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I cannot belive it has been as long as it has been.. I am now over three years post-op. I am doing very well. I have however gained back a little. I go between 200 to 185 . So you can see my problem I still love chips....we are all doing very well e working as hard as ever. M loving school my big fifth grader.. Then there is J. I am home schooling him this year wow it is a challenge. not just the school but also raging hormones. he will be 13 in oct . He is taller then I am already.. Let see what else going on. we lost lady in July someone poisened her I miss her so much..Well that is about it . Love to all.   Beth

So I got a new truck this past weekend. It is a 2003 GMC Yukon... I love it . It has been so long since we have had a good dependable car. So take a look at the picture and let me know what you think......

Well I can not belive I am 18 months post op. I am down to 190lbs. I had a great wow moment. I women I had not seen in almost over two year. I said hi to her .She was like hey how are you. Then she got ready to leave then she saw Matthew. Then she looked at me then she was like OMG I did not even relize it was you.

04/25/06...Well I am almost 9 1/2 months out and I am at 212 lbs. wow I
just can not belive it I am so stoked and happy. I went to Joes crab
shck on the 22 and I even dared to wear a spagetti strap shrit. I was
kind of scared to wear it but I did I was even told I looked nice. I went
out with Lorie B all day what a awesome lady I am so happy we have
become friends. I know where she has been and all the emotions that are
involved. I am so praying for her. I can not wait till she has the surgery
. I know she will be blessed as I have been. I can not belive how I
once cried myself to sleep at least two to three times a week now I am
rejoicing to the heavens that I am so happy. Well I got to go my session
is ending hoping to get me another computer soon having withdrawls...



06/21/06......206lbs....OMG wher has the time gone. Since my computer
broke down I have not been keeping up with my profile. So here it goes.
I am still loseing I am dow to 206lbs. Can you belive it I can not at
times I feel so much better More like a new person. I know that is weird
to say but I am one. I have so much energy and life . Things I wanted
or dreamed about before I am doing.Me and Ernesto are enjoying each
other a whole loty more. Me and the boys are doing more for what you can do
in an apartment.. But that is going to change soon I got me a house I
am so thrilled it is on three acres. It is in the country anoter plus. I
am so excited about moving at the end of the month. I am also hosting
the July gettogther. I am so nerveous. but truly excited to get everyone
together. I want it to be the best.. I found out that Valerie Feilds
was my secret pal. Wow was she awesome the gifts were great. I had so
much fun with here.I can not wait to see her in July just to give her a
big hug... Let see whatr else is going on. Wow my house I love it can you
tell I am so excited... well other then what I metioned and my ONE YEAR
post op is approching I am thrilled happy. and I was even asked by Dr.
Duncans office to talk to the complications class in July woow what a
thrill. Will I better go for now..Love to all and always thank you to
you all eveyone is a true insperation..Till next time...Beth



 

10-02-06...... Wow I can not belive it has been almast four months
since I have posted an update. So here it goes.... I am at 195lbs at 14
months post op. I am doing very well . I stiil dump when I eat sugar .
Like I tried a soda the other day I got the worst sweats . I am still not
able to drink milk . I also get sick if I eat to much. I love Mexican
food so I can eat about one taco so I make it count... What else Me and
Ernesto are doing great. We finnaly worked things out. It was so bad
for a while but we are doing great now. He quit his overnight job and got
one during the day and he is making the money he finnally deserves. He
now has off actually two days Sat and Sun. before he was off Saturday
night but it was not really a night off. We are happy again. Also Joshua
has finnally got the help he has needed he was diagnosed with ADHD his
is taking meds and he talks to a psycaristys  once a month . He is
really working hard. To do good in school. Matthew is doing awesome getting
so much older and wiser the things he does and says he just knocks me
over. he is my little prefectionist. .. Well I guess that is all for now
..
