My Last Appointment Before Surgery

Dec 15, 2010

Today I went to my last appointment and seen my surgeon and my anastesiologist. I signed off on my consent form for surgery and also for the anastesia itself. I left there knowing that there is no turning back. I know on Jan 3rd I will go in and get my surgery done and start my journey uphill to healthy. I am happy it finally here. I have been trying for two years to get this far and now IM there. FINALLY! I thank my family for all their support and help through all this. I know I would have never done it without them. They believe in me. I believe in me. I have done everything step by step. I also thank God for everything. He is also by my side. He will not let me get hurt. And If I do happen to die when they put me under.,..its because he wants me to come home. Its his will. If it isnt...then it wont happen. I am wiped out today. I am emotionally drained. Good night.
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Last Session at Hershey weight loss center.

Dec 09, 2010

I went yesterday to my last session at my weight loss center where I had to weigh in at for the last 6 months. I have lost a total of 73 lbs. Im proud of myself. My dietician said I did very well on their program and should do wonderfully after surgery. She showed me what type of vitamins I would need. And went through every last minute thing she could think of. When I left she said...Well...your done with us. It was almost emotional. For me anyway. I have constant contact with these people for the last six months. I guess Im just sensitive.
I was afraid that I had gained weight this time cause I Have been sick and wasnt able to exercise like normal but when I got on the scale I had managed to lose 8 more lbs. That made me happy. I was shocked though. Now all I have to do is wait on the 15th to get here. I see my surgeon again and see the anast. dude. After that....all there is to do is finish getting some last minute stuff and wait on Jan 3rd to get here. Im getting more excited. I know its a little while off yet but its coming just the same. Im thinking about it all the time. I am having dreams about it. I just wanted to write about this. Another thing I have completed successfully. Im proud of myself

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Surprised!

Nov 28, 2010

Hello all! I have been sitting here all day looking over all the groceries Ill have to buy for after surgery and wow....Im surprised at how much money Ill be saving. I cant believe Ill be eating so little food but I will. It will be a change. I know Ill have to change my whole life. I am very, very  excited but scared at the same time. I know I will get through this. I know I will conquer this as well as all my other fears in my life. I will succeed. Its not only important to me for health reasons but its also important to my kids. They need me around. They need me able to do things. Im ready. I wish surgery was tomorrow. I want to get it over with. The anticipation is killing me.
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IM getting so anxious

Nov 24, 2010

Hello all. Its the day before Thanksgiving and Im sitting here thinking ....this is my last Holiday meal that I will be able to eat whatever I want. Although since Ive been in this Program at Hershey, Ive learned to choose healthier foods. I will eat more turkey. Ill have a baked potatoe instead of mashed. Brocolli instead of starchy corn. I just dont want to do that to my body anymore. I will enjoy my new life. I know it will be alittle different to sit there with my family and watch them eat their supper and love every minute of it. I will love they way I feel afterwards when they are miserably full!lol. I know they will support all they can. They have so far.

My excited grows about my upcoming surgery. Jan 3 is not coming anytime soon. I cant wait. I want to start my new life. I want to thank everyone for your support on here. Its nice to talk to people who have had it and is able to give me some insight about what im in for. Thank you so much.

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5 am and I cant sleep

Nov 18, 2010

Its after 5 in the morning and I cant sleep. All I keep thinking about is my upcoming surgery. I find myself scared of the complications that could happen and yet Im more scared of what could happen if I dont have this surgery and stay as big as I am. I have been looking at before and after pics all morning and wondering what I will look like after surgery. Although I really sometimes think....who cares! As long as Im healthy. Its been a long time since Ive even been able to put on a pair of jeans. Im always in sweat pants and a tshirt. Im looking forward to the shopping Ill be doing afterwards. Im excited about being able to do the simple things again. Hiking...bicycling with my kids....walking for a long distance.....all of that. I cannot wait. Most of all....I cant wait to feel better! My knees wont hurt as bad, my legs wont hurt as bad....Ill be ready to go.

I am so proud of you all that has gone through this. You guys look great. Im so happy to read all the success stories. It eases my mind alittle more about things. I have been trying for this surgery for going on 2 yrs now and my time is finally here. I too plan on making this my new beginning and getting my life back.

I hope to find you all in the chat room and get to know each of you and hear your stories and hear about your success.
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My New Life!

Nov 18, 2010

Hello my name is Brenda and I am about to embark on my new life. About six months ago I was the biggest I have ever been weighing in at 453lbs. I could barely stand...doing the normal household chores was a struggle. I would sit most of the time. I would even be limited on going out to eat with my boys. I couldnt go if the restaraunt had booths. We would have to ask for a table. I wouldnt even go in cause I knew someone would be pointing and laughing. I knew that that would embarrass my family. There were very few places I would go. I couldnt play ball with my boys, I would be out of breathe completely or my knees wouldnt allow me to move around to catch it. When my youngest step son suddenly didnt want me taking him to the bus stop I started to wonder why. I decided to ask him one day. And bless his heart....he was so honest. What he said...I will never forget. He told me he was kinda embarrassed for me to stand up there with him cause I was so big. That was my turning point.

I had a friend of mine who mentioned that Hershey Medical Center had a weight loss program and that I should check it out. I was on the phone the same day making myself an appt to attend the informational seminar they were having. That was when my journey began and I knew I had a long way to go. My first step was to see if my insurance even covered it. They did. I thought...ok, good. I go to my first session with the dietician and she told me that the insurance company required that I lose 15lbs before surgery. Well...thats when It began. From that point on...I would eat the most healthiest of all the food in my house. I started watching my portions so even I did have to eat the bad stuff sometimes....It was ok...I just didnt eat so much. I started to walk. As much as it hurt my knees...I would do it anyway. Even if it was alittle bit at a time.  By the time I went to my next session I had lost a surprising 21 lbs. I was so excited. My dietician about went into shock. I showed her then how determined I am. I wanted this

It wasnt long that I would go back and little by little, the weight was coming off. I was so happy. Im up to having lost 65lbs before surgery. They were so happy with my progress that they pushed me through. I just rescently had my appointment with my surgeon and he set my date for Jan 3, 2011. I am so excited. I am so excited for my new life. I am excited to be able to do things with my step children and just enjoy my life. Im excited to be off my diabetes pills along with my blood pressure meds. I have started buying everything they said I would need and stocking up so I can do this right. I have ordered all my suppliments and ready to take this on.  I just wish I had more friends that had the same experience that  they could give me their feedback on. I will write more later when I know more.
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