*sigh*

Jun 02, 2010

I haven't written on here in a while...I'm not much of a blogger. However, I was doing a really good job at using the food tracker/journal and being aware of what I was putting in my body. This past weekend has really gotten me out of my routine. I know I need to get a better handle on this because when I have the surgery holidays will come and go and I'll still be restricted on what I eat and how I eat. There won't be the excuse of "it's a holiday - go ahead and indulge" because the consequences of those actions are not worth it.

I really want this surgery to work. I desperately want to change my habits and ways of thinking. I know for me it'll take baby steps to get to the goal of getting surgery. I didn't realize it until just now, but I am very glad my insurance requires the 6 month SWL. I need that time to prepare for life after surgery.

I decided to not go with St. Francis for my surgery too. When I had first looked into WLS, I contacted two hospitals in my area that are covered by my insurance. I got sick the morning of my informational session at one hospital and just went to one session at the other hospital. The information session was more like - OK, you're with us now - here's what you do.

I wasn't happy with that approach. I was even more upset when I realized they didn't have a SWL program that combined monthly sessions with a dietitian and a psychiatrist (the hospital I am now going forward with does offer this). They told me to just see my family doctor for the SWL.

Hello? If I am in the position of needing surgery to fight obesity, don't you think it's more than changing my eating habits that will need to be changed? The way I THINK about food has to change - that won't be done by "following a diabetic diet and exercising  more" (this is the ONLY advice my family doctor gave me regarding the SWL).

So, couple that experience with the holiday weekend and I can see why I haven't been as devoted to this as I should be. I am still making better food choices than I was a month ago, but I need to be doing more. This week has felt like I've just half-assed it. I'm not going to go into the weekend and the bad choices I made then. :(

I'm going to keep trying. WLS is what I want and making the changes I know that need to be made is the only that it's going to happen.

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09/27/2010
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