bigmetfan38
holy cow! my surgery is 11 days away!
Jan 30, 2011
yes, 11 days from now, i will be either under the knife, or in recovery, or in a room! i am so excited i can't even stand it! it's been a crazy 6 months waiting for this to happen, and it's finally so close i can touch it!i lost my mind last night and for the first time in 10 days i ate food. i ate about 8 oz of chicken and it was cooked in frank's hot sauce (it's one of my favorite things to eat - although, when you're not eating and you think of food, you might think everything is one of your favorite things to eat, lol) and some mashed potatoes. i tried to have a soda (coke zero - also, the only thing i ever drank before this journey started) and i didn't like it! so i didn't drink it. it's good to know that i didn't like the taste, because now that i have that in my head - i won't ever try to drink it after surgery. however, i weighed myself this morning and i was 6 pounds heavier than i was yesterday! that freaked me out! i don't know what all that was about, but i worked out (did my p90 x) and took a shower, when i got out i weighed again, just to see what would happen and i was 3 pounds less than i was this morning. i normally don't weigh myself that often, but i think the whole cheating thing freaked me out.
in any event, i have decided to re-double my efforts. it's clear i must do this for the next 9 days. i have to get up, do my exercise, have my protein shake, take all of my vitamins, go to work, have a shake for lunch, get to the gym for the treadmill, have another shake when i get home, and get to bed early so i can do it again. we leave for san diego before the crack of dawn on wednesday, feb. 9th because of my pre-op appointment. on that day i will be doing all clear liquids. period.
i realize that we are all having surgery because we haven't been able to maintain a weight loss for any length of time that will benefit our health. as a matter of fact, the constant losing and gaining is more strain on the heart than anything. i have lost and gained hundreds of pounds over the years, but i always end up here. this is my time.
this is my time that i can get a jump start in the weight loss, and i have to use this tool to get my health back and be able to be physically active again. i have to use this tool to learn how to eat like normal people apparently do, because the rest of the world isn't my size.
i can do this!
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About Me
los osos, CA
Location
25.9
BMI
Surgery
07/15/2014
Surgery Date
Nov 04, 2010
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