.  Said he had to repair my hernia??  Who knew.  Not in that much pain but  a little uncomfortable.
I'll write more when I have more energy.
Thank you everyone for the prayers!!
Keisha
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STARVING!!!

Aug 09, 2009

OK so we made it home safely from my parents house in New Brunswick, NJ.  But I am so bloody hungry!!  I know I can make it  but gesh this is hard!  I have a new found respect for those who have to do more than two days of the clear liquid diet  I wish I could sleep all day again tomorrow to avoid the hunger pains but I have SOO much to do tomorrow to get ready for Tuesday. I may run downstairs and get a small bowl of Rita's Water Ice.  I LOVE it!!  But I'm feeling so lazy tonight and tired from my drive home.  Any suggestions would be greatly appreciated :-)  One day down, one more to go ..
Ok, just needed to do a short vent.  I'm off to bed.   Smooches..........MUAH
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Two days and counting...

Aug 09, 2009

Last night I had my last meal as a Phat Chick!! LOL  There is a Jamaican Restaurant not to far from my parent's house in New Brunswick that had the best (or so we thought) Jamaican food.  I got Stewed Brown Chicken, rice and peas and cabbage.  It was OKAY   I was sooooooooo disappointed.  Then to make matters worse my stepfather said he stop going to them a while ago because they took so long and the food wasn't as good.  NOW he tells us! lol  Really wish I had some Bahamian food ~Chicken Souse (soup), Peas & Rice, Mac & Cheese and sum Johnny Cake.  Talk about some good food!!   Can't wait until I can eat mushies because then I can have Fire Engine (another Bahamian favorite) Grits and Corn Beef.  At least I can eat that without much guilt.
Ok, so I slept most of the day because I didn't want to smell those fabulous scents coming from my parents kitchen.  Did not want to be tempted.  Had my oldest bring me a frozen SF fruit pop.  Ate that then went back to sleep.  Was up most of the night into early am with my youngest.  For some reason she was soooooooo fussy.  Think I finally rested my eyes around 5 a.m.  Was upset because I missed the early service.  I really wanted to go and this is my church away from  home.  Felt the need to worship in HIS house to thank HIM for all the blessings HE has been raining down on my lately but HE knows my heart, so I don't feel as bad.
I'm upstairs again with some Chicken Noodle Soup (strained of course) and it doesn't taste half bad.  I also have some lemonade Crystal Light.  So I'm Golden.  HOWEVER, of course my stepfather is continuing from Sunday Breakfast and is putting it down for Sunday dinner .  Black eyed peas (I don't eat that but it sure smells good), Baked BBQ chicken, Cornbread, and Greens.  LAWD pray for me!!  lol  I'm going to stay upstairs and sip on my soup and drink my water.  YUMMY!!   I'm just joking.  I almost half way there.   The day is almost over.  Will probably leave NJ around 7 or 8 tonight.  Get home unpack, change the linen on the girls beds and in my guest room and I will probably be knocked out around 11 p.m.  1 day down and 1 more to go!    My bed arrives tomorrow so I'm super excited about that.  Feel kind of bad for the guy delivering it because I have a three story and he is going to get a work out.  But at least when I come home from the hospital on Wednesday I will have fresh linen,  a clean room and a stocked mini fridge.  So all I have to do is take a shower and jump in bed with my pain meds.  Prayerfully, I won't need them but I have no problem with using them if needed :-)
Anyhoo, I'm off to finish my broth (it's cold now ) but my drink is nice and cool.  Have to pack up the car and hit the road.
Take care Friends  
Keisha
p.s. can you tell that I love these emoticons (or whatever they are called??  they crack me up)
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Three days and counting..kind of long sorry

Aug 07, 2009

Ok, I had to vent so I apologize for the length.  But if you get thru it thanks for taking the time to read my thoughts.

