Ugh, back and forth, back and forth

Mar 11, 2009

So the .5cc unfill was too much.  I can now eat almost like I could pre-fill and I am hungry more often.  And damn me and my lack of self control, I went for 8 weeks without being able to eat anything really so I've been really bad for the past week and a half.  I think I've eaten out more this week than I have in 6 months time - like 4 times I think.

I have plans to have lunch with my boss next week and after that I'm not eating out again for 2 months.  I have a bet going with my roommate that if we both go 2 months without eating out then we'll go to the Japanese Steakhouse once.  If either person messes up, then we both start over.

I think I just need anoher .25cc because obviously this fill level is not enough.  Its insane to me that .25cc can make such a big difference!  I'm just hoping that when I go back in another 8 weeks that my Dr. will listen to me and give me .25cc if I ask for it.  And I need to get myself under control and stop eating crap.  If I plan my meals out day by day each week I do perfectly fine.  Its when I don't plan that I have a problem and its when my roommate says, "Hey Damara, want to get cheesecake for snack tonight??"  NO!  Cheesecake is EVIL....just say no.  I need to get some alternatives that will satisfy my sweet tooth but won't cost me hundreds of calories.

AND I'm getting sooooooo antsy for spring time.  I want to get my bike out so bad and go riding in the evenings after work.  We had a teaser here for a few days it was getting increasingly warmer....and last night it snowed.   Bah...I NEED spring to be here!

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