Emotional Setback

Aug 11, 2011

I don't know what in the world is going on.  I ate 1100 calories today!!!  What was I thinking?  I have got to get it together.  I guess my New Day motto only lasted one day.

The only thing I can do now is accept this minor setback, take responsibility and make sure it DOESN'T happen again.  This has truly been the first time that I have really felt like my old self prior to surgery.  Eating for no reason or at least a reason I choose not to acknowledge.  I didn't loose any weight last week and I thought I was handling it, but clearly that isn't the case.  Logically, I know there are lots of normal reasons why I did loose, but I just got discouraged and It was a lot easier to give in to cravings, head hunger, and emotional eating. My TOM has been irregular for years, so I am not sure if that is contributing to the cravings and emotions as well.

Hopefully Friday will be a better day...
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New Day!!!

Aug 08, 2011

Well I had a bit of a pity party yesterday.  "This is hard, I wish I could eat more, I wish I could eat what I want" (i.e sweets, carbs, and sugar).  But why should I want those things?  They are toxic for me and what got me to needing the sleeve in the first place.  I felt myself on the verge of regretting my decision because the horrible familiarity I had with food was gone.  My previous relationship with food was not healthy and that is what I need to remember.  Nothing about my previous relationship with food should I take with me into my new life. 

Today is a new day and l have already worked out (at 3am!!) and started getting my protein in for the day.  I am glad for the comments in the VSG forum that helped me get my head back in the game.

This post is probably one I will have to go back and read from time to time.  It is hard to break emotional strongholds, but with the help of my Lord and Savior Jesus Christ, it shall be done!!!


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Too Few Calories

Jul 28, 2011

I am having the hardest time getting my recommended amount of calories in.  I work at night and sleep most of the day. I find myself so thirsty that I am always trying to wait 30 minutes before I eat.  It's 7:04 pm EST and I  have only comsumed about 300 calories, 110 of which was a protein shot.  I can't handle the protein mixes so I have to settle for the less popular shot for right now. 

I have had to cut back working out because I can't eat enough to keep my body out of starvation mode.  I try to eat nuts more often because they have more calories, but I eat mostly fish and chicken to  make sure I am getting in my protein.

I am not sure what to do, my pouch is either very small or still very swollen because I can't get much down at a time.  I am not to worried about streching my pouch, but I don't want to walk around full/uncomfortable all day.
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Stall Update

Jul 21, 2011

Well, turns out my stall was because I am not eating enough and working out like crazy.  It's insane how we go from one extreme to the next.  I was an overeater and now I am not eating enough and working out too hard!!!  Well I am going try and hit my 800 calorie minimum and cutback the vigorous exercise.  I weigh myself once a week at my surgeon's office and we shall see what the scale says on Tuesday.  I am down 32 pounds in 7 weeks, which is wonderful!!  My doctor says I shouldn't hit this goal until 12 weeks. I've always been an overacheiver
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Staying Motivated/Encouraged

Jul 18, 2011

Perhaps it was stall week for many VSG's.  I am in a stall and I see many other people are as well.  OH members have really helped with giving advice and encouragement.  I am down 28 pounds, but have been stuck for about 3 weeks without significant weight loss.  I thought it was something that I was doing wrong.  I even made an appointment with my Dietician.  However, I see that this is normal and will pass.  I think I will keep the appointment anyway, just to verify that I am on track. 

Thanks to everyone for their support!!!
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surgery tomorrow morning

May 29, 2011

i am sitting here making friends with apple juice and sugar free fudgesicles!!! i am very excited, weight loss will be a turning point in my life...a step towards re-claiming the promises of God!!!
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pre-surgery advice

May 07, 2011

does anyone have any advice for preparing for the surgery, emotional, getting ready for surgery,  or otherwise.  i am having the sleeve on may 31st.  i have always had a problem with overeating and now that my surgery is actually scheduled i am struggling with it even more.  i don't want to fail at this and now that its approaching i am feeling presure to not mess up.
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