----------AT 14 MONTHS OUT ----AND @ 195LBS SIZE 18 /17 JEANS
NECK---13.5 in
BUST---37
WAIST---38

I am a 33-year-old mother and wife. My boys are 6 & 9. My husband of eight years is great. I guess it is weird I put mother the wife but I feel I have a lifelong job being a mother . dont get me wrong I love being married. He is a great guy His name is Ernesto and we have had our trials and tribulations but all in all we are happy we still have our moments but I know he only wants the best for me I know this because with all we have been through we have managed to stick it out. I love him so much and he knows how unhappy I am with all this weight . But you know even as big well overweight I am he is with me and I know he loves me no matter what size I am. A good thing is he continues to tell me that to. I feel in love with him the day i meet him. i called my best friend Michelle and told her I found the man I was going to marry. It is now eight years later I guess I picked a good job to meet the man I am going to spend my life with. . He has given me two beatuifil boys Joshua and Matthew . My loves my angells my heart. I live for them I could not even imagine theses creatures not being in my life we were meant for each other. Joshua loves the story that he died and was brought back to life by an angel( long story but if you ever want to know after you read this email me and I will tell) He is meant for something special. He is my rainbow after a great rain strom or my insperation If I need anything I can depend on him. Yes me and Joshua do argue we butt heads alot now its just himing knowing how far he can push things . But I would not change that for the world and my baby wow what a sweet heart has the heart of gold. He is a sunshine when the clouds make it grey and gloomy . He has a glow about him that if you know him you would understand. ...... I weight 305 lbs. I finally got a insurance carrier Georgia Medicaid. I have never really hand any real health problems that I needed a doctor for but know I need one and hopefully i can find one that will refer me to have the surgery. I have been on so many diets I imagine it has been at least 20 all trying something different. I would lose up to 30 lbs. but then gain it all back. So i am hoping i can finally get the surgery done. I am so motivated and ready. I was introduced to it and met a great women named Ms. Jackson who had the surgery and I have been thinking about her for at least 3 years now. So like I said I am praying really hard. I have had a weight problem ever since i was little I have always been the overweight sister I have two sister that were tall and skinny and they still are i guess i got the fat genes and short ones..LOL . I had alot of emotional problems growing up which I got comfort for it with eating . My Dad died when I was 3 from drinking and driving . Then I was in all kinds of families homes I went from my patrenal grandparents to my mom then my maternal grandmother then my mom then my grandma again then to my mom again it has been a roller coaster ride . As my sisters handeled the pain one way like michelle she got hard as in she is very tough you have to break alot of bicks to get to the openess of her which not everyone sees. I hardly see it. Then there is Karla she went bad in other words very defient now she has been on drugs and in and out of jail for many years and she is only 32.I on the other hand went the shy staying to my self. My grandma was a very loving person she took us in when it seemed noone wanted us girls even though she was in her 60's she put in on herself to raise three almost teenage girls. WHAT A WOMEN. Even for a while it was just me and her living together I became and had such a strong bond with her I just could not except she had died when she did in 3/93 . She has always been my life source my consent Hallmark card. I need lifted up it was her that did it I could not even imagine life without her. But it has been 11 years and life has gone on . She was always so worried about my health . She did not want me to go through health issues so young and she told me straight out if I didn't do something about it I would get sick which I have . I get sick now very easy and it says with me for a long time in 2002 i was sick almost the whole year with something. I now sit here at almost 327 lbs and it is time for a change a better lifestyle I have a great family which I am not read yto leave yet. Or to take a back seat and let life passs me bye. I also want to mention my new life support my best friend Michelle. Wow what can I say about her She is my best friend my SISTER . I could not go through life without her. There is not enough words in the dictionary or the right words to describe this remarkable person. God sent her in my life for a reason and I thank him everyday. I dont know if she will ever know how much she means to me but it is written here. I love her so much. She came into my life around the time my grandma had her anerism and then passed away . I belive God said you know Beth is going to need someone since I am going to take her grandma so he sent her not to replace but to help fill the void which I was going to feel and the love and support I would need during that awlful grieving she was there that whole time. Thank you Michelle.  11/30/2004--327lbs-- Well i finally seen a pcp he thought i would be a great canadaite for the WLS . We talked over a lot of options We agreed it would be the best for me.--- Well he called me my pcp i found out i have diabetes he said i don't need to take any meds right now scheduled me to go to a nutr. I called Emory WLC and they said they would schedule me for an appointment in January. I can't wait very excited. >03/19/2005 ------ They received my app. told me to come in 04/12/2005 for a consult with the surgeon. Very excited 04/12/2005...323LBS... Went in to today for my consult. Everything went great was told had to lose 25lbs. I am very motivated if this is what i need to do i will. Bad news on the other hand my insurance changed from one type of Medicaid to another. So my PCP does not except this type so i did not get a referral. Was bummed out until I was told i could ask to be switched back. Hope it is soon that I need all of my evaluations done physic. and nutr. also a ekg done. Hope they hurry up and change it for me soon. 04/19/2005------Found myself a new Pcp today that my Insurance covers. Was so depressed about everything that was going