I am 305lbs, up and down all my life.  I would finally like to be free of the roller coaster ride.  I have 4 children, 3 boys and 1 girl.  After having her, there was no weight lose success at all.  She is almost 4yrs old now.  

I think that is long enough to carry the weight left from it.  
It's time to get my life back.  I am ready for that.  
It's time for me to see the world and the world to see me.
 
     

 

 11/28/06 

 I attended the seminar with Dr. Clark on Nov. 14.  I completed the computer test Nov. 20th.  I got a call Nov. 22nd from the Surgery Center saying I am a candidate for surgery. 
Lucky for me my insurance only requires a referral.  They go along with anything the surgery doc says is needed next.  Which happens to only be a computer test.  It has 165 questions.  The test goes with the next thing you have to do, an appointment with the Psychologist.  They want to make sure you are ready to commit to what you have to do before and after the operation.  And I had my appointment today.  It will take about a week to find out whether or not the Psych  Doc gives me a go. 

 If I get a go from the Psych Doc they will give me an appointment with the Patient Scheduling Coordinator - Cat who will give me a surgical date and start the process.  A 3-1/2 hour educational class to prepare for surgery and post-operative period and visit with fitness trainer and I think a dietician but I am not sure.  

The process is going pretty fast and I hope it continues that way.  I would love to have the surgery before the middle of Jan.  I hope that isn't wishful thinking.

 

 

 

 

  

12/11/06 
  I  called the WLSC today.  They informed me they received the Psychologist report.  She gave me a go.  My chart was given to Cat- the Patient Scheduling Coordinator.  She sent it to my insurance for authorization.  I just hope they don't take forever.  And I hope they don't ask for anything else.  We will see.

 

  12/16/06
I called my insurance company yesterday to see if they received my request for the surgery. The lady took a moment, put me on hold, came back and informed me that they did not receive anything yet. Of course you know I was not happy. But I am trying not to get to upset. The WLSC does have a lot of patients.

I understand that so I will look at it another way. I am not in control of any of this. In the middle on this year I prayed for some help at losing weight. It just wasn't happening by myself. In Oct. Someone came to me and told me they heard my insurance pays for this. I just so happen to be in the middle of changing providers.

So, I of course picked the one that covers the surgery and covers the hospital where it is performed. So you see it was meant for me to be in this process. So when it is my time and not a moment earlier, it will happen. I am not saying that I will not call the Surgery Center on Monday because I will but only to see exactly where I am in this process.


 

 12/18/06 

Today I  decided not to call the WLSC first.  Instead I called my insurance company to see if they might have received my paper work yet.  The lady said, "Yes we have."  So I was about to get off the phone.  But instead I said,  "do you know when it was received."  She said, " I can't tell but it does show it is approved."  I'm APPROVED!!!!!!!!!!!   
I just can't believe it.  I just didn't expect that.  Well, The WLSC didn't receive the fax yet.  --But I know--.  I am just waiting for the call from Cat-Patient Scheduling Coordinator to select a date.  OH MY GOD!!  I just can't believe it.     




 12/20/06 
  
 I have a date. Jan. 16, 07.  It is just so unbelievable.  It can't get here fast enough.  I was told it couldn't be much sooner because of the holidays.  I have scheduled pre-op appointments to attend.  I am not mad at all. 
Merry Christmas everybody!!! 




 12/22/06 

 Lets see.  Today I received a package from the WLSCenter.  It contained a Financial Agreement needing a signature, Surgical Itinerary, Pre-Operative Program Appointment Completion Form,  Copy of Comprehensive Gastric Bypass Program, and a top sheet Explaining all of them.
The Itinerary was the most important to me.  The appointment info.  Name, time, date, and where.  I didn't realize until now really, how many there would be.  5 appointments before surgery.  Not including the Routine pre-surgical testing (EKG, labs, chest x-ray).  Now I see why the holiday prevented the surgery from happening earlier.  On Two of the days I have two appointments. But you know what, I do not care.  I will do every last one of them twice if I had to.  The first appt. is on the 5th of Jan.  And I just can't wait to start.



