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OMG what the frell???
I just want to weep for all the lonely ex fat people who have been jipped out of having skinny fun.  It iust so not fair to know there has been a sinny girl screaming to be noticed instead of a fat girl on the dance floor to be laughed at.
Listen folks be real, take a good look at yourself and be yourself, but above all be nice to yourself and be real.
Just venting after reading a few post on the boards and looking at pics. >.<

Finally got to muscle max class and loved it. Worked up a good little sweat and managed to to crunches with little or no problem, so we'll see how I am tomorrow.

I have not been able to exercise for 4 weeks, so Monday I am back to the gym and really looking forward to it. Oh I have missed my friends and those moments of delightful torture that the instructor thrusts upon us.

I have had my gall bladder removed, appendectomy, hernia surgery and small revision done to my RNY and I feel fine, however, I have been doing research and found out up to 40% of all RNY's fail in some way !! ??? WTF???
I went to the Dr. thinking its me, its me, only to find out its a good chance that the weight I gained back probably was BOTH.
I am not making excuses for myself, but I had a moment right before I was put to sleep in the O.R. and they were very understanding about it but at that moment I felt like hoping off the bed and leaving because I felt like I was totally unworthy of letting this man "re-do" me simply because he never offered one word of encouragement just you are going to do better this time aren't you then took to his heels and left which basically felt like he blamed ME !!
Honestly, the way things went last time I really don't expect much more, I mean how much can you have removed and safely live a normal lifestyle?
I am not letting this food thing rule my life, I just want to enjoy my life.
I have to have follow ups done again, and keep a better eye on my snacking this time, but I don't know anyone that does not enjoy a little something extra during the day!

I cannot believe it has been almost a year since last posting (My BAD), I really just have not took the time to stit and do this blog. No excuses I'm lazy but in a blog way.

I have kept up with going to the gym and usually I am there 4 time a week, but this has not made me lighter in fact I'm really having a "good" bounce back to well over 200lbs again. Still I feel healthy and I am happy, but I never thought I would get to the elusive size 6. lololol

I have to have a upper G.I. hernia fixed the end of Oct. and maybe Dr L will tighten things up again for me. I have not lost my way, my awkward intestines and my love of testing the waters have just rebelled a bit.

My life is hectic and not the norm these last few months, however I still manage to get by. The last few weeks I have seen my weight rise on the scale and i'm up at leaste 10 lbs since the kids came to live with us. I think its because I'm eating at home more as if we eat out I will choose fruits and cheeses and then we go for a walk about after, now we wrestle 2 babies at the table then baths and bedtime stories, so it has changed here for a few months.  I still get to go to the gym just about everyday so I know I am still moving and I do still love my classes there. I am stronger and feel the best I have in years, but most definately need to get a handle on why I'm not losing anymore ..................urgh!!!

Still here doing my thing trying to keep busy and not get back to where I was. Happy as a shig in pit but know that the weight loss thing is up to me now because I have plateud for a very long time now even put on a few lbs but prolly from a mix of food and working out etc. I feel much more energetic and avle to not second guess myself most times.
We are looking after the 2 eldest grands right now and  that may be a long term thing, defo a wait and see kind of thing there.
I keep posting now and then till then sending out some love to you all ^_^

Just a quick post to say not much has changed weight wise in several weeks now but I'm sure that will change when my body is ready to drop a few pounds more.
I'm still going to the gym and loving it, and I can't wait for the pool to get started again up there.
As I said just a quick note :))

I have had a good year,  I have had a good year, I HAVE had a good year!!
It was said to me that I have changed since my surgery........hmmmm so what does that mean?
O.K. I have changed, my attitude is less tolerant or that's what my children say,  You betcha it has, especially towards them, yes I must agree somewhat with them , but they have changed too this past year. Both my girls have altered themselves this last year as one had another child and the other got married and is about to have a child. This is more that a confirmation of change but apparently they think because I now can wear nicer [smaller] clothes I have become cranky, lmao !!  Well I think its been there all along they just didn't see it [or were listening to it] underneath the 3x Hanes T shirts and shorts.

 
DESIDERATA
 
 
Go placidly amid the noise and haste, and remember what peace there may be in silence.
 
As far as possible, without surrender, be on good terms with all persons.
 
Speak your truth quietly and clearly; and listen to others, even to the dull and the ignorant, they too have their story.
 
Avoid loud and aggressive persons, they are vexatious to the spirit.
 
If you compare yourself with others, you may become vain and bitter; for always there will be greater and lesser persons than yourself.
 
Enjoy your achievements as well as your plans. Keep interested in your own career, however humble; it is a real possession in the changing fortunes of time.
 
Exercise caution in your business affairs, for the world is full of trickery.
 
But let this not blind you to what virtue there is; many persons strive for high ideals, and everywhere life is full of heroism.
 
Be yourself. Especially, do not feign affection. Neither be cynical about love, for in the face of all aridity and disenchantment it is perennial as the grass.
 
Take kindly to the counsel of the years, gracefully surrendering the things of youth.
 
Nurture strength of spirit to shield you in sudden misfortune, but do not distress yourself with imaginings. Many fears are born of fatigue and loneliness.
 
Beyond a wholesome discipline, be gentle with yourself.
 
For you are a child of the universe, no less than the trees and the stars; you have a right to be here, and whether or not it is clear to you, no doubt the universe is unfolding as it should.
 
Therefore be at peace with God, whatever you conceive Him to be, and whatever your labors and aspirations, in the noisy confusion of life, keep peace in your soul.
 
With all its sham, drudgery and broken dreams, it is still a beautiful world.
 
Be cheerful, and strive to be happy.