on. Just hope this PCP agrees with me having the WLS. LETS PRAY..... I am trying very hard to keep on a diet to lose these 25lbs. I need to lose before I can have the surgery. Trying to eat make sure I sit down and eat. I have always been when I am hungry and sometimes not hungry just grabbing something or snacking on and off during the day. Started take vitamins to not so bad except remembering to take them. That how I ended up having my first son forgot to take the pill everyday.. LOL Well I at least know that can't happen again. Well gotto jet Add more when after i go to my new PCP in May 2nd. 05/02/2005..Well my new PCP is all on board she said it would do me good . She is going to get all the things I need togather.I called for a phys.eval. and they accept my insurance so I don't have to pay for anything. . also I talk to a very nice lady a nutritionist and we have a date for the 16 to get my nutr. eval. done only have to pay 85.00 for that so not to bad... and so then the only thing I will need to get is my ekg and chest x-ray so I am so excited .I hope it goes so fast. Hope I didn't forget to get anything from her . I di however find out I have blood pressure but she is going to check it when she gets all my other medical records from previous doctors. So yipeeeeeee. I keep on checking and double-checking thinking I forgot something but I looking over my paperwork and all is checked just waiting... Am starting a new job tomorrow I hope it works out. The boys are so happy for me Josh and Matthew keep on telling me when you get skinny mommy we want to do this. I just can't wait it ride horses again and the horse not tell me what the **** just joking.... Will write later when find out more... 05/11/2005...315LBS... Well I seen my Nutritionist today she was very nice. I think we will work well together to accomplish a successful weight loss goal now and after the surgery. She wants to achieve appositive weight loss but also to keep me healthy doing it. She weighed me and I have lost 10-lbs. yeahhhhhhh only 15 more to go. I need to find a support group that is close that I can attend. Also I still have my phys. evaluation left. Then it will be left to my PCP for my chest x-ray and ekg. Then it will be sent to insurance yipeeeeee. More later..... 05/22/2005...Well I am setting here just thinking Tuesday I have my Phys. Eval. also have a doctors appt. for a re-test on my blood pressure and also do my ekg however I am going to have to get a referral for my chest x-ray. Then I will have everything I need to turn into my insurance. I hope it doesn't take long I am pushing for all my requirements for the month if May and turn my paer work in for the month of June get approved. Then have surgery in August Or september. .. I am so excited but trying to get everything done is very tring .The process between getting one doctro to do one thing and the other to do another you would think they would want to work togather.To help you out so you can live a better life. But..... 06/04/2005...Well I have got everything done. Everything should of been faxed to Tracy or Lolita by Friday 05/28/2005 I was gone for the week . Had someone trying to call me Friday the 3rd around 8:00 at home and work. So I hope it is good news . Can't wait till Monday to hear something. Untill then... 06/10/2005... Well I am still waiting on medicaid I am or was not expecting a answer in a days time but would of been nice (ha ha) I called and they said they recieved my packet and it's in review. so I am Praying...... 06/14/2005...I got approved Thank you so much Lolita for your constit effort. I am so thankful for gods grace and his awesome power to always take care of his children. I can not belive it I started crying I heard Lolita say I was approved but it did not register. I hope they call me tomorrow for a appointment and then a great date would be before school starts back up. I am looking forward to a new fit me..... 06/15/2005... I talked to Yakima she said I could be seen 06/24/2005 at 2:30. To get my prepre-op appointment. I am getting a little nervous have I lost enough weight I started excerciseing again I love swimming and I can do it with the boys. I can't wait till I can go as fast as I use to. And acutally dive like someone should. I will be doing alot of continued reading and praying.tell more later... 06/19/2005 Here I am at work just wondering what is going to happen Friday and trying to get all my legal documents in a row. Just in case. I want everthing covered noone guessing what I want for me or my boys. I really hope they give me a close surgery date . I am trying to lose somemore weight before my appoint for Friday so they can see I am very detrimed to do what needs to be done. ...Ernesto on the second hand is being so mean I try to write it off . But if he keeps this up I am truly thinking about leaving him. I desearve better then this and so does the boys. I am going to wait till after my surgery and see what continues with him then make up my mind . I will not go through another four years of him starting to drink again. I put up with that the frist four years of or marriage. and if he is seeing someone else no way will I stay with him. That is one thing he knows I will not abide to.This surgery will make be better and I think it will make me stronger.. 06/24/2005..308LBS... Today has been a great day. I went for my pre-pre-op appointment with Dr.Duncans office They all are so great. I have my surgery date it is July,12 2005 I can't even tell you how I fell .I guess excited nervous & scared would cover it. But so ready to embark on a new life . These next two weeks and a half I hope go by fast. I have prayed ,cried to many nights that I was skinny . But thats not even what I want now I want to to be in shape fit. My Grandmother was and still is a very important person in my life even though she died in 1993 I continue to talk to her and I know she has had a hand in this. She only wanted me to be fit .For so long I know I scared her because I had so much weight on me. She is looking down on me and I hope very proud of me and of this decision I am making. I can not waiot till I can run with my boys and take them to Six Flags White Water and so on . That will be a very happy day for me. Oh my only negative thing was I had to get retested for my throyid to I hope that is okay. I want to list all of my people I used for my approval process. With Medicaid it took them only 1 week for me to get approval. 

