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 Well its been 2 years since my surgery and I still have never had a fill.  I'm maintaining a size 8 in pants and 10 in dresses and skirts.  I love my new self but as I've read in other ppl profiles you really do pick up another addiction.  Yeah mines is shopping. I get a thrill out of going to the racks and picking up size small in tops and sweaters.  I can no actually go shopping and know a 8 pants wil fit and 10 skirts. I never really have to try clothes on anymore,and NO I don't miss Ashley Stewart.  I'm a dressbarn woman and A Penny's woman.

Well I'm slowly approaching my 9th month anniversary. STILL NO FILLS. People still on a daily basis notice my weight loss.  Still in size 10's and still haven't made it to the gym yet.  I've noticed that I get the hiccups when its time for me to eat or either stop eating. I'm getting use to not drinking until 30-40 minutes after I've eaten.  Not too much more to talk about except that I love taking the steps now over the escalator.  It amazes me at how easily it is to do stairs now.  Didn't realize how weight affects you so bad.  People have been telling me also how much younger I look now that the weight is gone.  I'm at my goal and don't want to loose any more, except I can't control that part of it.  Until next time its time to go my break is over.

What I find amazing is............I got rid of all my 16 & 18's.  When my friend came over to pick them up she tried on everything.  When I look at her in my clothes all I can say is WOW!!!!!! was I really that big.  Its amazing how we don't really see ourselves as big as we really were until we loose our weight.   I vowed never to reach a 16's and 18's again.  I did however keep some of the 14's.  I just love shopping now.  Its such a wonderful feeling just to pull a size 10 off the rack knowing and holding up  that it's gonna fit.  I've been at this plateau for almost a month now.  I still can't seem to stop weighing myself every morning when I wake up, when I get home from work and when I go to bed.  Its such a habit.  The scales are not moving anymore.  Does that mean its now time for a fill.  I think I'm afraid of getting one because I don't wanna go under a 10 to a 8.  When it feels like i'm bursting out of 10's and back into 12's then I'll go.

Today April 11th is my 6th month anniversay and boy am I feeling great.  Let me first say that I've never had any fills yet.  I'm down from a 18 last year this time to now size 10.  Yeah you heard me right a size 10.  Most 12's are too big.  I've hit a plateau as far as loosing but i'm fine with that.  Still haven't made it to the gym.  I think i'm scare if I go I'll loose more wight and I don't wanna loose anymore.  I'm happy being my size 10.  I've been getting a lot of compliments from ppl telling me I look so much younger.  Well let me tell ya, I feel so much younger and i'm about ready to dress a little younger once the weather breaks in Chicago.  I have a total weight loss of 50 lbs in my 6 months again without any fills.  Sometimes I do feel like a need one but somehow I never get around to it.  I will post a 6month post op picture this weekend.  Until next time  See ya.......

Its been a while since i've posted.  Well I was scheduled for a fill on March 21st and cancelled again.  Went shopping over the weekend and i'm in a 10 now.  No I haven't made it to Ballys's yet and they're still taking my money every month.  Gotta get there because its not a pretty site. Gave a lady in my support group all my 16's and 18's.  I was so glad she was albe to use em and also so happy to get rid of them.   I decided to keep my 14's for now.  I don't wannna go any lower than a 10 and my weight is 177.  Until next time peace out

Well 2 days before my fill and I've cancelled again.  I was stuck at 185 for a while but now i'm at 181 so I cancelled my fill.  I made the next appt for March 18th which is one month from today.  We'll see how much weight I loose between today and March 18th to determine if I'll keep my appointment.  However I did get me another tatto and I'm really beginning to see loose skin now.  I've got to get to the gym on those weights.  People are telling me now at the train where I board for work that I need a new coat.  They say my coat is toooooo big.  It doesn't feel big and it's way to warm to give up. 

Ok so I've decided that I feel that I need a fill.  First, I don't feel like I have any restrictions.  I can eat anything I want with the exception of beef. Nothing makes me sick and I tolerate all foods fine.  I don't have to go thru with that chewing stuff I hear everyone talking about.  I'm beginning to get hungry after 6 hrs of eating.  I believe these are all signs that Its time to get a fill. I have an appointment for 2/21 at the hospital.  I guess I'll find out at this time what size band I have.  Oh another reason.  I've been stuck at 185 for more than 14 days and the scale is not moving anymore.  I've done great waited past 4months post op before my first fill.  I will update when I get my procedure done

Ok so I went to Bally's for 5 straight days and walked on the treadmill for 1.5 miles.  Went shopping and bought 3 size 12 pants.  I told myself I'm not trying these on until I get home.  Got home and they all fit  YEEEEEEEaaaa.  Thats what I wanted to do, be able to go and by 12's and know that I can fit any 12.  Ok So now I've reached that part of my goal, my next goal is to get rid of this flabby meat on my thighs.  Until next time I'll keep you updated

Ok so the holidays are over and I'm still loosing.  I still have not had a fill and really don't think I need one.  I'm doing just fine.  This week I tipped the scales at the 180"s. wearing a size 12 comfortably.  I renewed my membership at the gym for another 2 years.  Just gotta get there now. Seems like everytime I get ready to go something gets in my way.  I didn't pay that money to go to waste, I will get to the gym soon.  Until next time Happy New years to you all.

Saturday Dec 15th I went to a party.  I would have never done this 3 months ago when I was in the 2's.  It's  funny how when you loose weight the level of self esteem and confidence grows as you loose.  I couldn't believe myself when I took the mic and did some karokoe at a party.  The old Brenda would have felt too fat to get up in front of a bunch of stranges and perform.  The best part about it was I wasn't even drunk.  I don't drink.  Most of the people there was saying " Oh I'll do a song when I get a couple of drinks in me".  I did 6 songs and boy was I loving it!!!!!!.  Now I can't wait to do it again.  It just go to show you how self esteem works.