 12/29/06   
  
 Sentara Careplex Hospital called to schedule my pre-surgical testing.  It's at 8:00 in the morning on the 4th of Jan.  Its getting really close now.  I feel strange about it all.  I know it's coming but it just hasn't hit me yet.  In my quiet moments is when I feel strange.  The feeling of missing something, yet you can't put your finger on it.  One day at a time will be my life from then on.  There is a lot going on in my personal life at the same time of this blessing.  So my world is strange now.  

I have been looking at some before and after pictures in some of the profiles.  And it really hit me that the same drastic transformation will likely happen to me.  I saw how nice one woman looked before her surgery.  Then to see how beautiful she became after the surgery, it just keeps popping in my head. 

 

Trying to see myself looking that small.  Several of them saying they haven't been that size since high or middle school.  Then remembering how small I was in my school years.  It is just so unbelievable.  I have longed for this for so long.  It just doesn't seem real.  

!!!BUT IT IS!!!


 

  1/6/07   

  On the 4th I had pre-surgical testing.  It was pretty simple and it only took an hour.  As I was sitting waiting to be called.  It began to feel as if I was there for the surgery.  And then it hit me that this was really happening.  I was nerrrrvous.  When my blood pressure was taken it was even slightly high.  But as I continued I began to feel better.  I had a weight loss surgery exercise consultation on the 5th.  That didn't take long.  10mins.  tops.  I also took a tour of the club.  I have 4 more appointments to go



 1/9/07 

 Today I had my 3 1/2 hr Pre-Operative Education Class.  That was an informative class.  I had my first official meeting with Dr. Clark.  He seems very nice and easy to talk to.  Tomorrow I have a 1 hour Nutrition Class and a Support Group Meeting.  Which is a good thing.  I can meet some of the people I have been talking to on the computer.  I am looking forward to it.  I hope they will talk about something good.



  1/11/07    
 
  Yesterday, I attended a 1 hour Nutrition Class and my a Support Group Meeting.  I enjoyed both of them.  I'll try to go to all of the meetings from now on.  I am trying to get ready for the time that I will be out. 

It's a lot to think of with my 3yr old in the picture.  I think I got everything covered.  It's just a waiting game now.  Thank God it is not a long time.  
5 days to go.



 1/13/07 

 Well, 3 days to go!  I am so ready.  I just want to get it over with.  I am very excited.  Still doing a few last min. things.  There is one thing I can't wait to do once I have this surgery.  That is to go back to church.  I was reading a friends profile and she had mentioned going back.  

I knew a long time ago that that was one of my goals.  I refused to go back into a place, where I was seen small, the size I am now.  I didn't want to see the faces act like they were not shocked.  So once I have lost 20-30lbs, I will finally return.  Sad but true.  I have even let my size get in the way of my relationship with my GOD.                  
           

Never the less that day is coming soooon!!!!!! 

 

   

 

1/16/07     

  Well it is time to saddle up and go to the hospital.  I am up a little too early.  Something woke me up and I can't go back to sleep.  It's 4:00am so I will just get ready.  I am not nervous yet.  I guess it will hit me once I enter the doors.  Anyhoo, I'm ready to go for it.  Time to go to the losing side!!!




    2/6/07   

  I have been over my mom's house since the surgery.  Her computer has been down.  I am doing fine.  It was very uncomfortable in the hospital and at home.  I had a lot of gas on top of just the surgery.  I made it through the two week liquid diet.  The G tube was finally removed on Jan. 30, I have been eating soft foods since.  Tuna, eggs, chicken, and grits plus a few others.  I am able to eat only 2ozs at a time.  At this stage they want you to eat every three hours.  At the same time sip liquids all day.  I have to make sure I stop drinking at least a hour before eating or I will not be able to eat much. 
 I have lost 23lbs so far.  My clothes are hanging.  Its time to try on some of my smaller clothes.  This is going to be interesting.



