3 and 1/2 weeks till surgery

Sep 30, 2012

Today is Sunday, so I had a minute to blog about my feelings before I have surgery. I am nervous about surgery and I hope and pray there are no complications. Other than being overweight I love my life. I have wonderful friends and family that always encourage and support me. The reason I am having this surgery is because I am tired of my weight holding me back from doing things that I love and enjoy. My weight is an embarrassment to me. A few months ago, when I went to the doctor's office for high blood pressure. The doctor looked at me and told me that I was fat and needed to lose weight (although it was the truth...it was still very unprofessional). But he went on to say some things that really scared me by telling me that I was headed down a road to diabetes, hypertension, and heart disease. I know even "skinny" people can develop those health problems, but he was saying that I could possibly prevent these issues by losing weight. I thought to myself.....now how am I supposed to successfully lose weight and keep it off when it has never worked in the past. I have been trying to lose weight on my own, but it has been very difficult, so I decided to have the vertical sleeve surgery.

I continuosly face challenges due to my weight. This past week I took my 8 year old son to the fair. He begged me to ride so many rides with him, and I had to tell him no because I was afraid I would not fit in the ride. My weight not only affects me, but it also affects my son. I really hope I am able to lose enough by this time next year that I will not be able to rob myself and my son of a great time at the fair!

My mom had the vertical sleeve surgery and she looks and feels great. I keep telling her she needs to upload her photos on here, but she has not got around to it yet. Everytime I look at her I think about how successful she has been and about how happy she is now. I cannot remember her being that happy even 10-20 years ago, but what amazes me the most is that she is still the same beautiful person she has always been but better...because now she has energy to go dancing.....she is not afraid to go out in a bathing suit or wear skirts.....she has self-confidence. I will be having the surgery by the same person who did her surgery which makes me feel better. Even better...my mom will be there with me to support me :)

So far I have really enjoyed being a member of obesityhelp. I get excited when I see that people have reached their goals, and I hope that I am able to be just as successful. Reading post have also helped to prepare myself for some of the worst. I will try to blog just so I can remember what it was like before and after surgery and hopefully help and encourage a few other people along the way :)

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