Ive been gone a while, here are updates.

Apr 19, 2009

I'm sorry Ive been absent from this site. Actually I have a myspace, a face book, and a You Tube account and have been absent from them all.
Ive been working SOOOOOOOOOOO much...Ive been so busy I cant even keep up. Ive been out on business in California and then to Vegas.
Matter of fact I have a laptop with all my work on it and really I should be working right now so I don't get too behind, BUT I need a little break so I'm going to update all who still be interested in my progress.

It has not been easy! I can however report that I'm down 42 lbs total in 2 months and 9 days.
That equals out to 21 lbs a month so far. I can only hope that pace keeps up. At first I thought that I was loosing weight slower than others, but then my DR said that it was good. Id LOVE to loose more weight than that but maybe I'm just being greedy.
Ive started to exercise and lift weights so maybe that will help push out some poundage!!
Let me tell you why its been hard for me.
First, when I got to the time that I can actually eat real food, Id throw it up every time.
It was like the only thing I could eat was SOUP.
When I ate anything with thickness or consistency Id have STABBING pains in my pouch area and then Id eventually throw it up.
FINALLY when I was out on business in California, I had diarrhea with a LOT of blood in it...( I know that is gross) so I went to the surgeon and he did a procedure where he put a scope down my throat and found that not only did I have something called STRICTURE, BUT I had a bleeding ULCER too!
Stricture is when your food opening pretty much closes...well that is what mind did anyway...IT CLOSED to a size of a half of pea. They took a balloon and opened it up a bit. AND THE ulcer was not anything I had before, it was NEW!
Apparently my pouch and small intestines where rubbing together to make an ulcer.
Now I have to take 8 meds to try to cure this problem. I'm not good with meds so I'm not too happy about it.
The good thing is that I can actually eat what ever I want as long as its a SMALL portion. I no longer have stabbing pains.
Although...you do have to chew very VERY well and eat slow or it dose hurt a little.
This all has been frustrating for me! Its all made me regret the procedure every now and then, BUT when I sit back and realize that I'm loosing this FAT, I'm getting out of FAT jail, then I don't regret it anymore.

Most of you can understand what I'm saying here, when your fat sometimes you feel that there is nothing you can do about it.
YOU feel that your in FAT JAIL! And for the first time in 17 years, I feel that I can possibly be OUT of fat jail very soon. I can actually feel what Ive always thought as NORMAL!
I'm already able to buy a size 13 jean! I'm already buying those jeans at a REGULAR clothing store....NOT Torrid or Lane Bryant. THAT is exciting. THAT is why I'm going to keep pushing myself to do exercise like TAE BO and BUTTS AND GUTS  classes (even though it sucks ass)..I'm doing it!

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