  2/12/07    

  I am back home now.  I am doing fine.  I realized I have to take prilosec as soon as I get up.  If I wait I will have a pocket of gas in my stomach and it may cause me to vomit.  It already happened two days ago.  It felt like I ate a tennis ball whole.  It was not good.  Once my food came up I felt a lot better.  
   

  I realized that I forgot my pills the day before.  Wrong thing to forget.  Needless to say, I don't forget anymore.  Other than, that isn't good.  I am sure I lost more weight but I have to go over my mom's house to get on the scale.  I really need to buy one.  I will need to weigh myself often so I should just get one.


  

 

2/19/07 

  I had my one month check-up today.  I have lost 28.4lbs.  My Ticker is a little off because I was 305.something but I just don't remember what it was.  I can tell I have lost weight.  My coat was to small at first, now I have room.  My face is also smaller.  I think my shoes are flip flops now, at least one pair.  I was thinking I will miss the clothes I have now.  I took so much time making sure they were nice clothes, and now I will not be able to wear them for long.  I will hang on as long as I can.  
The smaller size clothes I have don't quite fit yet.  But it's ok I'm patient.   
 

  I have moved to regular food just no corn, popcorn hulls(unpopped popcorn seeds), or white rice.  I hope it goes well I really don't want to go through dumping.  It's just not pleasant at all.
 




  2/25/07    
  
  I haven't weighed myself since the 19th.  I just need to go and by a scale.  I am tired of going to my mom's house just to weigh-in.  
   

  For a moment, I was afraid to try new things.  But I am coming out of it.  I tried store bought Chicken salad.  It was good.  It did taste a little sweet.  Now I didn't think I would ever think something tasted to sweet.  I guess, I am use to eating all these sugar free foods.  
   

  I am able to sit and watch my family eat sweets all day long and I don't care.  My daughter had this big nutty buddy cone.  She couldn't eat all of the ice cream.  But I did not care.  It melted and went in the trash.  I have never done that in my life.  I would have helped her eat it, even if I was already full. 
    

Now that is a big, big, big change!



 2/26/07   

  I have lost 30lbs.  I might have lost a little more but I need to weight myself at the same time every day.  I find myself doing it at night after all day of eating.  I have to get my own scale.

  I am looking for a new job.  I want a job that doesn't hold me in a box.  One that has no limits other than what I put on it.  And I don't want to take forever to find it.  I think I have paid my dues.  At this point in my life, it should be what I want for me not what I have to do to survive.




   3/6/07   

  It's seems that I am at a plateau.  I had gone to a class on the 28th of Feb.  I had to weigh in.  I weighed 270.  Which was a good thing.  But now I weigh myself at my mom's house, it says 275.  I am confused.  I guess all scales are different.  

  Its been two weeks since that weigh in, and not 1lb lost.  Are you for real.  I am not happy about this. 
  So I have started exercising.  And I will go back to what I was eating in the beginning.  I have gone to far, I guess.  All I know is I am not going back to see the Doc a whole month later and haven't lost 1lb.  I don't think so.     Going back to basics.  High protein foods only, maybe a SF pop.




 3/8/07   

  Well I found out from the January 07 Surgery Message Board that this is called a stall.  Some of us stall for a week or more then lose some more.  And it could be a on going pattern.  It makes me feel a little better.  Maybe its a good thing by giving my skin time to shrink without all that hanging skin when I am finished.

 
  

   3/16/07   

  Finally the scale moves.  I found a Plateau Buster Diet from another profile LavenderLoco.  She has a lot of wonderful info.  The buster worked.  
   

  I finally bought my own scale.  It was an inexpensive
 one.  It appears to be about a ten lb difference from my mom's scale.  Which is not a problem, I just need to know how much difference it is from Dr. Clark's scale.    Even so, going by my mom's scale there is a loss of 7-8lbs.  I go see Dr. Clark on the 3/22.  So we will see.

