5 am and I cant sleep

Nov 18, 2010

Its after 5 in the morning and I cant sleep. All I keep thinking about is my upcoming surgery. I find myself scared of the complications that could happen and yet Im more scared of what could happen if I dont have this surgery and stay as big as I am. I have been looking at before and after pics all morning and wondering what I will look like after surgery. Although I really sometimes think....who cares! As long as Im healthy. Its been a long time since Ive even been able to put on a pair of jeans. Im always in sweat pants and a tshirt. Im looking forward to the shopping Ill be doing afterwards. Im excited about being able to do the simple things again. Hiking...bicycling with my kids....walking for a long distance.....all of that. I cannot wait. Most of all....I cant wait to feel better! My knees wont hurt as bad, my legs wont hurt as bad....Ill be ready to go.

I am so proud of you all that has gone through this. You guys look great. Im so happy to read all the success stories. It eases my mind alittle more about things. I have been trying for this surgery for going on 2 yrs now and my time is finally here. I too plan on making this my new beginning and getting my life back.

I hope to find you all in the chat room and get to know each of you and hear your stories and hear about your success.

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