Already There

Feb 04, 2013

ok, friends...I have to confess I was SO tempted last night when my daughter was baking a cake. From the batter, to the icing knife, I'd think, "oh, it's just a tiny bit...doesn't count..." And in the grand scheme of things, for a great many people, it wouldn't. But for me that is a perfect definition of my gluttony, my excess, my rationalization to do what I want rather than what God wants to do in me. If I can't sacrifice a mouthful, what am I doing this for?

Ironically, I've lost 7 lbs since I began this challenge last Wednesday. Seven pounds of the result of my excess, my gluttony, my unwillingness to sacrifice for God. Please do not think I'm calling anyone else a glutton if they have a few extra pounds (or more)--I speak ONLY for myself, as honestly as I can. I know women who carry extra weight, and they are as holy as I could ever hope to be. But that isn't me. I can only judge myself. This challenge has convicted me to be still and allow God to be strong in my weakness.

I told my husband and my sponsor this morning that I have been blessed with an overwhelming sense of serenity and peace since I began this challenge. I am not focusing on what I can't have, only on what I CAN have. It's so puzzling how we go through our lives crying out to God, moaning and wailing about what may happen or what we go through, and where is He in all this mess??? But He's already there...He's always been there, waiting for us to come to Him.

From where I'm standing
Lord it's so hard for me to see
Where this is going
And where You're leading me
I wish I knew how
All my fears and all my questions
Are gonna play out
In a world I can't control

When I'm lost in the mystery
To You my future is a memory
Cause You're already there
You're already there
Standing at the end of my life
Waiting on the other side
And You're already there
You're already there

From where You're standing
Lord, You see a grand design
That You imagined
When You breathed me into life
And all the chaos
Comes together in Your hands
Like a masterpiece
Of Your picture perfect plan
 

One day I'll stand before You
And look back on the life I've lived
I can't wait to enjoy the view
And see how all the pieces fit (x2)

One day I'll stand before You
And look back on the life I've lived
Cause You're already there
You're already there
When I'm lost in the mystery
To You my future is a memory
Cause You're already there
You're already there
Standing at the end of my life
Waiting on the other side
And You're already there
You're already there

You are already there

Love to all---

bga

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