PLATEAU BUSTER DIET (UPDATED)
FOLLOW FOR 10 CONSECUTIVE DAYS 

1. Drink 2 quarts of water each day.
2. Minimum 60 grams of protein supplement and all your vitamins/minerals supplements. 
3. Consume up to 3 oz high protein foods, 5 times a day, as follows:

FISH
CHICKEN
TURKEY
PORK (NOTE: HARD TO DIGEST)
BEEF
LOW-FAT CHEESE
YOGURT (PLAIN)
COTTAGE CHEESE
BEANS / LEGUMES
EGGS

You may also enjoy:
POPSICLES (SUGAR FREE)
JELLO (SUGAR FREE)
TEA OR COFFEE (DECAF)
CRYSTAL LIGHT DRINKS
SODA (SUGAR FREE, NON-CARBONATED)

4. If it's not on the list, avoid it for 10 days.
5. Exercise daily--Minimum 30 minutes.
6. Maintain a Food Journal.

 



3/21/07
    

   Tomorrow I have my appt. with Dr. Clark.  I will finally get a chance to see how much I have really lost.  I am just hoping it's a nice amount.  Last time the nurse pract. didn't tell me what to expect other than from 2-4lbs a week.      

  So if I am counting right, it should be 8lbs.  (She did say the men tend to lose the 4lbs.)  I will take the 2lbs just give it to me for every week

 3/22/07    

  It went down, Thank God!!!  Actually I'm down 39lbs.  
(start setting is off a point ? something)  I hope every thing will run steady now.  No stalls, plateaus, just slow but steady.  Give me my 2lbs a week.  I bought a whole set of different types of foods.             

  The Doc. said low fat, low carbs.  
    

Avoid:
  Starches - Breads, pasta, rice, potato.   
Crumbly Carbs - Chips, cookies, crackers, candy, cake, and cereal.
    
If you must get bread get whole wheat.

I found a low carb, and low fat whole wheat soft tacos from Wal-mart.  I have to have some type of bread for my deli meats.  Eating them plain is getting very boring.

 


4/3/07
   

 Well, I have had a time trying to keep losing.  I was going down, down, down then it went right back up.  I have found out that the carbs are very important.  I may have some but it does have to be low carb items (Read labels). 
  If it doesn't say low carb, then I have to limit the amount I eat to make it still be low carb.  Because of how much I am able to eat, if I limit myself it still works.      

  My Home scale is reading 256.  Doc's scale is about 7lbs more.  So that = 263.  Which would make me very happy.  That would be 42lbs lost.  
 I don't have to go back to the Doc's until May 15th.  I hope to lose at least 20lbs from the last appt.  If I do, that would be 59lbs lost = 246-247.(Doc's scale has a (.)point something.)  

!!!
 THAT WOULD BE AMAZING!!!

 


4/13/07
    

  I am 251lbs on my home scale.  I think thats 258lbs on the Doc's scale.  (I do hope that is right.)  I have slowed down on my exercising.  Actually I have stopped.  I really need to start again.  My whole routine has been changed because of the appts. that have been popping up.  I have to start some kind of routine again.  
         

  I have tried whole wheat bread.  I didn't toast it.  I had no problems.  I found one that has low carbs, only 7grams per slice. (Food Lion)  I have tried mac-n-cheese.  It went down fine.  That was wonderful.  I didn't eat a lot.  Just having some was great.

 


4/18/07
   

   I went to an appt. Monday.  Even though it wasn't my doctor, I asked if I could get on their scale.  I weighed 258.1lbs.  That would be about 47lbs lost so far.  3months post-op.    

Not Bad! 
   I am hoping for 10-12lbs more by 5/15.  We will see.

