Fear of Success

Feb 01, 2011

I am now about 3.5 months out and I am down about 57 pounds. I am pleased with my results and physically I am feeling great!

Well last night I had a friend over that hasn't seen me in a while and has never really known me this thin and she was just BLOWN away! She wouldn't shut up about the dramatic difference..and it was like pregnancy belly, she was all hands! Now i will grant you my butt was looking nice in my jeggins but a girl can only handle but so many slaps and pinches! :}

I was in no way offended by this, this woman is like a mother to me and she was so over the moon excited she couldn't contain herself...

All along I thought this is what I was wanting, for someone to notice..to look nice in jeans etc..but after last night I sort of realized there is no going back. 

I have reached 207 and I am not far off from ONEderland, and this is all new adult territory for me. I will not be able to shrug off the compliments and say "but I have so far to GO" forever..at some point I will have to take kudos for what I have done.

Why as I stand at this crossroads does success feel so scary..I always thought the dear of failure was the real bitch, maybe I got it all wrong?!

Just wondering if anyone else has ever felt like this?

And about my butt...I can understand my hubby with the slapping and pinching...but last week I got pinched my a complete stranger while perusing the jeans at the Goodwill! 

I feel completely unprepared for all of this!

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