Lisa M.

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Well, so far my attempts to regain control of my eating has worked;   since Saturday I am down a full 8 pounds.  That's pretty good for being 8 years post-op.  Initially I was concerned that you know maybe I had pushed the limits, maybe, the pouch was not going to work.  Whether it did or did not, sticking to the plan has.  PROTEIN FIRST! WATER!  That has been my rules since Saturday.  So I feel pretty decent about myself right now.  I know that it will slow down and become difficult again as I plateau, however, I needed this quick loss to boost my confidence.

Lisa

Wow, I woke up this morning and took a good look at me and was not at all happy with the body I saw.  Why....?  40 pound weight gain!  Yep, 40!  I knew I had picked up 10, then 20, then 30, then 35, and I kept saying I'll start again, I'll take it off, I can do this.  WHEN???????  Today....starting today...I am going to stay on track.  I'm not going to beat myself up and say negative discouraging words like I would have 9 years ago.  I am going to encourage myself and say well done when I make a good decision.  I'm motivated to go purchase the proper foods and keep them around so that I will make the right decisions.  I am going to come to this site and lift and encourage and ask for it in return.  Today I am making the decision to return to a healthier, leaner, happier me.  Yes, believe it or not my size makes me happier.   It's okay to want to be thinner, it's okay to say I'll be healthier because I'll be happier and let's face it.  Who really wants to go out in public at 200 or more pounds and have to hear snickers and snide remarks.  Not me.  I lived that life far too long.  So here I go....

I'm GOING PLACES!


Lisa

So, I was about to work with a few photos and I wanted to put them on a disk so I picked up an old disk and there they were.  The photo's pre-op.  You won't find many of me before surgery because I would avoid the camera.  I look at myself then and see a fake smile.  I wasn't happy, I felt ashamed and ridiculed and worthless.  People who didn't know me would make remarks as I walked down the aisle of a store, and they felt entitled.  I never allowed myself that entitlement, the right to say..."YOUR RUDE!"  I always wanted everyone to LOVE me.  I have always tried to do things to make people love me.  I have never felt worthy;  just because I'm here.

Shouldn't we be able to receive love because we are.......  Not because we are perfect, skinny, pretty, talented.  Everyone needs REAL LOVE.

Yes, I HAVE GAINED!  Why?  Carelessness!  I simply quit being diligent with the rules for the tool! 

There is no great secret to weight loss!  The truth is you need to burn more calories than you consume.  I have not done this in the last three years and guess what?  I gained weight! 

NO I AM NOT SORRY I HAD THIS SURGERY!  I am sorry that I have allowed myself to get lazy and careless with the control that the surgery provided.  I am determined to back track and take control and DO THIS THING!  Hold me accountable!  I am holding myself accountable!

Lisa

This week I challenged my brothers and sisters on the Bama Board to update their profiles.  Why?  Well;    when I began this journey in 2003 (blessedandhighlyfavored) I would pour over the before and afters.  I would read through each success story and dream that someday I would be where they were.  I made it.  Did I reach 130...nope.  But, I am still very happy with MY SUCCESS!

I started on Dec 17, 2003 @ 280 pounds....it was mid June before I went under the 200 mark and a full year longer before I hit 142!  I loved it.  For the very first time in my life I FELT NORMAL!  I wasn't THE FAT GIRL in every crowd.  I was no longer the fattest of the family.  I was energetic and could easily walk from the farthest reaches of the parking lot without breaking a sweat.  I WAS NORMAL!  A size I never in my wildest dreams could have imagined being!  I was in a 10!

PHENOMENAL!!

Over the last two years I have put on about 20 pounds....why?  Because I became slack.  I put things in my mouth that were completely not supposed to be there.  I made excuses to not exercise and every reason in the world for not drinking my water.  However, if you will come with me.....we can do this together.  I have already reached my dream once....I can and WILL do it again!  Maybe, I'll even reach for 130!