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i have never known what it is like to be a regular sized person. ever. my first gp told my mom i was about 5 lbs heavier than a girl my age should be. i came home and my family sat around the table and talked about how ashamed they were. they felt guilty and my mom said, "one day you're going to blame me for this". then she said to no one in particular 'what can i do, she gets hungry'. by grade 10 i had climbed to 250 lbs. i paid dr. B a lot of money for b12 shots and protein powders and lost 70 lbs. at 180 i looked great-pretty much normal. but you all know the drill, it didn't last long. i left for europe at age 20 weighing 280 lbs. with two friends helping me i lost another 80 lbs. came back to toronto and watched it all climb back. i can't blame it on having kids. i also have to say that i have eaten and sipped some very fine food and wine over the years. i have a weakness for cheesies and the occasional coke. anyway, i am tired and i am ready. i am also a little afraid-but my health complications are getting in the way. i reckon things will get worse if i don't make some changes. so, i'm ok with the idea that i will only taste the things i once loved. it's a small price to pay. i am looking forward to riding my bike again, to having some energy and feeling good more often than what i am feeling these days-not very human. and so my journey begins.
