Working on losing 27lbs

Jul 05, 2018

A couple of years ago, I wanted to loss an additional 5lbs and that journey lead me to a stress gain of 27lbs.  Today I take a step to address what caused the gain (my relationship with food), by going back to my pre-RNY diet.  Stress will always be in my life, and I just can't use food to make me feel better.

 

 

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Got my Kaiser Call

Nov 04, 2009

I got my call yesterday and am scheduled to do my fitness test on Monday.  Finally I can sleep, I have been so anxious.  I think things will move pretty quickly from here on out I should also be getting my blood tests next week.  My hopes are I get scheduled for surgery the week after Thanksgiving, perfect timing for work and personal life.

Yippee!
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Last meeting and weigh in is tomorrow!

Oct 25, 2009

My last Kaiser meeting is tomorrow.  Yeah  the 6 month program is over and I move on to my final blood tests and gallblader ultrasound.  Now the excitement begins.  They told me they would do their best to get me into surgery before November 30th as my insurance changes on December 1st.  I'm not worried if they don't make t because at least I still have insurance, its through Kaiser and I am still on track.

To meet the 10% I need to weight 223 in the morning and I weigh 222 in my birthday suit.  I just spent the last hour finding clothes that weight the least (found a skirt set).  I don't think if I miss it by a pound or 2 that I will get in trouble, I was just told those that los their 10% go to the front of the line for surgery.

Now the excitement begins. 

Has anybody tried Unjury shakes?
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My WLS Bucket List

Oct 23, 2009

1)  Ride a roller coaster without fear of the bar coming up

2)  Horseback Riding

3)  Wear single digit clothes

4)  Run (even if it is just to the corner)

5)  Wear clothing without spanx

6)  Be able to excercise more

7)  Wear thigh high boots

8)  Wear my guys jeans

9)  Dance without sweating

10) Not get diabetes
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2weeks to go!

Oct 15, 2009

I'm down to the last 2 weeks before we Graduate from the Kaiser program an move on to Pacific Bariatric to begin the process for the surgery.  I am already so anxious that it is killing me.  I am almost downt he 10% they requested to find out this last Monday that it is not mandatory, however, I feel good for doing it. 

Trying to keep my patience and keep from having several farewell meals.  I have been eating peanuts lately because I know I can't have them after the surgery.
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Taking care of that voice that justifies the things I eat!

Sep 14, 2009

Well I think I finally heard something that is now my AH OH! moment in life.  With Kaiser Positive Choice I am in the 6 month program for WLS.  Last week 9/9/09 (to be exact) I heard from a counselor about Parent Adult Child  (hear me out, it;s good)! 

PART 1:  You know when you pass a drive through or see something in the kitchen that you just want, and the conversation goes something like this:

Voice 1:  I was good today and plus I am going to the gym tomorrow, one little piece won't hurt

Voice 2:  You shouldn't do that, you know you are trying to loss weight

Voice 1:  But I' m hungry and its just today.

Voice 2:  Silent....


Thus you eat that piece of whatever or buy that hamburger and fries.  What this counselor explained was, voice #1 is my inner child whining for food (just like a real child does) and voice #2 is the Parent (just like my mother) telling me that I don't need that.  So now you have the Parent and Child conversation that goes on in your head. 

Part II:
When you see someone smoking (presuming you don't smoke), you think, wow that's bad for them, or when you see someone who is over weight at a buffet with plates of food in front of them and you think, that is not good for them don't they see what they are doing to themselves????

Well that voice is the Adult in you understanding the outcomes of decisions others make.  Now let's go back to Part 1, when the Parent and Child (that little voice in your head) start to talk about food that you want or rationalizes the food you eat, and the Parent is telling the child no, YOUR ADULT IS NO WHERE TO BE FOUND!  Get it!!!!!  We are good at judging what others should do (our Adult), but when it comes to us, we are just a child crying out for what we want with no thought as to the outcome of our decision, and our Parent is trying to control the child to no avail most of the time.

Conclusion:
Using this gift of an explanation I now can control that voice, my inner child has found peace for the most part because I offer it alternatives to the food it wants,  At times it takes me to the MAC counter to buy a new eye shadow, but it does not lead me to binge and then feel guilty.

Hope this helps someone else out there, as I know we all hear that voices that says just one little piece and then we eat more than that piece and when we are done, the other voice saying "what did you do?  You are fat and just continue to eat"  so what happens, we eat some more because we already blew it.
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Obesity Help Rocks

Sep 07, 2009

I have so enjoyed ready the stories, it is so motivating.  I feel that I am no longer alone in this journey and that there are hundreds, thousands, 10's of thousands goign through the same thing.

Thanks everyone
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San Diego, CA
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27.8
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RNY
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01/11/2010
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Apr 27, 2009
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