Onederland!

Mar 16, 2010

I've had some concerns with my surgeon and the DS he gave me.  He makes his stomachs a bit bigger than many of the other surgeons.  His DS'ers don't seem to have the same malabsorption- solely my personal observation; not anything concrete I've seen in writing, etc.  It seems to me that more than a few of his patients have had a tougher time making it to goal.  Add to these little negative thoughts running around my head- that I was my sugeon's last full 1 step DS. I was truly concerned that I was about done losing and that I wouldn't make it out of the 200's.  I would not have been happy, nor would I have been able to convince myself that my surgery was a success- though statistically it was.  I saw myself being on that same emotional roller coaster of trying to lose weight and not being able to.  It was weighing pretty heavily on my mind- read- STRESSING ME THE HELL OUT!!

But I did it!  I left the 200's behind.  I weighed 198.1 today!  I think that this was and will be the hardest milestone for me to reach.  I don't know why those three stupid little pounds (201 vs. 198) had such an effect on my mind, but they did.  I really have hope of getting down to a normal BMI, now.  10 more pounds to leave obesity behind me- hopefully forever.  I'm slowly learning to trust and believe that my DS will lead to a long term resolution of my obesity...I'm not quite there, yet.  But I'm close.  When I find the faith and truly believe that this is a long term solution; that's when I'll truly and deeply love my DS.  I know a bit jaded and cynical perhaps- Fickle, I am not.  Eventually I'll fall in love with my DS...Untill then I am very greatful and happy to have found ONEDERLAND!!!

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04/02/2009
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May 28, 2007
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