Doing better

Oct 01, 2009

The kids and I are doing better. Im beginning to fee hope for life again. We are going on a plane for the first time. We are going to a Millitary suvivors of suicide seminar in Sandiego Ca. I am scared and excited at the same time. I still miss him so bad but I know I have to go on.
    I have been eating terrible, carbs ! carbs! carbs!. But now its time to pick up the pieces. I gotta get my protein, and water in I have been taking my vitamins. I want to go to the seminar in Atlanta next month. Well thats all for now. God Bless you my OH friends
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How am I doing

Sep 10, 2009

Hi we are doing ok life is tough without David but I know I will see him in time and I really hold on to that. Well gotta go. I love my OH family.
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My Hubby went to heaven

Aug 11, 2009

I have not been on here in a while because. My Husband ( You can see pics of him on my profile page) His bipolar finally took him away from us. He is with my dear Jesus. I never thought I could hurt so deep. I loved my buddy with my whole heart. He loved me at 270 as much as he loved before he died.  They are giving him a full military honors funeral on Saturday. Any widows out there, I would love to know how you go on. 
         He adored me! Why I don't quite know. But now I feel kind of hopeless. I know this is a temporary feeling. But boy it is a rotten way to feel! I am 199.5 now. But I'm not so excited now. All I can say is why! I do know that God is good all the time. Even when things don't make sense. I have to trust. My question to you christian friends is I want to make sure that he sees all the honers done for him is there any thing in scripture that says that they can see from above! Because in this life toward the end he thought he was a nothing! Even though we tried to tell him he as great. The depression spoke louder! My kids and I want to talk to him is it real that he can hear us. I love you wonderful compassionate people and thank you I couldn't have done this surgery of make the life style changes with out you. But with out David around its not so exciting any more. As a memorial to my hubby please read my profile and look at my family pics and make comments so I  can read them to him. He loved you guys too.
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Something I wrote to a fresh post op that might help someone

Jul 10, 2009

You are grieving food. It does get better. I'm just starting to really enjoy other things now that everything is not overshadowed by food. Things I have not enjoyed in a long time I'm starting to really enjoy now. You just lost your best friend. I thought the saying," thin feels better than food taste" was crazy. But now I really am starting to agree. You will to. This too will pass.The sun will come out tomorrow and it will shine brighter on things you never notice in the shadow of food. 
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more things that wont be missed by fellow OH members

Jul 09, 2009

this list is by sWhat I Won't Miss …

1. Feeling like I've failed yet once again at losing weight
2. Having bras cut into the fat rolls on my sides
3. My feet and ankles hurting when I stand up first thing in the morning
4. Feeling like my shoulder joint is being crushed when I lie on my side
5. Knees that hurt when I walk or try to climb stairs
6. Getting out of breath doing little or nothing
7. Looking old and frumpy
8. Back pain
9. Feeling sleepy all the time
10. Having no energy
11. Buying clothes just because they're big enough
12. Worrying if the clothes I just bought a couple of months ago still fit
13. Having multiple sizes of clothes in my closet – and most don’t fit
14. Getting evil looks from the person next to me on the plane
15. Squeezing into restaurant booths or amusement park rides
16. Wondering if a seat is strong enough to hold me
17. Feeling self conscious about how I look
18. Missing out on opportunities to advance in my career
19. Not being able to cross my legs
20. Pantyhose with a hole in the inner thigh – nuff said
21. Having to spend more money than thinner people on my clothes
22. Not having enough room in my suitcase when I travel
23. Few opportunities to date
24. Not being small enough to wear my date's jacket
25. Not being able to give myself a pedicure comfortably
26. Other hygiene issues – chafing, sweating, skin breakdown, etc.
27. My shoes being too tight on my feet
28. Having to wear loafers instead of pumps with business suits
29. Getting frequent bruises from bumping into stuff
30. Feeling like I need a fork lift to get out of the bathtub or climb into an SUV
31. Having people watch to see what I'll eat

so blessed
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All the things that made me uncomfortable before weight loss

Jul 09, 2009

I am making a list of everything that made uncomfortable before WLS to remind of where I do not want to go again!
bending over to tie my shoes
holding my little girl on my lap
carnival rides
restaurant booths
sitting on my husbands lap
wearing jeans
walking around for long periods of time
walking up a long set of stairs
being this way in front of my father
with my clothes, I kept tugging at them
trying on new clothes
feeling inferior
feeling lazy from lack of energy
head ach from high blood pressure
knees ach
knowing that every time my blood sugar was high my tissue was waisting away
knowing my health would get worse in the future
telling my daughter I was going to lose weight and accomplishing what I said out to do 
feeling out of control
feeling hungry all the time
feeling numb emotionally
having numb, painful, feet
lack of sex drive
 

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Labs back

Jul 03, 2009

Well my iron is low. So now I'm taking that. But here is the vits that I take if you don't have a lot of money. My labs prove that you can get good vits and protein with out spending a fortune. I take: citracal, centrum chew-ables, B12 dots, all at wally world! I get there advanced protein too. It is really is doable. Hope this helps some one along the way! 
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Had my surgery!

May 05, 2009

I did well. I dont have the net right. If any was wondering where I've been. Miss my web buddies especially now.
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I am working on my pre test for surgery

Jan 10, 2009

I have my cardiac test on monday, then labs and upper GI then second half of my nutrition class then I guess it is to the surgion!
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About Me
Swansea, SC
Location
26.6
BMI
RNY
Surgery
04/27/2009
Surgery Date
Nov 30, 2008
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