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Okay I am almost at 6 months since surgery.  I am down 144 lbs.  but I am disappointed that it has slow down to 1 lb a week.  I am trying to exercise more but am finding myself depressed everyday and no energy to make myself go to the gym more than once a week.  I need and want to go to the gym.

At almost 4 months I am down 122 lbs. since starting this process.  I can see the scale moving slowly down and now I am more concentrating on pounds left to lose 138 lbs till surgeons's goal but my goal is 150 lbs.  Why can I see it could happen but feel so much fear that it won't happen.  I am starting to see little changes in my face and body but nothing real dramatic. I feel so much more energetic.

Well saw my regular doctor and stepped on scale and it said 375 and I did a quick calculation and I was 100 lbs down and 63 lbs since surgery.  I keep thinking when will that magic time happen when I put on my pants and they fall to the floor?  Was I wearing my clothes so tight before or is there something wrong with my body that I am only losing weight where it is not around my middle?  I wish I could look at my body and see it. Don't get me wrong I am grateful for what I see on the scale just frustrated looking at myself and not seeing it. 

I am five days away from it being 2 months since surgery. I am down 54 lbs since surgery and 91 lbs down since started process.  I am feeling better and can breathe better but easily tire out.  I have fallen after trying to do too much and scare myself about continuing to do so.  I am hurting and feel a little discouraged about the timing of the process.  I guess I am inpatient with my body being so out of shape. I know I got my body to this state with my behavior and eating habits. I am changing and just wish my body would show more of the good things I am doing and eating.

I a on day four after my surgery and feeling the complaints of my stomach.  I have heard more from my stomach in the last four days than I thought possible.  An the surgery has made me in to burp factory.  All I can think is when will this stop when will I feel no pain. 

Well I think I have solved my food scheduling problem by setting a alarm on my cell phone to go off when I need to eat.  I have been surprisingly full and kind of having food even when I am not that hungry if hungry at all. A part of me thinks should I eat something if I feel full??? A little confused about that I probable should call  nutritionist.  I have had no problem with what I can eat.  As weird as it seems to me at least I am enjoying the food.  Of coarse after reading several post I am hoping it will be a long time until I get to the sick and tired of the food plan.  I have always thought this will be so tuff but it has been easy so far (crossing fingers and toes) and I hope it continues being that way. I think the true test will be when I am out for the day with friends and they are all eating regular food and I am not.

Well I made it through day one and realized how more conscious I need to be on eating plan. I saw my surgeon and found out my surgery will be at 1 pm on December 18TH.  I am starting to get excited and hopeful which scares me at the same time. I find I like the mocha flavored shakes with the ice crushed in it.