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It seems we are always reading about people who get divorced after they have their WLS. I have to say I think this surgery has only strengthened my marriage. Maybe because I am older and "wiser". (LOL) My husband has been my rock through out this entire journey. He has taken care of me and protected me. I am so grateful for my life now and for each and every day. Now I am not judging or putting those down who get divorced because I know there are so many reason for divorce. I just feel so much closer to my husband. It has nothing to do with what I weigh though he loves me no matter what. We just really enjoy our time together so much more. I have energy, I am not eating all that sugar and I am not depressed all the time. Sugar makes me so depressed. I am so content and settled and it has affected all my other relationships. I am learning new coping measures besides eating constantly. I am so much easier to live with, (except for those darn hot flashes!) Mostly I am just so more settled and balanced. I love life.

Thursday is my surgiversary. I can't believe it has been a year. I have lost 117 lbs. I am so grateful for this surgery and would recommend it to anyone who qualifies. I have been really fortunate, the only big problem is the surgery I had on August 19 to remove scar tissue and straighten out a loop in my intestine. I did have a couple of very small stalls. I don't think they lasted more than a few days though. I have had so many positive changes in the last year. I have learned that I don't have to eat myself sick when I am under stress or things are not going well. Food is not the center of my world anymore. I also know that this is up to me to keep my weight off. There is one area I really need to improve on and that is my exercise. I need to start walking again. It will be easier now that it is cooling off. I have become much more outgoing, and have much more confidence. I am really enjoying my life. I am very content!  I don't need near the amount of sleep I used to need. Which is incredible, I used to need at least 10 hours every night sometimes more, now I sleep 6-8.

I am posting now because I will be in Las Vegas next week and my Mother is having problems with her computer.

As some of you some of you know I have been in Las Vegas since last Sat a week ago. This has been so stressful, we had to move my Mother out of my sisters house and into an apartment. My sister has stolen a lot of money from my parents and maxed out their credit cards, my sweet little Teaka died too. Usually I would be eating every thing in site and not stop, but I have done so good! I have eaten what I am supposed to eat and have not turned to sweets at all. I am really proud of myself.

I am so ready to go home but I will be here until Thursday. We just about have everything unpacked and need to hang some pictures and then I have some of her business to take care of. My Mother is 81 years old. My Daddy is in a nursing home in Henderson, he is 81 too.

  

Well yesterday I finally made my un-pasta lasagna. It was really good. You use zucchini instead of noodles. When I was cooking the meat sauce I tasted it and thought I am not going to like this, but when it was all put together and cooked it was really good. I will make it again. If anyone wants the recipe PM me and I will send it to you. There are other things in the cook book I am going to try. 

  I have started walking again. I don't know why, but I really have a hard time getting my head around the fact that exercise has to be a regular part of my life. As Gus posted not to long ago it is a part of the deal with our doctors. I can just get so lazy! Well now I have a friend who wants to walk 3 days a week with me. She had a stint put in 2 weeks ago and need to walk as well. I think one of our other friends is going to walk with us too. It is so much more fun with someone else. I do get tired of talking to myself! LOL I think I can walk by myself a couple of days a week though. I need to get out my DVD Walkman and put Jimmy Buffet in. He makes me laugh. I do feel better when I walk. I also know that is the way to keep the weight off. Now I just have to get my head around it!

Last night I printed a copy of one of my before pictures. I have seen this picture before and I did not realize how big I really was. I looked at it again tonight and once again I have to say I just did not realize how big I was again. I printed out a 4X6 size and another 4X6 of one of the pictures that I posted on my last blog. I  put them in a 2 picture side by side frame. Even though I did not lose half of my beginning weight I still look like I have lost another person. I am so happy I had the RNY. I would recommend it to anyone. This has been an amazing journey, and just think it will be one that I am on the rest of my life.

I am going to put the frame on top of my piano behind all of my other pictures so I can look at it whenever I need to be reminded of where I came from and to not go back there.

I know I posted a lot of pictures tonight but I finally got them downloaded on my computer tonight. I am hoping my DH will help me change  my avatar tomorrow. I never thought I would be this weight again. I am 135 now. I would like to maintain this weight. I just feel I have made so many changes in my life over the last year and a half. It started before I had even thought I would have the surgery. The surgery and weight loss has just been the icing on the cake. For the first time in my life I am really enjoying my life. For the most part I am surrounded by positive supportive people. I really limit my exposure to the negative ones. I am so thankful for my life and Claude (my DH), Chris and Lisa and the kids, and Mike my youngest son. I am also thankful for all of the friends I have made here on OH and my friends in my personal life.

I changed the quote with my signature today. Maryellen R. posted it on her quote for the day. I think it is really good. "Though no one can go back and make a brand  new start, anyone can start from now and make a brand new ending", Carl Bard. That is really what we are all trying to do here.

I hope everyone is doing well!

Well I have reached my goal. Actually I did it yesterday but waited until today to post it for Wacky Weight in Wednesday. I thought I would be jumping up and down and so happy, but instead I felt nervous and scared. Isn't that silly? I just knew when I got up this morning I would weigh 230 again. I am happy but very nervous! I still want to lose 5 more pounds to have some cushion. I am so proud of myself and the progress I have made. It just doesn't seem real. To celebrate I went and bought two new summer dresses yesterday. I also went bra shopping. That was frustrating. I went to Penny's. I don't think the woman knew what she was doing. I am going to go to Macy's and see if they can do a better job. Well here's to me and my weight loss!

We went to Cool Hand Luke's for dinner and I had steak and I have kept it down! I can't believe it! I was asking the waitress about things and explained to her that I had gastric bypass and she suggested the Steak Bites, which is an appetizer. It is Sirloin Steak cut into small bites with a Salsa you can dip it in. I did not use the Salsa. It was so good! I really enjoy what I ate. My husband's calamari was not good and all so he shared my steak bites with me and we brought home the rest so he can eat it tomorrow. Wow I am really jazzed!