BigCaliSmile
Hi there..
thanks for checking out my page. I live in southern california.I have battled weight all my life and at one point felt so I am voluptuous I look cute still i get asked out. This mentality lasted through my early 40's I would still go out dancing /socializing every weekend. Eventually that stopped as my fat mainfested on my body in different ways (aging) so diid the results years of accumulated weight gain, loss, gain more brought.
I am 49 years old and refused to believe I really needed to have this or any surgery. I tried countless times to lose weight. I feel at times I am still in denial of my actual size. Although I am not as heavy as I once was the highest i was weighed at was 239 (that I know of) I had signed up to get a personal trainer and found out my bmi was 49. I know I wasnt the heaviest person they met but to me I felt ackward just being there and although intially determined it quickly faded not being able to perform the exercise suggestions. I know this sounds weird but i felt like i would get stares of people laughing at me.
At 48 i spoke with my doctor who suggested the surgery i wanted perhaps the lapband she felt for me that would be a waste. I started intitally with Kaiser taking classes but eventually left the program feeling I'd tackle this on my own!
A year later at my annual physical the results were not as well as i hoped I had gained the 5 pounds that I had lost the year before and other conditions due to my lifestyle were going to be requiring life long medication. At 49 Ive tossed in the towel and am finishing my classes with kaiser. I have faxed over my paper work to the hospital in San Diego Pacific Bartriactric and am waiting for appt to be interviewed by their staff for the final ok and date of surgery.
