Officially OverWeight~And Other Important Musings!

May 24, 2011

Well today I hit 85 pounds lost and my weight is at 179, which means that as of right this minute for the first time in my entire adult life I am no longer obese! 

Today my therapist and I spent some time talking about the NEED for me to help my brain understand what my new self looks like. At the moment I am not seeing it...I mean I know that the scale shows it, and yes my clothes are smaller, and I feel so much better blah blah blah..but in my HEAD I still sort of perpetually feel like the biggest girl in the room.

Some suggestions that I have been given to help correct this:

~Mirrors: (Dearest Brandilynn gets credit for this one) Keep some around in the spaces where you spend the most time..like at my desk! The continual images will help to cement the new reality of my smaller size.

~Exercise: Stretching, strength training, yoga etc..This will allow me to be in better physical touch with the size of my new self. I will be more aware of my body and the new things it can do...

~Photos: Keep before and afters close by and refer to often

~Compare old clothes to new clothes

The reason I NEED to get my brain to understand how I actually look is because if I don't my chance of regain is higher (according to beloved therapist) because if I don't see myself accurately and realistically its almost as though it never happened. And if it never happened in my brain, if I never actually successfully lost the weight, I may not care if I gain it back..and I may not realize it is happening if I cant see thin then I cant see fat either...

Additionally we discussed the importance of my celebrating my accomplishments.

I expected to be over the moon..to even be below 200 would feel like a miracle..and it does..some days...but I think I am afraid to be too excited. I am afraid to share too much with people, or to seem too happy...especially when I am around a lot of people who struggle with their weight...then again...this is a battle for me as well...but its just not a journey I can share with everyone...

But today I did hit a huge milestone..my BMI is 29.9 baby!!!! Only 39 more pounds to go!!!

Overall I truly do LOVE my sleeve..don't regret my decision at all!!!! 

And now on to a bit of celebrating..here is me in Red..my favorite color!









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