Breathin4him
Before and After and then Now
Oct 24, 2008
Just sitting here reliving some issues from the past. Just a few moments ago, I enjoyed the fact that I could curl my legs up into the recliner. Isn't it wonderful to be able to cross your legs, scratch your back, sit in a movie theater in (one) seat, walk with out a fear of someone staring at you and snickering?
I never really acknowledged how much those things bothered me before I had lost the weight. I was happy and content with who I was and what I looked like at 250 lbs as well. I had learned to love me no matter what. It never was about my appearance.
Matter of fact, I think I'm more concerned with my appearance now than I was 9 months ago.
But the one thing I am enjoying is that when I get a pain in my chest, I don't automatically fear the onset of a heartattack. I no longer have to live in fear of that nightly insulin shot in my stomach. I no longer have to fear the scales. I no longer have to wear a size 24 pants and triple X shirts. I no longer have to wear the Mammoth size bras. I can wear frills and lace if I desire.
I can look hot if I want too or I can look just as good as a bum in sweat pants and an old baggy t-shirt.
I am really liking ME! And that is so neat.
Depressed!
Aug 08, 2008