WLSurgeon: Dr. Titus Duncan (404)881-8020 Price: $2.00 co-pay* PCP: Bhawna Khanna (770)739-6071 Price: $2.00 co-pay* Nutritionist: Cristina Caro (678)234-0225 Price: $85.00 (no) Psychiatrist: Kirt Shah (770)948-8600 Price: $2.00 co-pay* Covered by Medicaid * I can't forget Lolita and Tracy Dr.Duncans Insurance Coordinator for all there help. Also Yakima Douglas in Dr.Duncans office. 07/01/2005 Well here I go 11 days till the surgery. This week and the next are going to be so busy. The boys are keeping me busy. And also my precious puppy sparkle she is so pretty. She is a Yorkie. We have lost her once but i hope that is it. So any way I have my pre-op on the 5th and my complications class on the the 6 Not looking forward to the fleet. I have to work on those days too . I hope it turns out okay..... Found a new friend who has the surgery the same day as I do here name is Sara Johns She is so nice and we have so much in common. ... Well got to go...Beth  07/11/2005...310LBS.... Well tomorrow was suppose to be my big day. However I was called Friday night by Yakima she is so sweet) that the surgeon that is doing my greenfield filter would not be there Tuesday . So that is why they had to change it. Yakima kept asking if I was ok . She said you always sound so chipper I am not use to you being down . I laughed told her it was okay and friday would be fine. I was bummed but things alwys happen for a reason. Times like this when I am stressed I turn to my Grandma. She would always tell me "Bethie things will be just fine " I wish she could tell me that now. I am excited plus with the date changed Ernesto can be with me Saturday and maybe even Friday night.. The boys keep me settled and sane. they are always keeping me on my toes. I have been reading some different support online groups they are just getting me upset. Things people expect after surgery and talking about Dr.Duncan. I have high expections for this surgery but I also understand a lot has to do with me and my input. My reasonability in this process. Like me and ernesto was talking and Michelle if it is my time to go . It will happen I only pray that I lived a life that my children can repect me for and I was a good mother ,wife ,daughter,sister and friend. also that I did not hurt anyone in my life . I try to be treated as I would want to be. God in my heart. Love in my soul and heart I have been blessed many times and I thank God for the time I have had and if up to him the time I will have....Beth 07/13/2005 Well I took my first half of my bowel treatment this morning I about gagged then I got to do this again tomorrow yipee.But I got to look at it like I am doing this for a very good reason my life. That is the very best reason. Well I have just two more days now I am getting nervous . Only a little I have to tell you I think I would be truly scared if it hadn't been through reading peoples postings. Like Tami, Becky, Kia, and ect.... I have keept myself busy I cant recall everyones profiles but I just adore everyones. Everyone is so open an honest. Which I hope I have been. We need that for like me someone who was reading to get info and strenght. I am so glad I made this decision finally. It seemed like it took forever for me to get off of my fat butt and do something. I was letting life pass me by and letting myself just let it happen. I wasted many years not doing stuff for my children. I want to do so much with them . But in this state I could never do it. As I am writing this my back is even burning from hurting My ankles and knee continue to swell from my weight so I cant walk for long periods . I fall easily. I get dizzy standing up. . I can barely find a chair to sit in at places . Don't get me started on turnstalls. Let not even mention going on a airplane . Having to buy two seats. What an embrassing moment. How about seeing little kids look at you in that way they do . It breaks your heart. How about when you have to get on all fours to get up off the floor or out of the bath tub trying to figure the best way out. So you just take a shower. . It use to get me mad when people would ask me to get the heavy items or do the heavy lifting just because I was big .How about applying for a job and knowing you didn't get it because of your weight. When you call back they tell you they hired someone who was more qualified. . My biggest people saying mean things to you ,like you have no feelings or you should just laugh it off. Or how about going in to a store to find some clothes and seeing that sign a few dollars more for x sizes or not being able to find any thing to fit you in that store at all.... I am not really venting it is just some off the things that I have had to deal with being an overweight person. I hope anyone who reads that finds my life and experinces simalar to theirs really and truly thinks long and hard about having WLS and research as much as you can read read read. There is never a reson I would change my mind now. If though something was to happen to me . I want everyone to know I decided to do this for myself I hold noone to blame. The only hope and wish I have for everyone is to remember where you came from and how you where treated when you were overweight. Please dont ever degrade anyone for this . I have seen people who have lost weight now they think they are better then any overweight person. I hope to be the same person I am now and when I have the WLS. Beth  Post op measurements Neck-16 Bust-53.5 Waist-56.5 Hips-59.5 07/24/2005......Well I am a offical loser. well at least on the losing side. Everything went fine .
