AW HELL

Jul 06, 2012

6July 2012
Well I went to my support group meeting and I thought I was doing sooo well.  Guess I should back up I spoke with the dietitian after the meeting for her to look at my food journal and explained that I started my diet early (my fear is it wouldn't work) and she told me to go off the diet  all together until 3 weeks before my surgery.   So since then I have been lost as to what to eat......I haven't been eating much at all ....I was eating more on the fast.   So I'm going to do what I was doing before low carb high protein and veggies........i will see how that goes .  I went to my GP for him to fill in the forms for the hospital and fax them off and that is done.  Just 6 weeks til surgery.  Oh when he weighed me today  I'm 292....but I almost don't expect it to last as I'm off the diet but we will see ...trying to stay positive in this hellish heat ...god I hate the heat.   Oh and our support group isn't meeting in August which some of us weren't happy about that.  Oh well I would have only have made it to the first one anyway.  We have one more this month.  I do look forward to them I might not talk a whole lot but I do get something out of each meeting.   One of our members is having surgery on Monday so on Tuesday myself and another lady will be going to visit her.   I'm just going through the motions  watching time tick by  and other days fly by..trying to keep busy and with the kids it's not hard ....I am trying to make sure they have a great summer but with the heat it's been difficult and they are all very fair skinned and they don't do well in the heat. One of my older kids was talking about the EX and I was honest and told her that this year it probably won't happen and she seemed disappointed ....but this is the best time for me to have surgery is the summer ....it worked out perfectly but on the other hand I don't want to disappoint the kids either ...what to do .....I guess we will see.  I wonder if I will be up to going there ....I know after my C sections I was up and moving around with no problem even went to the Island in AUG after the birth of one of my daughters .  I guess no one can predict how it will affect them.  But that said if I don't feel up to it we won't be going. There is noway my husband will take them by himself.  46 days til surgery                
      

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