Beth L.
I've let myself down
Aug 19, 2010
I was stressed/upset about something when I got home and I actually felt justified to eat something bad for me. I now feel horrible because of it. As I was pouring out some Cheez-It crackers I was thinking I shouldn't be eating this. At the same time I was telling myself I better do it now and enjoy it because after September 17th I won't have this option?How much sense does that make?!?!
Fug!!
I've been to counseling for addictive/compulsive eating and know I'm an emotional eater. I have a (rather lame) book on emtional eating and can't get through it. It is way too preachy.
I did buy a copy of The Beck Diet and have yet to read it.
My surgery is less than a month away and I've scared myself even more. What the hell am I going to do when I'm upset or stressed after surgery??
Yes, i know the list: go for a walk, do something for myself, exercise, do laundry., etc. I have a list of 100 things to do instead of eating but this evening I couldn't give a flip about any of those things. I was tired from exercising and wanted a damn bowl of crackers.
I HAVE TO get a grip on this. I CANNOT eat my emotions. I WILL use my surgery as a tool to a healthier life.
If it takes muttering to myself about not eating something, then I'm all for looking like a crazy person from time to time. I do know not to beat myself up for these feelings - that will only make the pain worse.
I can't take it back now, but I hope I can learn from it.
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About Me
Indianapolis, IN
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27.9
BMI
Surgery
09/27/2010
Surgery Date
May 20, 2010
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