 07/15/2005--I got to the hospital at 5:30am like I was told I needed to be there I was taken back to my room at around 8:00 they put in the iv and I had to change. I told my goodbyes and I love you to the boys and Ernesto and they left. I talked to the Valascular surgeon and I was taken to the pre-op room and talked to Dr. Hobson . Met Pat his P.A and was given a nice hat. Was also introduced to the anatheglogist "feel good" Dr... Then I was taken back I remember getting off the gurney and getting on to the table and lying down . That was it next thing I remember is waking up in the recovery room. They were telling me everything was ok. I was very drowsey and they took me to my room. I slept and when I finally woke up I received a call from my baby Matthew wanted to know how I was he said I sound very funny and that I was crying. It was just the drugs. Then after that I woke up had a very bad taste in my mouth the nurse came in and gave me some ice chips. I went for my first walk. I dont remember my first nurse but then I had Benjil and Valerie I liked her she took out my catherder. Benjil walked me the second time. She was very nice. It felt good to walk. That morning I was given a bath with help from Pat . Then taken down to my leak test wow that was aweful. That drink and holding it in your mouth then swallowing it it makes you fell sick . But then after that I was taken back to my room given some apple juice and I went to sleep . Then Pat came back and took my IV out and told me to call ernesto to pick me up. .So I was realesed around 2:00pm . Went home and went to sleep. So that was that . One week later I feel awhole lot better am back at work I have been swimming and still on full liq I ate some beans today only about 2 tsp I feel good sleeping better. Still sore in places Where I had my IV in the hosp is still bruised. Was swollen last night. Unknown why. I am taking my b12,calcium and trying to take my protein drinks. I still need to find some iron drops and I also need to get me some different vitamins I have been crushing Juice Plus but it is nasty nasty I am trying nature plus liq today it is suppose to be like mango flavored. We will see. . I have my two week Post-op next Friday 29 I will tell how much I lost ,night before on my scales it was 311 and day I got home from surgery was 315 so .......   08/08/2005--285lbs--Well as you can see I am losing . I had severe nausea for about a week but it has finnally passed I am so happy . I have lost a total of 30 pounds in a little over three weeks. Yipeeee. I can feel my pants getting loseer not much but some. I went to the Dr. for my 2 week post op and I had lost 25 then I weighed on there scales 290.5 that day so between my scales and theres mine is off 5lbs. I like theres better lol. Everything at home is going good. Ernesto is getting back to normal I now really belive he was scared for me and this whole process. He is so funny at times .Plus we are getting back to you know what more often. which is always good. The Boys are good to. Cant wait till a couple more months when I lose a little more and I can go buy a bike and go riding with them plus it will be cooler . . They have been just angels to me anything I need help with they are right there. Also me and Joshua are not butting heads as much which I am very thankful for . School starts Wednesday the 10th so we will see how this goes . This year I will be shrinking Matthew and Joshua's mom. . Work is going good I like working part time. It gives me some money and also not all my time I still have time for the boys.. I like to give them time at school too. They are so excited about it starting they say they are bored. I wish my Grandma was here to share these moments with me. But I know she is looking down and admireing me. I miss her so much she has and alwyas will be my consent support. . I also wish my Mom would call just to let me know what is going on with her. She doesn't even know I had the surgery. Maybe in October I can go up to Indiana and surprise the rest off my family if I think I have lost enough. Well I am doing good and feel so blessed to of had this surgery. Even with the side effects I have had or may experince. I thank Dr. Hobson and Dr. Duncans staff. All my Ga Board family for there support. 08/22/05..275..I went for my 1 month post op appt. It was great. I have got down to 281 that was on 08/16 .today though I weigh 275 it is coming off I am so happy. Just to see the 2's again is great . Before I had the surgery when I noticed my weight increase it was like oh 290 well it's under 300 then when i saw 300 I said well its under 350 and so on and so on till my highest weight was 327. It is amazing I can really notice in my face so can Ernesto. I am finnally able to eat now and not get nauseaed that was aweful I still cant drink milk but maybe in time that will change.I also cant just eat a lot I most certainly have that full feeling I have read about. I hope by christmas when I send my cards out we can have a family photo done and include it. Boy will my family be surprised..I talked to my step dad today was nerveous hadn't talked to him in about 3 months. But still have'nt talked to my mom dont know about that yet. Oh well no sad stuff today only happy I think I am doing real good.. 09/17/2005..265lbs..Well here I sit at two months out I have lost 50 since surgery and 58 since I started the whole process. I am so happy I am losing inches too. I am as