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175... wow, cant believe I am down so far and yes it feels so good..
walking everyday 60-75 mins my work days.. getting up at 230am..
working 7-7pm and traveling over an hour to work..
oh, so loving my workout!!

days off, i do 75-90 mins on the treadmill
trampoline 60-90 mins  with a total between 2-3 hrs

doing the treadmill 3.6mph incline .5-2, just starting trying to push it 2.5-3
tried to increase the speed to 3.7-3.8, but it was putting my hips out...

trampoline..- using 2lbs hand weights now...

ah and yes dating... meet Mack 11-22-09
a very wonderful man, who knows about my health issue of fluid on the brain and my lap band. who accepts me for me.. i am not sure how or why i meet him.. but, i do feel very blessed to have him in my life.. he is my friend, lover, best friend and ... lol yes, my soul-mate
we all hope to find our soul-mate, if he/she exists... can they?? is it possible that they do??
and if they do, can/will we find them??

well, it sure seems like i have found mine... and i really didn't think i would and i sure wasn't looking for him.. he is my Dark Knight.. the one who knows me better than i know myself...
ah, and that is scary, very scary... we connect mind, body and soul..
and that is so rare, he is rare...

Well, just blogging about my up coming surgery.... to fix female issues..
damn want to lose 10lbs before then, with all this stress at work... really trying hard not to much...
I am still exercising and weighing and measuring food... trying to refocus and remember my dream.. my goal..
my health.. lol
I want so bad to finally reach goal by June '10, it will be two years, gosh where has the time gone???
Since I had surgery, started walking daily, weighing and measuring my food and writing it down.. I have books and books.. lol hold all that info plus my weight.. and comments....

yes 33lbs to go and would like to have 10lbs off before surgery... and hope this will be the last one for awhile
It is so nice to wear smaller clothes and to fit places I couldn't before.. hehe
and to actually have people tell me I shouldn't lose anymore weight.. I guess compared to where I was I do look small.. lol

Only a few people at work know I had the surgery, but everyone knows I get up at 230am to workout before work... at least 60-75 mins and I have even tried to do 90 mins, worked yesterday 14 hrs and with traveling got to bed 11pm
up at 3am to do another before going back to work..
yes, I open my eyes in the morning, reaching for my exercise clothes and sneakers..
yeah I did tell you I do have a brain disorder, disease... lol well, I think it effected me.. wicked bad... to the extent I work out like a manic....  before the band I wasn't able to exercise, the pressure was so high in my head, that that wasn't an option... but after I started 10 mins at a time and kept building time and speed.. to where I am today..and God help me, I am not stopping!!!!!!

I posted here about stress and grazing and got some great responses and help.. and gosh I appreciated it
I come here and read daily again to help motivate me...
this continues to be a journey.... one that is so worth fighting...
for the most part I am free of my cravings for food/s and portions, but I have my days too
and try so hard to stay focused.. when I am not...
I know how it is if I do lose control.... or I would have never been heavy and never needed the band in the first place..

So, I am going to do this... I have to..

Fill yesterday.. doing the liquids...
going ok, at least I am not too tight this time..
will be glad to get to solids, at least cottage cheese....  but, I made it ok today.

Sweet to be wearing x-lg shirts now... I am almost normal... size 16 jeans too big.. wearing 13/14..
and want to be 145lbs by June 1st if not sooner...

Wow, to be down 113lbs, yes, its sweet, so sweet.... never, never thought I would get here, starting out with 145lbs to lose..
well, I don't have to say much for some of you here.. but for me, it was way overwhelming.. but thank God for the band and for the support here...

I have been able to exercise again, oh, I love my treadmill... yes, everyday, 6 days a week, we meet every morning..
like a sweet lover, friend.. he/she is so faithful... only lets me down once in awhile, when he needs a repair..
and like the loving friend I am, I run for the doctor to make him better, so we can get back to our mornings together...
ah, some days its afternoons together.... I have built a wonderful relationship with him...