 


4/26/07
    

  Right now, I am 253 on home scale. And I am going back and forth, down 2-3lbs up 2-3lbs.  I think its all because of what I am eating.  I know I have time to lose more.  So I am not being so hard on myself for a couple of days.  But now I have to get back to business.  I have been eating a few things that just had more carbs than I need.  But I must say, it was fun while it lasted.  
       

   I am going to Richmond, VA because my boyfriend is having surgery on May 2.  I will be staying in their Hospital Hospitality House.  Which is like a hotel.  It's for guest of patience, who are in the hospital for a period of time and live more than 30 miles away.  You can stay there for a donation of $10 a night or what ever you can give.  It sounds like the McDonald house.  I have to figure out how I am going to eat while I am there.  You are unable to eat in your room. 

 

Anyway,  I guess it will also be a moment of peace for me.  Even though, I am there to support my boyfriend, I will be there by myself.  That will give me a break from the busy schedule I have.


 
5/9/07    

  Well, I finally came back from Richmond, VA.  One of the first things I did was to weigh myself.  (They didn't have a scale anywhere.)  I was shocked.  It read 241lbs.  Add 7lbs =248lbs.  Oh my God, I haven't seen 248 in a long time.  It feels good.  Now, I must shoot for at least 227lbs by 6 months.  I have 2mths to do it in.  Of course I am praying 248lbs is what it will read at the Doc's office.  
        

We Will See!!!  Crossing My Fingers!!!

 


 5/16/07    

   4 months out, 58.5lbs lost so far.  305.something - 247.5lbs.  Not bad, not bad at all.  That is exactly what I was shooting for. 
   Now I want to lose another 20lbs in two months if possible.  The Doc said it will probably slow down from this point to 6 months, and again to 9 months.    I would still be happy with 15lbs but not much lower. 

 Lets see if I can keep it going.

 






    6/19/07

   I am still here.  I have been so busy.  I've been out of town most of last month and this month.  I hope it has all settled down now.  5 trips total.  Two trips were planned.  The rest were not.  2 trips to Dover, Delaware for a weekend each.  2 trips to Richmond, VA for 7days and 9 days.  1 trip to Clarksville, TN for 5 days.  In between all of that, Doc appts. in Richmond, VA 1-2 times a week.  I am so tired of running.  

I am trying to start a business in real estate.  I just finished getting up the capital.  I am hoping it will go smoothly.         


As far as my weight loss is going.  I have only lost 5lbs last month.  A total count of 63lbs.  Not happy about that.  Mainly because its my own fault.  I found out that I am able to tolerate the sweets.  And I have gone totally crazy.  Now I have to use self control.  And I know, how well I do control.  Now, I have to go back to the beginning to get control.  Only meat, beans, and sugar free pops for 10 days.  

Oh yea, I will up the exercise program to get a kick start.     


I will get pass this.





   6/26/07


    Well, I was doing good.  I weighed myself at my mom's house yesterday.  239lbs.  Good I said, but today the scale says I gained two lbs.  I think it was the six cookies, I call myself letting slide.

   I will get it back by tomorrow.  I started to exercise but stopped once my activity started running crazy.  I will start again today.  I am moving to the advanced program.  Its not easy, but I will get it right because I need to up it to move this weight loss along.  







   7/11/07

    I just got back from DE.  I am about to be a free woman.  My boyfriend is moving back to his home in DE.  I am so greatful to him for that. I will be free and clear and not trying to get caught up in that type of relationship again.  What type, NO LIVING TOGETHER AT ANY POINT OF THE RELATIONSHIP.  NOT EVEN MARRIAGE.  

  As a matter of fact, no longer is marriage a plan in my life.  He has his and I will have mine for as long as we are together.  (I don't mean with my present boyfriend)  I expect that to end sometime after he moves.  


  Anyway,  The scale is reading 227.  If that is true I must add 7lbs because my scale is off from the Doc's by 7lbs.  =234lbs  I hope it continues because I was really trying to reach 227lbs (Doc's scale) by the 17th of this month.  That would be 20lbs total since last Doc appt.  I don't think I will make it, but 15lbs is still good.  I would take 232lbs.

