Barbara G.

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I had my surgery 1 year and 8 months ago.  I have not lost weight in over a year.  I am out of control, again.  I crave sweets, overeat and make bad choices.  I need help, menatl I think.  Is anyone out there losing coontrol?  Any advice?

I am 5 months out from surgery today, I weighed 235 yesterday.  That is 105 lbs down from my beginning weight of 340lbs on February 5th, 2008 and 65 lbs since my surgery.  I am still having trouble on occasion with digestion.  I have to chew everything very very well and it is better if i eat on food group at a time, unless it is a salad.  I can tear a salad up.  I can also eat any protein on my salad; egg, chicken, tuna, shrimp; they all go down very well.  I snack on nuts very often, pumpkin seeds, cashews, pistachios, almonds, peanuts, nuts are satisfying.  I plan to avoid alcohol until I reach my goal weight.  I am on a diet and alcohol is fattening.  I do occasionally have one or two pieces of miniature size candy.  That is cheating, I know. 
Before weight loss surgery I wore size 28 pants with stretch and size 30/32 shirts I am now wearing size 16 or 18 pants and a 14/16 top.  I cannot wait to get to my goal.
My skin is so loose and flabby, it hangs from my thighs, my upper arms are icky and my belly should have just given birth.  Hopefully some of it will shrink down, but my surgeon says that it won't and there is nothing that I can do to help it, except surgery.  That would have to be many years down the road, I still owe Barix a couple of hundred dollars for my WLS.

Tomorrow is three months from my surgery.  I am finally able to eat chicken.  I am starting to feel happy with the WLS decision.  I have really had a difficult time.  First I had pain when I drank water, then I threw up EVERY SINGLE time I ate.  I finally had to have an endoscopy scheduled, because my surgeon was worried about my not being able to keep anything down.  But, the week before my procedure I stopped throwing up!! I was so happy, I cancelled my appointment right away. I can finally see the light.  Maybe I can lose the weight and even be happy.  I sure hope so. 

I haven't been to the gym since I went back to work.  I work really long hours and I am so tired when I get home, but I have every intention of going back.   Tomorrow. 

I joined Bally Total Fitness last night.  I had an appointment with a personal trainer this morning.  I thought she was trying to kill me!  She said she is paid to PUSH me.  I came home and took a nap.  When I belonged to a gym years ago I weighed around 200-220 pounds, when I left I felt energized.  I hope that feeling comes soon.  Being fat sucks!  My body is starting to look and feel different to me.  My arms and legs feel flabby, they used to be tight.  I hope that means my fat is disappearing.  I am getting sick when I eat, very often.  Sometimes I have intense pain in my stomach and what I think is my esophogus.  Most times I throw up, over and over.  And other times I have diarrhea.  I still wouldn't reccomend this surgery to anyone.  Try to diet and excercise.  You will have more choices and fell better physically.  Maybe when I'm SKINNY I will change my opinion.

I went to see my surgeon today for my two week check up.  I have lost 17 1/2 pounds since my WLS and 47 pounds since February 5th!  The nutritionist said that I have to increase my protein.  I am averaging 30 grams/day and my goal is 70.  I have to put protein powder in everything! Water, soup, pudding, milk. I cannot wait for my next phase, pureed.  I hope it is better than it sounds.  I am craving meat like crazy, still.  I am also dying for a salad.  I have been doing well with my walk, every day at least 30 minutes.  My surgeon doesn't want me to join a gym just yet.  My clothes are definitely getting too big.  When I went walking last night I had to keep hiking up my pants.  That was annoying and awesome at the same time.  My mood is getting better each day.  I am so excited to see the results of this procedure.

I am starting to feel better.  I am learning to sleep longer in the night, and my back is feeling better.  I started full liquids today.  I had skim milk, with 1 TBSP of sugar free chocolate syrup and a half of a banana, it was disappointing.  I miss chewing, especially salads and meat.  I am craving eggs, chicken and steak.  Just taking it one day at a time.  I am loving the Wii video game system.  I played bowling for almost an hour last night and actually worked up a sweat! It was so much fun.  My legs are still hurting, I hope that goes away soon. 

I had my gastric by pass surgery on Wednesday.  I am such a baby, every little thing is bothering me.  I have IV bruises and grumbling in my new tummy.  This is definitely going to take some getting used to.  I am on clear liquids now.  I have stocked up on broth and sugar free jello for this phase.  I have sugar free pudding, fat free milk, protein supplements and yogurt for my next phase: full liquids.  That starts this Wednesday, yay!  I have been walking.  My boyfriend took me down the shore to recover.  We walked on the boardwalk today, it was beautiful.  I am hoping that this is a life changing experience.  I want to be healthy and normal.  :)