happy about that as the weight loss. I am not buying any new clothes till these are hanging off of me. I finally talked to my mom which I was so happy about they are doing good. Thats all I wanted to know. I had been not eating as well as I should but things are a whole lot better now. Labor Day I was at Michelle's and I played kick ball with everyone. I had so much fun. I have alot more energy. I need to get back on to taking my vitamins and other stuff. I think that would help alot to. I need to get back excerciseing.I would feel alot better.Work is going good.I know the boys are happy. Ernesto can really tell the difference in it to. He says I am looking really good. Even though he loved me for who I was and am. He does like the change and enjoy the benefits. I talked to my cousin Cheryl last night it was so good to talk to her it had been so long since I had talked to any of the family. I can't wait to go up Christmas and surprise everyone. I can't belive I finnally found a protein drink I like I make it into a smoothie and it is 20 grams of protein and then i add some instant milk and it adds another 8 grams. I am so glad I found one. I surely did not want to lose my hair .But if it does happen I will surely start wearing bandanas. So now I am getting my vits in and also now some protein. Well till next time.. Neck-15.5 Bust-45.5 Waist-49 Hips-57.5   

10/15/2005...255lbs Well here I am at three months out. I am feeling so much better. I can tell the difference so much in my face. So far I have lost 68 lbs from my start of my journey. ans 60 from the day of my surgery. I am very pleased. I have more energy. I am not as tried. I cant wait to start doing more stuff with the boys. As for ernesto we are doing great. he is over his thing he had going on. then other people have noticed i am losing weight. We are planing on seeing my family for thanksgiving. I can't wait to show off in a good way.Today is Joshua's birthday he wants to go toSix flags for it. I think it will be fun for him and his friends. I am really trying to eat healthy but just getting in my calorie intake which I know I am not getting in that much. I am also trying to excercise alot more I have been walking about 1.5 miles to 2 miles at least 4 days a week . I wish I could afford to go to a health club and get in a better regimen . Well this is how my month has been .I also have lost inches but unsure how much. Neck-14..5 Bust-45.5 Waist-46 Hips-55.5  11/01/05.....248lbs Well here I sit . I look better my clothed fit better I even have breast . which is a first for me.Even though I have been big I have not had any breast to say of. God surely did not bless me in that department. However now i am finally seeing some they are sticking out past my tummy. It is funny to watch my family and friends react to my weight loss. I think sometimes I am to obsessed with it or saying how much I have lost. I don't want to keep fishing for compliments or congrads. I am just so impressed they I have to shout it out. At halloween I finnaly purchsed a costume off the self. I was blown away how many years I had to end up making my own out of outfits I wore. . I was a vampiress was pretty cool. What else. I have decided to go to Indiana for Thanksgiving. I hope I loss a few more pounds before then . Other then the things I have listed it is going very well..The boys are doing great. Joshua is having a few problems at school but I hope this tutor he is getting is going to help. Ernesto like always is working hard.Sparkle is getting so big and what a lover girl. I love her so.As for Matthew he just always tells me I love you mommy and I am glad you are not fat fat anymore. How else can you not love him for careing for me that much. Work is good. love the job ...  11/21/05...Well it has been a little over four months and all I can say is wow wow wow. I have lost a grand total of 83 lbs. It is so unbeliveable I am so excited this past month i think the weight has come off slower then it has in the last couple of months but then again I looked it has been about 15 lbs so I am very happy with that. I am howver having major issues with my hair loss I think I have lost alot but my hairdresser said there is a normal amount you lose a day anyway and just now I am really focusing on it. I have went and bought some new clothes went from a size 26/28 pants to a size 22 . I bought me a size 22 blue jean the other day wow in my whole adult life i have never owned a pair of 22 pants. My next goal is to get into the teens 18. OT Now family issues my step daughter tried to commit sucide the other night now they want to blame it on ernesto for not being there. They have never had time for him know that she is a teenager they except ernesto to be there all the time even though the live 3 hours away I think they are expecting to much from him I know that he doesn't see her often enough but that has alot to do with her mother. Ernesto works so hard for our family and for her his child support. I also know it does not take the place of being there but every time he wants to see her they always have other plans now that there is a problem they want to put the blame on someone else... Wow what an exciting life I live huh? I am going to Indiana for Thanksgiving and can't wait. I just hope I can remember to eat what I am suppose to and no major dumping issues or getting sick which I still do from time to time. That would be bad. It is that feeling that comes which is the worst. Well untill I get back .... 