We will see!  








    7/20/07


I seems to be coming down slow but I guess as long as it comes down it's a good thing.  73lbs lost is not bad.  Some people lost more in the same time period but I would have lost 0lbs if I was doing it on my own without surgery.  Blessed is the word.

Well my boyfriend is leaving for good on Sunday 7/22/07.  I will have to have some type of celebration.  I have been trying to get rid of him for years now.  Trying everything I could think of, except being really cruel.  Well it happened without me doing a thing.  God is good.  I stopped focusing on getting rid of him.  And started focusing on bettering myself.  God did the rest.  

I JUST HAVE TO TRUST HIM/HER!!   

 

     7/31/07

  I am starting a real estate business.  I have one employee. 

 


        8/4/07 

  Today I weigh 227lbs on my scale. I hope that is what the Doc's will say.  I don't go to see him until 8/30.  I hope to lose at least 5-10lbs more by then.   My kids  (3 boys 17, 20, 25) are now looking at me and getting worried.  They say I am looking good.  They worry about the men since I don't have one any more.  But I reassure them that Mom is no longer going to have that type of relationship any more.  No one lives here with us any more.   I  have a  4yr old daughter too. 


Anyway, thats 78lbs lost.  I just bought me some pants liners and a longline bra.  I need to keep everything from moving around.  It is a little to much jiggling going on.  I just might have to get the plastic surgery later if things don't start getting toned.  I am exercising 5 days a week.  Wed. - Sun. off Mon. and Tues.  So far I am holding it. 

  I want my muscle mass to be higher than it was the last time I was seen by the Doc.  It will be checked on the next appt. 

 

 

 

    8/11/07

  I have started talking to men again.  It feels really good, I mean really really goood.  I haven't felt this way in a while.  The best part is I am able to do something about it.  I now can have as many friends as I want.  I am like a kid in a candy shop.  I can talk to whom ever I please.  I am free. 

I was a flirt a long time ago, and now it is all coming back to me.  I had stopped.  One, because I had someone.  But the main reason was because of my weight.  Well, now I don't have anyone, and weight is not really an issue any more.  Only I know what they can't see.  And later I will fix that. 

  I feel good, real good.  I am finding myself.  This is who I use to be.  Before the man, before the weight.  I will make sure I never ever lose this part of me again. 

                   The only thing I will lose is WEIGHT!!!


 

 

 

 

                         

     9/11/07

  It has been a month since my last entry.  That is kind of sad but not really.  I have met someone.  He is an old boyfriend.  One, who has loved me for all these years. 
It has been at least 20yrs ago.  This is a complete surprise.  Never in a million years would I have imagined being with him again.  I mean NEVER!!!  But it is wonderful. 

  He is completely behind my weight loss.  He is satisfied where I am and also where I am going.  He understands the protein because he lifts weights.  The best thing about him is he sees what I see, understands what I understand, feels what I feel, and we are at peace together.

Oh!  I forgot to mention, HE IS BEAUTIFUL!!!!

  Annnyway, I weigh 220.9.  I believe thats 85lbs lost.  I still have a stomach for the most part.  Years ago at the same size, my mid-section was smaller.  I don't really know why it isn't now.  But I guess I will just have to work on that section harder.  I do have a work out DVD focused on the mid-section.  I just haven't started it yet.  Now is as good a time as any.

 



       10/5/07

    I have been so busy.  I am unable to find time to myself.  I need time to myself to reflect on things that are going on.  To understand what is going on and to know what to do next.  A man keeps you focused on him a lot.  Kids take a lot of attention from me.  And then, I have to fit me in there somewhere.  Well, I have not fit myself in yet.  Which is not good.  I have to give me, me time or I will not be able to give anyone anything.  I will just crash. 

