Fear of Getting FAT again...

Dec 28, 2010


Even though my mind has not yet caught up with my body and I still feel fat, in reality I know that I am not. I can see a difference in photos, and in fact, I am always shocked when I see myself in pics or even a full length mirror. So, this is still new new enough to me that I haven't caught up mentally, but I am already living with an almost debilitating anxiety that it is all going to go away and I'm going to wake up fat again one day. Does anyone else live with this fear? Perhaps it's normal. It's a feeling of fear, anxiety and guilt over the ease at which I lost the weight. Yes, I have stopped eating sugar (thanks to dumping), but the reality is that I have a pretty normal diet now and don't count calories (haven't done since surgery) and it's terrifying me. 

I feel like the size of my meals has slowly crept up. I can eat two pieces of pizza. Yes, pre-surgery I could eat an entire pizza (8 slices), but now two pieces scares me. I know that I don't have a normal size RNY pouch, due to the damage that my lap-band did to my stomach, but I still have feelings of being out of control.

Anyway, Christmas is done and dusted. A new year about to begin, and hopefully the maintenance of this weight loss.

Here's some Xmas pics. 

Hayley

 



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10/06/2009
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