I awake in the morning, with my feet on the floor, reaching for my workout clothes, wondering where my sneakers are...
yes, not even thinking about coffee... lol since my last hospital stay... coffee hasn't been the same, lots of things haven't tasted the same and no one knows why... so, well... it doesn't matter.. I drink coco now before working out.. hehe...

I do have a trampoline that I also workout with and have come to love dearly... because I can take it anywhere...
if I needed to... I alternate sometimes.. or rather pick up and do extra.. 

working out on the treadmill 75 mins my days I work, getting up at 230am...
work 7a-7pm and traveling over an hour to work... and then my days off I was doing another 30-60 mins
but since my long stay in the hospital last month, I haven't built back up yet, plus having my port
surgery 12-29-09...

But, I am back up to 3.8 mph for 75 mins with incline .5..
which is sweet...

This summer has been interesting... I started dating... and well, am dating someone now..
and am very happy, someone who treats me wicked nice... something I haven't ever had....
he is a rare breed... very rare... and of course time will tell, I am not looking for a what??
I wasn't looking for him when I found him or he found me, really...

Well, I am rambling and updating my blog...

Its nice to see some of the people who were hear last year are still here...
and to see so many successful people...

It gives me so much inspiration...
and motivation...
I didn't realize how much I have missed everyone, I don't post much, but I do read the posts...

up at 230am to workout today
45 mins treadmill at 3.8mph for 2.8 miles
30 mins on trampoline...
worked 14 hrs yesterday and bed at 11pm
wicked headache yesterday, mmmm might have pushed it too much with the speed and distance
great.......
well will try to get to bed earlier tonight for some rest...

but, want to hit goal weight by June.... that is losing 32lbs
for total 145lbs in 2 yrs...

well....... last night wasn't good stressed and yes went off the wagon...... and felt terrible.. body wise and it doesn't even taste
good.... DUH??????????? wtf?? why cant i learn?????? no, i eat it anyway.......

well.... working hope the day goes fast....

waiting for the days to pass to go see the boyfriend.. hehe
and spend the weekend with him, next week.. lol

hope everyone is have a wonderful weekend!!

wow, super, yes wicked super workout....
75 mins, warm up 3.6 mph and take off at 3.8 for 70 mins....
4.7 Miles... oh, yes....
up at 230am and heading to work at 5am....
love it...
down from 26/28 pants to 13/14.... oh, gosh... is it me?
i have to pinch myself, look in the mirror again????
wearing skirts, heels....

hope everyone has a wonderful weekend!!
i am working 12 hr shifts... oh, yeah... lol

Wow...
just stopped to check it out, I am finally just overweight.. lmao... yes.. I hit onederland.. and now just overweight, not
super obese... oh, happy dance, I am going to hit my treadmill tomorrow... oh, yes...

No workout today, worked 13.5 hrs today... overtime, thank God...
but, even more thankful for my band.. I am free, yes free.. from food....
ah, yes I still have those little bites of a few things, but I am, thank my band, a lovely tool... lovely....
free of food obsession...... but, I hear everyone, what do you want to eat? what are you bringing to eat??
Gosh, I didn't realize how much of my life revolved around food..... food and more food.....
and now........... nope............ I sure hope it stays this way.....
do I miss it, food??? no........... as the days, weeks, months go by, no... its like giving up cigs.....
it does get easier..... or maybe, yes maybe its in my head and I will gladly keep it right there... hehe

take care everyone!!!

Hi everyone....