   Crashing is not good.  Nothing will get done and no one will be getting anything.   I am not focusing  on the weight loss process as much as I was before.  I have to get back on track.  Stop pussy footing around and get back on track. 

I have a goal and I will reach that goal.  No One will stop me!!!!

I was shooting for 200lbs.  But since I am so close to that now and still have time to lose more, I will. I am going to get to 175lbs.  I am guessing I will gain 10lbs.  So that will leave me at 185lbs.  Which is exactly where I want to be.  (But really anywhere under 200 is good for me!)

I can do this!  I will do this!

Just Watch and See!!!!!


    10/25/07
  
  I am stuck.  I can't seem to get to 200lbs.  I go back and forth 215-217lbs.  I just can't seem to get to 100lbs lost.  I am running to much and I think my choices are not helping.  I feel the call for the carbs.  I am going to have to do the plateau buster again.  It will be hard because of the call for the carbs.  (esp. crackers and oatmeal) I am not getting all of my protein in everyday.  I also need to exercise again.  I don't have to lose a lot now.  But I did want to lose just a little more to be sure if I gain some back it will still be a good weight.  

  We will see!!!!







       12/07/07

   It's slow but still moving.  That's all good.  Only 2lbs to go to 100lbs lost.  That is great.  Only 7lbs to my goal.  If I lose anything after that it's all extra.  

  I had a job working at home.  Mainly because I was to embarrassed to be seen at the size I was - 305lbs.  But now since I am so much smaller I have decided to take a job outside the home.  My third step to a new life.  First, getting the WLS.  Second, getting a new man.  Third, re-entering the world. 

  I must say I am ready.  I will of course have to buy a few new items that fit well.  Have to dress good and proper at the job.  The job starts on Jan.  4th.
 
  Oh Yea, I haven't changed my goal of having a successful Real Estate Investor business.  But I need to do it on the side right now, in order to make my option easier in my business.  Harder to make money when you don't have it yourself or have access to it.

  Time to go kick but. 



                             


   12/18/07

   Well, I went to the interview.  I think it went well.  They called me back to ask a few more questions.  I think that was a good sign.  I feel good about it.  I now should buy smaller clothes.  I will be ordering  most of them online.  So I think now is the time, so they will be delivered before then.  I must measure again.  I don't really have a clue what size I am.

   The really nice thing about it is,  I was wearing  a 1x/20 the last time I bought something.  Now its getting big.  The favorite pair of jeans my man loved because they fit tight.  Now its big too.  It's hard to realize I will have to go to a L/18.  It just blows my mind. 

   I wear pants slimmers and long line bras to hold in the extra skin.  There are some outfits where I don't have to do that.  It feels really good to see me, without help, looking damn good in an outfit!! 

I know I will be getting plastic surgery in the future.  The plan is job, business, then plastic surgery.  But for now, I am very pleased.      


     1/16/08
     
       I have my last appt. with Dr. Clark tomorrow.  I am hopping to be at least 200lbs  - 105lbs lost.   If I am smaller than that it would be a plus.  It's at 3:00pm, I wish it was earlier.  So it will be closer to my morning weigh in.  I really don't know what I weigh.  On my regular doc's scale it says 203lbs.  On my mom's scale  it says one minute 203lbs, the next 207lbs.  My scale says 185lbs add 7lbs = 192lbs.  192lbs would be sweet.  I still expect to loose a little more, what ever the doc's scale says. 

       I now wear a 16W.  I started at 26W-28W.  Not bad at all but if I could get to a 14W by say June 1, 08.  That would bypass my wildest dreams.  My boyfriend is really happy with my success at this.  Although, he is getting a little nervous with the attention I am getting.  I am only getting what he gets all the time.  To tell the truth, I am loving every minute of it.  To see people, who haven't seen me in a while,
shocked yet very pleased(men) feels very, very, very, good. 

