BroomHilda
My story hmm... where do I start. Well I have been heavy my entire life. From as early as kindergarten I was always known as the big girl. I decided to start this weight loss journey in January 2005 when I recieved the most unexpected wake up call. A friend of mine really wanted to try Weight Watchers but like most of us she did not want to do it alone... So she begged me to come with her to a meeting and sign up. I remember the day very clearly and I remember how much I was not into it... My famous remarks as I recall were "No way! Why do I need to sit in a room with a bunch of fat people and talk about why twinkies tempt me. This is a gimmick there is no way I can do this on my own....
I stepped over the scales like a threshold of change to recieve the most shameful, embarassing, yet disbelieving news flash... You weigh 346.7 lbs... WHAT!!!! NO WAY!!!! I COULDN'T POSSIBLY... But the hard truth was that yes I did. I was completely mortified and downright depressed with a capital D. I weighed more than everyone I knew. I weighed more than a couple of people. Worse of all I had to admit to my long-term boyfriend that I weighed twice as much as him... That sparked me towards like I said my weight loss journey of retraining my brain and learning how to relate to food in a completely new way. Man has it been hard with tons of relapses, struggles, cry fests, lessons learned and victories. I losted 100 lbs with weight watchers and I still think it is a great program but I have learned that I need help. I lost 100 lbs just before my wedding in 2006. I managed to relapse after the honeymoon and gain and loose 30 lbs. Currently I am 263 lbs making me 18 lbs away from my orginial victory.
To be honest I am not looking to be Miss. Thang. The skinny hottie that everyone drulls over.. You know the "DONT U WISH YOUR GIRLFRIEND WAS HOT LIKE ME TYPE... No way and no thanks. I have worked too hard at my life and career to be jugdged solely on the tightness of my tush. I just want to be healthy. I want to be comfortable in the skin I am in. I want simple things like being able to walk into any store like Target and find something that could not be dubbed as a tarp for some guy's boat.... I want to healthy enough to have babies and be able to keep up with them. I want to get busy living....
I have been researching the surgery options as I proceed through required classes through my insurance. Kaiser has a options program that is 24 weeks long that helps you learn, prepare and decide if surgery is right for you. Currently I am on week 19 and I just had to fill out my decision card. I have chosen to have surgery now I am looking into which surgery is best for me...