I've gotten all my clearances, lost my weight required for my insurance and then some and have the support of selected family and friends.  It's funny because there are some who say well if you lost x amount of pounds pre-surgery you shouldn't have your surgery.  They just don't get it and at this point I don't have time to explain.
The cool thing is that I truly think my stomach is shrinking..I tried to eat and only eat a quarter of what I have.  I'm starting to use my youngest's IKEA plates that are much smaller so that I'm not loading my plate up with a bunch of  food.  I'm proud of myself on that aspect
The past weeks well few months have been interesting to say the least.  Let me just say all the praises be to the Creator.  HE has heard my cries.  About six months ago I thought I was having a really bad break out of hives (I've been VERY stressed).  Went to my primary doctor and he said it was hives and prescribed some meds. They didn't work all they did was make me sleepy.  Thought I had RA turned out I have OA & my joints were killing me.  During that time my now ex husband got mad at me for taking him to court for spousal and child support so he served me with custody (joint he couldn't handle our little one full time) and later with divorce papers.   PLUS I have been unemployed for going on two years now and only working part-time.  My background is Event and Project Management (downsized in 07).  SOOO the bills are adding up and my checking account is getting smaller.  Mortgage, car note, every day bills etc.  So to say that I was stressed is an understatement.  But if nothing else my struggle/journey has brought me closer in my Walk with God.  So fast forward to three weeks ago and after a night of hives ALL over I decide to flip my mattress.  Guess what I find.....FREAKIN BED BUGS!!  Freaked me out.  I immediately grabbed some raid and Clorox and started spraying.  I think my bedroom was a toxic hue because I was trying to kill em dead.  LOL  I opened all the windows in my bedroom and went to the 2nd floor (I have a three story) and slept in my daughters' room.  Woke up to no hives the for the first time in abut six months.  I continued spraying with a spray for bedbugs that I purchased at Bed, Bath & Beyond along with a $90 mattress cover that was designed for bedbugs.  So I'm thinking that may help and I went two weeks without sleeping in my bed and tried to sleep on my mattress dozed off to find a bed bug on my thigh.  Freaked out again.  Moved into the guest bedroom.  lol  Well the owner of the salon and I were in the salon by ourselves Tuesday and I was calling around trying to find someone to come in and treat my room.  So she asked me why don't I just get a new mattress (trust me I have thought about it but..) and I told her that at that moment I had like $20 to my name (I have liquidated everything during my marriage and divorce - if I do this again I pray that I marry a MAN not a little boy trying to pass as a man) and couldn't afford it.  I usually do not get upset in the workplace or at least I never let anyone see me upset.  But for some reason the tears began to flow and I couldn't stop.  She listened to me and said she would talk to me later.  So after she left I just started praying.  She called me about an hour later and said to close the shop and meet her at the mattress store.  Ya'll she had purchased a brand new pillow top Queen sized mattress set for me.   God is GOOD all the time!!  It's being delivered Monday.  I had someone from Orkin come in and give me an est.  He said $350 for my bedroom and the hallway.  My concern was that since my cousin and I put out my mattress set that my entire house would somehow get them because my bedroom is on the 3rd floor.  So I prayed on it again and scheduled another exterminator to come in Thursday morning. The guy was really nice and said for $400 they would do my entire house.  Then for an additional $100 they would come back and service my house for a year for free for ANY pest problem (ants, mice, etc) I have.  So you know I robbed peter to pay paul and signed the contract.  They sent out a really nice older gentleman (as he told me was turning 55 years young on my Re-Born Day 8/11 lol) and he said a quick prayer for me and got to work.  Later he told me to keep everything in prayer.  I told him what happened and he said your young what are you like 25-28 I told him to add at least 12 years to that number.  He was like well baby your around the age of my girlfriend.  I couldn't do anything but laugh.  He was so sweet and said he would be back if I had any problems.   They say bedbugs can last up to 6-18 months without noticing them so I truly think that my ex-husband brought them back with him after one of his "business" trips.  I don't have proof but I'm JUST saying.  lol 
I'm in NJ at my parents house and going to start my liquid diet tomorrow.  I'm a little nervous but feeling good about my decision to be banded.  My best friend told me that one of our mutual friends asked her if I was ready for all the attention I'm going to be getting once I start losing the weight.  She said Keisha is a really pretty girl and once she gets her weight together the men are going to be going crazy.  lol  That made my day however, recently I've been meeting a lot of men who LOVE my thickness and curves.  So it's sooooooo not about doing it for a man or anyone else for that matter.  It's some thing I have to do for Keisha.  I have always been curvy but not like this. It's funny because when I'm getting dressed in my mind I look good but when I see my pictures I'm like WHAT was I thinking!!  I can't wait until my college homecoming South Carolina State University.  I look at my pictures from last year and although I had fun I was so sad because I was so big.  When I first went to college everyone knew me because I used to wear half shirts all the time.  My abs were not a six back but they were nice.  Fast forward almost 15 years later and I'm HUGE.  So I can't wait to go back with my new look and confidence .  I had my house sprayed, my brand new bed will be delivered Monday and tomorrow night I'm going to wash all my clothes.  So that when I come home from the hospital all I have to do is climb in bed.  My honey-do brought my small fridge up from the 1st floor last weekend when he was down.  So I'm going to stock it so that I don't have to run up and down my stairs as much for the first two days.  My oldest is coming home from my parents house with me tomorrow and my youngest will be with my ex husband for the week and our new puppy, Mango will be with my cousin and being spoiled by her two kids for the week.  Prayefully, my Honey-Do will be able to come down from NY for a few days to just love on me.  I know I'm going to be needing some extra TLC.    I'm just excited at being able to sleep for a day or two without having to get up and take care of someone.  I can just focus on me and my recovery.
I'm sorry this  is so long.  I've been meaning to write for the longest time but the last time I did I hit the wrong key and lost EVERYTHING I guess I got discouraged and just was content to read everyone else's blogs.  I promise to do better.  But I do want to say before ending this novella is that I'm sooooooooo glad and thankful for this site and the new friends I've made here.   I feel like I can totally be me and no one is going to judge me.  Just like at the mandatory support meetings I had to attend.  I loved them because the seats were bigger and I never felt like I had to hold in my stomach. 
Thank you for everything.  LOVE YOU ALL and good look on current and future new journeys.  May God Continue to Bless you!!!
Peaceful journeys, many blessings and SOUL
Ok off to kick my daughter's butt on the Wii  lol