      I will make sure I never gain this weight back.  Ever, ever, ever!!!  I am really enjoying myself.  I just bought new clothes from the web.  I pulled them out of the bag and was shocked at the size.  I immediately thought, I can't wear these.  They are to small.  But by my surprise, every last pair of pants fit.  Actually, some were stretch jeans which made them to big.  I might have to send them back.

       Tomorrow will tell it all. 
         



     1/18/08

     Well it is official 207.4lbs.  I now know my scale is now 10lbs off.  I also know that it was 3:00 in the afternoon.  I just wish it was in the morning. That way I know it would be closer to the correct weight.  Now I'm wondering did anything add to the scale. 

Anyway, I will continue on the same path.  I will be trying to get to 110lbs lost by my  18th month check-up.  I also have to start working out.  I can do this.  I did get a lot of complements from the young lady that took my pic.  They are suppose to send me the before and after pics.  I will put them on my page. 

    I am still happy about my appearance.  The  scale just tells half the story, appearance is the other half.  I look good, even if I say so myself.  I feel good.  I am proud of myself along with others.  But all by myself, I am happy with myself.  So if I never loose another pound I would be satisfied. 

    Me having a goal, is just that.  Its a goal, something to achieve, something to reach for, something to focus on.  My body will tell me what is a good size for me.  So if I don't lose but 5-10lbs in 6 months, then I guess my body had the last say.  And I am at the point in my life, where I am listening to my body, mind, and spirit.



   4/13/08

 

      I am very, very busy.  My boyfriend's son is now living with us.  It turns out he has a lot of problems that we have to remove and reteach.  He also has ADHD and may have a few other mental issues one being special ed.  He will be fine in the long run but he is a job in itself.  My boyfriend is talking about marriage.  I am all for it.  I am waiting for the formal question to be asked.  (Not just a question while lying in the bed) 
      
       I haven't lost a lb.  I really haven't been trying.  I am kind of ok with the weight that I am, right now.  I am not satisfied with the pouch I have, as my lower abs.  I will work my abs with this workout CD.  I will have to start Tues. when the kids go back to school.   I have 2 months left to lose anything.  We will see.
 


      5/2/08

   Well, I have realized having my boyfriend and his son can be stressful.  I believe his son is mildly mentally retarded.  So I have taken on to much.  I am tired.  I have a 26, 22, and a 18yr old.  They are boys.  I also have a 5yr old daughter.  All of my boys had some form of help in school. (special ed) My oldest is mildly mentally retarded.  And my 3rd son has ADHD and is about to graduate in June.  My daughter has no problems what so ever.  So I thought I was free for a while. 

   But I am stressed out.  I have been eating like a fool.  So needless to say, I have not lost a pound.  I have been stress eating.  Now I need to stop, and pass the baton to my boyfriend.  He is the one who prayed for his son.  He got his prayer.  I will give him advise and assist in anyway I can.  But this job, I will not take on. 

  I love my boyfriend and his/our son.

       BUT I JUST HAVE TO FOCUS BACK ON ME






     11/11/08

   
I took this picture hoping it shows the weight I lost.  I am not sure if you can tell.  I did gain 7lbs.  I am a 16w.  I do wear a 16 misses but it depends on the maker.   My  regular Doc still wants me to lose 20-25lbs because of my diabetes tests.  I don't have it any more and she wants to keep it that way.  She wants to get the numbers as low as possible. 
  
    Well, I am doing what I said. I am focusing on what I need to do.  I am now a member of The Residential Council Board for my neighborhood, Hampton Redevelopment and Housing Authority (HUD) Advisory board, and I am taking Leadership classes.  It is a 3yr college course made a little easier thourgh my church.  I am also attending several conferences to grow spiritually to enhance my gifts.

   Please don't get me wrong.  You still do the work but not all the required reading and it is still a 3yr course. 
On 11/13/08 I have to give a 8-10min. speach. I am practicing now. I am also trying to get back into my writing.  I would like to get them published one day.  One day I pray.  That would be really really nice. 

            CROSSING FINGERS, CROSSING FINGERS!

  



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