I am doing well, down over 110lbs, wasnt as fast as I wanted.... but, I still hope to make goal by my 2nd anniversary.
6-6-10..... mmm I think it was the 6th... lol

ahh, I am 178... 13/14 jeans.... and yes!!! still journal my food and exercise....... yes, exercise 6 days a week.......
yes, weigh my food......... yes, watch what I, if it works, work it.... and it works for me!! and yes, I am happy.......
and I get up at 245am to workout before I work a 12hr shift and travel over an hour to work.....
and I had no sick time from the lab surgery 6-08 until 12-09, then oh, kidney infection, cyst... 12 days hospital...
and then port surgery.... my port gave me lots of pain... not bad but it appeared to be floating, doc went it and well, it wasn't bad, but she checked everything out, gave it more support ...

I will do a recent pic when I can, I am working overtime..
hope you had a great Holiday!!!

take care

  wow, 59lb to goal... yeah.... never thought I would be this close... goal is 145lbs

working the treadmill hard.... today 3.6-3.8mph with incline .5-1.0
mostly 3.7-3.8mph for 75 mins...... to get the weight moving....

it feels so good to be getting close to 200lbs....... 86lbs gone...
oh, yeah I am doing the happy dance..

and I have meet and am dating someone who actually accepts me for who I am, where I am and who encourages me in all areas...... to be the best I can be.... and who accepts me unconditionally... and yeah, I am scared, will it last... lol
but, I am going with it and going to enjoy it and see where it goes, because I really like him and accept him for who he is unconditionally......

work is stressful, we are up for a new contract and its not good, looking at a strike with or with out working, hopeful will not accept current contract and yet continue working while the negotiate...

Wonderful weather, looking forward to the Summer....

Happy Easter...
wow, reached 204lbs today!!! oh, yeah, down 86lbs finally..
I am 59lbs from goal, oh... never thought I would get this close..
started 290lbs and goal 145lbs...

It is a beautiful day, sunny and fairly warm today...

I am increased my treadmill 3.6mph with incline and when I am pushing it, every other day I  walk 3.6-3.8mph and loving it... and do the incline with it also but not as high....
I hope to be at 4.0mph pushing days by May 1st or June 1st..

My goal is to be down 100lbs by June 1st, my 1 year anniversary.

The band is a wonderful tool....

Wow.. 207 lbs

finally going down again.. but having wicked oh so wicked headaches the last few days...
my demon is rearing its ugly head... well it started last week, but I thought it was ok, then this weekend
hell broke loose... my ears are ringing, I am dizzy... the monster is oh so there and is mad...
but, he will not win, I will not let him, stop me from walking. I continued to walk yesterday and today, and doing the trampoline... I had to break it up and had to nap but I am not stopping...
I haven't been easy to live with and well I sure am praying that it wont interfere with work
I managed last week eating plenty of over the counter pain killers, not that they helped a lot, but they seem to take the edge off.. I just take call after call and pray for the time to pass and the day to end..

And thank God, I make it and can drive home... I think it had a lot to do with the weather changing and gosh being TOM... life is so good ... lol
it sure keeps you on your toes.....

Got my slight unfill last week, went to see Sharon, my sweet nurse who is leaving next month.. and she said I was right to come in, at the time I came in, it wasn't going to loosen up, so I made the right decision. Which was cool and so she took out half of what she put in the week before... and I was having port pain which she said people have told her they have when they are too tight, which she thinks make sense because its all connected... since the slight unfill I am doing much better.... and started losing, although she had me down 2lbs since the fill.

Well, I meet someone 2-7-09 and have been dating. I haven't dated in almost 6 years. LOL
It was weird and its been great... My family has meet him and they all get along fine. He is younger than me, a lot younger. I am not sure how I am with this, sometimes I am ok and others I am not sure. He of course is fine with it and he has always dated older woman expect one and he knew then that he liked older woman.. lol
my family is ok with it which is nice.. and me well I have never dated a younger man...
But, he is old fashion which is hard to get use to... but is very nice...

Well, I guess I have rambled enough... work is sure challenging, we are up for a new contract and the line man get paid a lot less than the other ones around and are asking for a fair increase and are looking at striking and I don't blame them but there is more of them so if they want to strike .. the rest of us don't have a choice....

So, we will see the end of this month........