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Friday, December 15,2006 1:32pm~~~~~~
Well....guess no time like the presant to make my mark here...of...course....I am still searching...for new and creative ways to 'UP-DO'..this new space we have here....and hopefully sometime this century....I will have it at least partially up to date and perty..... ;p
Got a call from my mom...yesterday...and...same mess...always seems to pop up this time of year...my sister...and her never ending antics..*sigh*..I shall spare you of the craziness for now....wears me out to just think about..it.....*sigh*.....so....hey....I am me...Kristi...and had my RnY surgery...November 15, 2005......and as of today....am down....-109lbs.....still wearing my drooooopy old clothes....(always seems like something comes up we need to get first....and w/xmas and the 3 kiddos....good thing a lot of them have drawstring-waists...) I do not know my reflection these days...hasnt sunken in.....and not sure how to wrap my mind around it.....I do know...my men...folk...are talking of a revolt....and want me to feed them...like I use to.....poor things....I just dont have the....motivation to whip up a huge meal everyday....with outrageous...portions....I know I miss the comfort of these things myself...but sometimes we really do need to be uncomfortable....to realize....how to try new healthier ways of coping....this I am still really working on....
~~A word to the wise.....
DO NOT think that this surgery is gonna MAKE IT ALLLLLL BETTER....because...well....frankly I dont think anyone thing..can make EVERYTHING better...do you??? You will see dramatic results...in your outter apperance...but the issues...and problems...and stress...and bad habits...will still be inside you....this is only the beginning of your journey...when you think the scale is getting to your GOAL...you will see...this is only the start...of a self discovery...that you can face...embrace...and choose to be captain..of your own ship....OR....Hide behind substance...clutter....food....avoidance....and playing the role...of I just cant do it...and run from yourself......but...you will never overcome...what you -yourself...dont acknowledge...
~~I know....I have just begun.....and hopefully...will continuely have the courage...self-love....and patience....that I will need to nurture myself..my family...and maybe even you.....because of those who came..shared...and...supported us....we have a second chance.....and isnt all we really want..to be loved....love ourselves...and feel.....again?? Well....good luck and thanks to all who have shared...cared...laughed and cried.....you guys ROCK.....and I love Ya MAN~~~
Peace
Kristi
| Your Life Path Number is 5 |
 Your purpose in life is to life freely and collect experiences.You love life - new adventures, new people, new ideas.You are very curious, and you crave novelty in all forms.You tend to make friends easily, and you enjoy the company of all types of people.In love, you are fun and even a bit intoxicating. But you won't stick around for long.You are impulsive and spontaneous - which sometimes leads you to do things you regret.Sometimes you can be overindulgent with food, sex, or drugs.You have many talents, so many that you are often scattered and unfocused. |