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Free At Last

Jul 20, 2009

Thank God Almighty I'm Free at Last.  My divorce became final today or rather I received my divorce decree today.  I would be lying if I said I didn't have mixed feelings because I do.  I guess it's because when we got married I went into it with the idea that ok now we are married there are no secrets (not that it should have been before) and we have each other's back.  Well what a pipe dream that was. Not only did I feel hoodwinked but because he didn't want to step up to the plate and be the man of the family I have had a serious financial burden as well.  I do believe that things happen for a reason and maybe the reason for our union was to be the vessel for our daughter.  But tonight I sit with mixed emotions wishing he would leave my hometown (he moved down here right before we got married) and go back to his own (Philly).  But that's wishful thinking.  I'm glad this chapter in my life has been closed and am looking forward to my new journey.  I always say the best revenge is looking good and I plan on looking FIERCE!!! :-)
Thanks for letting me vent.
Peace and many blessings


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With a Heavy Heart.....

Jun 25, 2009

I write today.  I am still in shock over the death of MJ.  We knew Farrah was not doing well and kept her in our prayers but felt that she would be going home soon.  However, with Michael I truly didn't see it coming.  His music was the soundtrack to not only my childhood but my entire life.  I have so many favorite songs running thru my head right now.  Let Me Show You, I Wanna Rock with You, Butterflies, PYT.  I could go on forever.  Such a talented man.  Say what you want about his personal life (who am I to judge??) but he was a musical genius. I posted a clip on my FB page of him and James Brown dancing together at James Brown's tribute and I can only imagine the jam session that is going on upstairs with Marvin Gaye, James Brown, Rick James and the other greats who have left us all too soon.
Rest In Peace MJ you will always be the King of Pop to me.

 

"If you enter this world knowing you are loved and you leave this world knowing the same, then everything that happens in between can be dealt with." -Michael Jackson


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Dr's Appt

Jun 23, 2009

Well I had my first appointment with Dr. Iragau last Thursday (6/18).  I must say that I was very impressed.   I decided to have the Realize Band.  My surgery will take place at St. Francis Hospital in Wilmington, DE.  Right now I'm going thru my clearance process.  When I spoke to my surgeon he said the entire process usually takes about 2-3 months.  The two women who I met who both have had the band surgery said to make all of my appointments as soon as the surgeon gives me the ok.  Well I did and I was able to schedule all my appointments by Friday.  I had to schedule my three education classes did that right after my appointment.  Their office and the Cardiologist's office are in the same building as my surgeon's office.   I went to make my initial appointment for the cardiologist and his receptionist asked me if I wanted to see him right now.  Of course I jumped on the opportunity to check one appointment off my list.  He was very impressed that I try to swim 50 laps 5-3 days a week. So I got a clean bill of health from him. I have to go back to see him for my Echo test and then one more time for my final clearance. His final clearance is my last appointment for EVERYTHING prior to scheduling my surgery.  I'm so excited.  Things are just falling into place.  I spoke to the education coordinator and she said if I get all my clearances completed without any complications then I should be able to schedule my surgery the end of July or the first week in August.  Whooo-hooo!!!!!!!!!
Please keep me in prayer.  And I would love to hear the stories of your WLS journey.
Until my next post ~ Take care
Peace and Many Blessings!!!!!!!
K


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1st Appointment tomorrow

Jun 17, 2009

Tomorrow I have my first consult appointment with my surgeon.  I'm so excited and a little nervous.  I'm at my heaviest I've ever been.  My youngest daughter and I were playing Ring around the Roses and I kept thinking prayerfully after this surgery (God Willing) I will be able to get down on the floor and play with her and get up without my knees hurting.
Any suggestions for questions are welcomed.


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