TWO AND A HALF YEARS OUT
Sep 05, 2009
Well here I am again. I thought I would update my blog and let you all know what has happened to me in the last year. After getting through the knee replacement, and two rotator cuff surgeries, I once again visited the hospital. This time is was a major surgery. I had problems with my back for years, but for some reason, this past 6 months it got really bad. When they finally got xrays and another MRI, I had a disc that was moved out of place, and 4 discs were touching. I spent 2 months sitting on a chair waiting for surgery. On Aug 6th, I had my first back surgery. While in the hospital, I developed a severe headache, and I mean severe....and I began to run a fever. The doc went back in 5 days after the first surgery and cleaned between two layers of fat in my back and stitched up somewhere back there that was leaking spinal fluid, hence the headache. It's been a month since surgery now, and today I went out somewhere besides the doctors office. I walk with a walker, my legs and feet are very much asleep and I struggle to walk. I have to concentrate on walking, telling my brain to tell my legs what to do. I remind myself of a 1 yr old, if you let go, I will fall on my ass. There is improvement, but I really wanted to be 100%. I am not, and where I end up I don't know, but I am very happy still. I have not lost an ounce more of weight. I am just waiting till I can exercise and I am willing to bet that the weight comes right off. I have noticed that within the year I have certainly learned how to eat correctly, more healthier. I have also found out I can eat what I want, but I don't. I never ever want to be the fat girl I once was. I want to be a sexy old lady. I am now 60 and proud of it. I don't think I look like what a 60 yr old looks like. I am healthy, my problems are with my bones and joints. Everything else is great.
I have met some of the most wonderful people on here, and they will be life long friends. I am blessed. Truly blessed, and truly very happy with my life and myself. Thanks for taking time to read this, and if I can ever be of help to anyone who is thinking about surgery, has questions about it, please send me email, I am glad to help one and all.
Two years ago yesterday
Dec 12, 2008
I cannot believe that it has been 2 years already. All the memories of that day are so vivid in my mind. The first year the weight fell off me, now this past year it has slowed down alot. I am about 50 lbs from what I want to be, not what the doctor wants me to be. I think the worst thing that has happened is that I can't exercise and that is one of the reasons my weight loss has slowed alot. I have had a knee replacement last Feb, and two rotator cuff surgeries from July 29th to Oct 15th. Take alot of meds just to get through the days sometimes. Other thing that has happened, is I now have a severe case of osteoporious, (yes I can't spell it but I got it). Why do you ask, first I am predosped of it. second, I decided I was smarter than doctors and didn't take any vitamins. I felt really good, so what was the big deal, until I had my second rotator cuff surgery 10 weeks after the first. What did they find? Severe bone loss in less than 3 months. So I am now on Boniva, and lost of my vitamins that I should have been taken all along. I am feeling good these days. Just work myself to death keeping the house clean and taking care of every little thing to run a household. It's tiring. Rather be working, and who knows maybe in my 60th year of life I will get another job.
Do I regret having this surgery even with all the problems I have endured? NOPE! I have no diabetes, no high blood pressure, just aches and pains, the brain is good, the body is crap, but I can improve the bodyMy goal for this year. Get my sorry ass back to feeling better, even if it means surgery and to get stronger, so I can live happily another 40 or so years.
So today these are my thoughts. I never have a problem expressing myself, no matter what happens, but I regret sometimes the way I act. I have met some wonderful friends on this site. You special ones know who you are, I never fail to tell you.
I look forward to another year and more weightloss no matter how slow, and maybe, just maybe I will fall into about $35,000 so I can have all this skin gone!
I am happy, for once in my life, my depression no longer gets the best of me, because if I am depressed I go to the store, and someone will smile at me, no longer looking at me, like I am a weird fat person. I am just a person now, like everyone else. Their smile goes a long way!
Happy Valentines Day
Feb 14, 2008
Seems to me that I am a little overdue to post. Not really much to report on me. I am down over 10 pant sizes, I vary from an XL to an 2XL on alot of shirts. That is down from a 6XL. Dang I WAS big. I will be so very happy when I get these last 60 lbs off and then be finished with losing. At my ripe old age of 59 I am tired of being over weight. I want to get this over with once and for all, and get some plastics done. I am approaching my second knee replacement. It's going to happen this coming Tues, the 19th and I am so glad to be getting this over. As this is one of the most painful surgeries around, next to a shoulder surgery. It beats the heck out of labor and delivery for all of you that have gone through that. SO with that said, I am looking forward to some quality time in my room, relaxing watching TV and catching up on some reading. I am hoping to go and visit my sister in law and brother in law if Doug can get some time off and run up to Modesto to see them. She is my favorite out of the 4 sisters Dougie has. OK, back to my weight loss. I have been stalled for months, but everyone keeps on telling me how good I look. Guess the inches are still creeping off so I am not going degrade myself and think bad thoughts like I have failed. I am a WINNER at this game of WLS. If I never lose another pound I have accomplished something amazing. I never thought I would be that person that others would envy. That others would want to be like. I was always the person doing the envying. Saying "maybe someday I will lose weight, maybe. " So hard to get it through this tough head of mine when I look in the mirror I am that person now.
To all of those that are thinking about having surgery. Once again I say this. If I can go through this, so can you. It's something that you have to commit to for the rest of your life though. It's not a quick fix. I have seen far too many friends fat again after going through this surgery because they thought they could still eat the way that got them to fat in the first place. It's only a temporary fix if you think you can do that. You WILL put on the weight again. Life is much happier and alot more fun, with learning how to eat the correct foods and quite a challenge to keep the weight off. If you are on the fence about having it done, I say go for it. It is quite a wild ride. I really didn't know what people meant on here when they said it, but holy cow, it is a wild ride. Your emotions are out of control, you crave foods, you don't crave foods, and it's quite a head game. For me. I wish I had done it so many years ago. I know tho that when I reach my 60's next year, it's going to be one heck of a year for me. I will be where I should have been years ago. HEALTHIER. No more diabetes, no more high blood pressure, just one great lifewith one of the most charming, loving, sweetest man on this earth. My husband of 35 years. I love him so much still, life is great. Your life can be what you want. I never allowed myself to be a fat person. I was always active, and even more so now. But life is very different, and I am so happy.
I wish all of you that go through this or going to go through this to be as great as an experience for you as it has been for me.