11/30/05-----239lbs... Wow what a awesome ride I am on and I could not be any hapier. How great it is to see 230 something. I have not been this weight since I was atleast 12 or 13 or maybe before that. I had a fantastic Thanksgiving everyone in Indiana was so excited to see me and the boys Ernesto could not make it (work) all the time. God I love him. I surprised everyone Not just by being there which was a shock in its self but the weight I have lost was so unbeeliveable. I showed everyone my before pics and all i got was wows. Mom And Sam was so happy to . I even ran up the flood wall when we got there to there apartment . Do you think a couple of months ago I would of even been up to walk up it . I keep getting hugs from Sam (stepdad). All my cuz and aunts and uncle all were so proud. Now the boys want to move up there . Do you think they had a great time? (yes) Well before I left for IN i bought me a pair of 22"s now they are even lose on me. I hope by Christmas I will be in a 20 but the new Year watch out for me hahaha. Boy I feel so lucky and a previaliage to have had this surgery . And for God to have had Dr Hobson do it. I pray every night for him and Dr. Duncan And his staff. All I can ever do or say is to try to help anyone else as much as I am able to . I know people have read my post and as I do feel part of someone as I have read theres. I just hope and pray If there is anything I can ever do to help someone with this surgery support guidence. I will be there . I am not ever going to forget where I was and I hope Even after someone who gets the surgery does not forget . I think we need to remember where we were. Ecspecially how we got there in the first place. And to remember how we felt before. I know how miserable I was I cried so many nights wanting WLS and now that I have had it I cry because how much better I am I know I am going to be around for my husband and boys. Not be in the back seatwatching them grow up with out me out there doing stuff with them ... Well enough for now .. As always much Love ...Beth 4 1/2 post op measurements neck= 14in bust=42in waist=45in hips=52in total lost weight= 84lbs lost FOREVER  12/07/05...235lbs...Can you belive it. I am so stoked I am 35 years old today. And I weigh 235 lbs. It still suprises me how much I have lost. Ernesto gave me a diamond ring for my birthday. I feel so good I can eata serious amount now. Sorry I am switching back and forth. I am so excited. I am in the 30 wow 90 lbs lost. 12/21/05.. Merry Christmas, Feliz Navidad...ect...231lbs. What the most fantastic Christmas gift I could of ever gave myself a new life. A new wife and mom for my husband and boys. I am now a little over five months out and loving the change. Even though I really don't see it I have been told I am looking good..LOL I am still wearing my old clothes but they are hanging on me so much. I hope after the first of the year I can go shopping for new clothes. What is going on I lost my job . They are such a**es but life goes onthere are other jobs out there. I think I am going to wait till I can get me a car and me and Ernesto do not have to worry about the time we either have to get home for the other to go to work. I am still so bad trying to put everything on my shoulders. my Mom is having problems and financial issues.I wish I could help..... I still know I am not getting enough protein and even food intake. I stay tried . I know I am going to talk to the Dr. when I go for my six month. The boys can't wait till Christmas. I am even excited to see some people I have not seen in a couple of months. I have been cooking like crazy these last couple of days baking is my thing at Christmas. It is hard though trying to remember I should not eat those thing and a bad thing is I have no problems with surgar. I mean none I wish I did. It is just all other foods . Well enough for now. Love to all.. 5 month measurements" Neck : 14---------2 in loss Bust: 39.5---------14 in loss Waist: 43.5--------13 in loss Hips: 51------------8.5 in loss Weight 231 total loss 92lbs -----84 since day of surgery  Joshua 12/25/05 age 10  01/01/2006.......231lbs...... Hi to all .I hope to find you all in great sprits and life. I am doing very well I am doing very well in the weight loss dept. I have lost a grand total at 5 1/2 months out 91 lbs. I am so exstatic. I fell so much better and I can even say with a blush I even look better (shy). Our family had a awesome Thanksgiving , Christmas,and a Happy New Years eve. I did very well in the food department. I allowed my self the plearsure of eating what I wanted but in such a smaller portion then I have ever had before. I was amazed at Christmas when my sister gave me a pair of 20 jeans I ran a tried them on and they fit asnd they were not even snug. I brusted into tears. Since last year at this time i was wearing a 26/28 pants with elastic waist. I just want to tell each and everyone of you who ever has posted ,emailed or IM me or even just looked at my profile..I wish you only the best and most happiest 2006. I also look forward to hearing from everyone and enjoying reading your alls future post. .Love always.....Beth (joshua and matthew say "hi" 1/13/06... Wow we had a great time Saturday at EKA Japanesse steakhouse. Melissa was such a great host . Loved seeing everyone there. Was so happy to see Tami and Chris. Susan and her son, Norma, Valerie,Bridgette, Marty and Mea, And