10 WEEKS OUT

Oct 26, 2012

Well all is not a bed of roses ...I had been eating getting in my protein 70-85grams per day and my water in.  I stalled at week 5 until this week.  I did everything I was suppose to and couldn't budge past 257lbs.  It was so upsetting.  So for about 4 weeks I haven't lost a pound.  So off I went yet again to a support meeting and when it was done I saw the dietitian and broke down how could a assume I was doing everything right yet not get the results ........So she took me to her office and she looked at My Fitness Pal which saved me and she was able to look at everything I was eating .....guess what protein was great but my calories too low so she said to up my calories to 1000 per day which on some days doubled my intake and as some of you know I don't do protein drinks or bars or any sweeteners.  It has took me a couple of days to get my head around it but I did and had a few days of 1000 cals then I got this snotty ass cold so my intake has dropped and I feel like crap.  I weighed myself today which normally I wouldn't do until Monday morning after I have peed and the scale shows 254lbs.  See I had a hard time with upping my calories to 1000 a day,  Change for me takes time I have to have a plan and when I have set things in place I get comfortable and don't want to change.  Through this process I have come to realize that we have to change and when we have we have to do it again and again because no one person is the same ...some will have an easier time and some will really have to work on it Guess which one I am ......I am down 56lbs since May, 25 pre surgery and 31lbs post surgery 27lbs were lost in the first 5weeks and.    Hands down this is one of the hardest things I have had to do FOR MYSELF.  I have had and done hard things in my life don't get me wrong but this is no cake walk.  I haven't felt much like my old self  and I feel like an emotional wreck  almost like being pregnant but NOT.  I am jealous of those who lost all their weight in the first 6 months cause I am just not having that kind of success.....but in almost 10 weeks out I will take the 31lbs and before you all jump in asking When was the last time you lost 31lbs in 10 weeks I know I didn't put it on overnight and it won't come off like that either.  Am I having buyers remorse maybe a little .  I lost 25lbs before surgery in 15 weeks so I guess I expected greater numbers after surgery ...but I will take what I can get.   So I have been lurking and the odd time putting in my 2 cents but haven't felt much like posting so this is my update . I hope all is well .......Jenn    I am obese now 35.1 is my  BMI yay me                         

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