1 month anniversary

Mar 21, 2017

OK....I still regret surgery a tad bit. I have to be honest. I hate food now. The smell of any food makes me want to chuck up. I am on a soft food diet right now. Its not easy trying to find something to eat. I get sick after a bite or things just dontblook good. Struggling tget my fluids in, my vitamins taken etc.... I am getting my omneprezole, calcium, biotin pills down but my stomach says enough. I am constipated and I'm trying to have that bowel movement.

That was the bad. I feel like a different person. I am more aware of each bite. I excersise daily.....plateau on weight loss. I can't explain the difference either. I still cook for my family but eating the food brings zero interest or joy. I think I am an addict who is in complete denial that my eating big meals is gone. My body is sating nope. I think its part of the process. I wanted change and I got it. Its not an easy road....and that's OK.

I think each day is a step to take...proteins, water, and vitamins. I am doing OK in the proteins. I had a baked chicken leg and squash without peeling and I thought I was in heaven...3 bites in...full.

Pop cycles sugar free are helping some. I am more motivated and I sleep better. I have lost so much none of my pants fit...people take notice. It makes me feel better. My goal of being healthy for my kids isn't met yet so I will continue my fight. Its a daily battle. I do not regret this but I feel yucky still. It will pass.

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