ann M.
Onederland!
Mar 16, 2010
I've had some concerns with my surgeon and the DS he gave me. He makes his stomachs a bit bigger than many of the other surgeons. His DS'ers don't seem to have the same malabsorption- solely my personal observation; not anything concrete I've seen in writing, etc. It seems to me that more than a few of his patients have had a tougher time making it to goal. Add to these little negative thoughts running around my head- that I was my sugeon's last full 1 step DS. I was truly concerned that I was about done losing and that I wouldn't make it out of the 200's. I would not have been happy, nor would I have been able to convince myself that my surgery was a success- though statistically it was. I saw myself being on that same emotional roller coaster of trying to lose weight and not being able to. It was weighing pretty heavily on my mind- read- STRESSING ME THE HELL OUT!!
But I did it! I left the 200's behind. I weighed 198.1 today! I think that this was and will be the hardest milestone for me to reach. I don't know why those three stupid little pounds (201 vs. 198) had such an effect on my mind, but they did. I really have hope of getting down to a normal BMI, now. 10 more pounds to leave obesity behind me- hopefully forever. I'm slowly learning to trust and believe that my DS will lead to a long term resolution of my obesity...I'm not quite there, yet. But I'm close. When I find the faith and truly believe that this is a long term solution; that's when I'll truly and deeply love my DS. I know a bit jaded and cynical perhaps- Fickle, I am not. Eventually I'll fall in love with my DS...Untill then I am very greatful and happy to have found ONEDERLAND!!!