everyone else. The boys and I had such a good time as we always do . Just wanted to post our pic .. Thank you Melisssa for taking a great photo..... Joshua 10, Matthew 7, Beth ... Can you tell I love them so..  02/15/06.....219lbs.. I can not belive I am get so close to the two hundred pound mark. Here I am at seven months out and below 220. I am looking forward so much for Spring and Summer to come. I have not been this excited since I was little girl. Time has just flown bye. Seven months out I am finally eating a lot more Well more then I had been and I very seldom now get nausea like I had been . I however still avoid foods I knowI have gotten sick on in the past. Like milk. certain red meats, eggs and ect. But all in all it is getting better. I fell tried alot though I need get my iron check i think. The boys are always telling me how good I look what angels You have just got to love that. Matthew the other day gave me a big hug and said" You know what mommy I use to not be able to touch my hands around you now I can" I just took that precious face in my hands and with a tears in my eyes knew he was a big reason I decided to have WLS. I feel so much better walk taller and even catch myself looking in the mirror awhole lot more looking at the changes I love each one more and more. Here is my body measurements for Feburary I did not list them for January since there was no difference... Neck---13in Bust---39in Waist--42in Hips---49in......Seven months out .....219lbs from...323 SW  


---2/18/06---Went to Loca Lunas downtown it was so great to see everyone.. Becky she always makes me laugh we sat next to Stephine and Judy and of course Becky , Across the table was Valarie our hostes it was so fun .Got to meet Lorie and Jim.. Even Ernesto went with me and the boys see photo below for proof..LOL > ---2/23/06---WOW WOW I went to Khols and what happened let me tell you I got in to a pair of size womens 16 I even had room to spare now mind you they were strech but still the label said"16w" I was so happy I went out and had to ask a sales person what was the next smaller size then that. I had no idea I dont even remember wearing a 16 before . I came home and had to tell someone . I called my Mom she was so excited for me as well as my dad. Then I had to tell Ernesto when he got up to go to work he told me he was so happy for me,.I can tell he is excited I just can't wait for many more wows.. 03/17/2006..Well I am eight months out and I am down to 218. I am doing very well in eating now. I am losing incehes but have stalled in my weight loss. It is kind of fustrating but I know it is a long process. I am so excited about loseing and the compliments are so great. I love to hear them .. Bad ain't I? It is so good well great to hear my boys telling me how good I look and the way It has changed me and ernestos love life. This may be to personal for some . But with me and his differences like Our sizes we were not that adventures in our love making but it is now so much better We are having alot more fun with each other. Well time is ticking on and I hope I am keeping to my nature. I hope anyone that knows me says she is staying true to who she is. I know of so many that think they are mightier then all just because they have lost so much weight. why do you think you have to put others down and put yourself on a pedestal for your weight loss. I mean it is nice to feel good about yourself but please keep in mind who you once were. ..Love to all Beth ....3/25/2006 ...Wow what a month I have been having I am so ready for Spring and Summer. I am just so tried of this cold weather. I was very depressed earlier this month I am just worn out. This past eight months have been so filled of excitement, sickness, fustration, worriness, and much joy and love. I had the stuff with all the nausea then with my past employment.Then there are family issues with me and Joshua going at it so much. But I can not belive I am finnally getting some help with him . We have a doctors appt. this Thursday. and the school has finnally picked their butts off the ground. So maybe this boy can finnally get the help he needs. He has a learning diasability and inattention disorder . I am unsure if it is from the medical issues he had when he was born. However we are going to get this thing started and get him back on track. Then we have Ernesto. There are days I am very happy with him and others I want to leave him. I love him don't get me wrong I guess it is I want to go out and do stuff and he works so much to take care of his family .we just don't spend enough time togather or as much as I want to. I am also burned out of all this stuff .This surgery takes alot out of you I just want to spend doing something I want and not have fighting. Does that sound to bad. I have not really ever had a break from the boys since the day I had them except when I have been in the hospital and what a vacation that was one time with pulminary emploism and another with pheuminioa ( my spelling suxs) sorry. I need a breather. I want a cruise..lol my luck the boat would sink.. Other then this stuff things are going good I finnally broke this stall which I was really getting pissed. I am eating alot better and excercise more. I hope to be under 200 lbs by my 1 year anniver. That would be a loss of 123 lbs in ayears time. Well I better get off of hear till next time. Well add pics later...Beth ------update-----  ---update------- ----update---