Learning more Jan 31, 2010

Jan 31, 2010

i would really like to run but yet do not know how to get started??  I love to read magazines, books, etc about running, but still have not gotten off couch to just do it...  I am not saying I do not know how, it is a motivation thing.  I want to do so much more but have gotten into a rut.  Need to get out meet more people get to know other runners to help me with my goal.
Start out with a local gang and work my way up.  I did sign up for boot camp last fall but only was able to work out a few times.  My husband is  losing his eye, he has a disease in his right eye which is taking over the sight in this eye.  He has had so many eye surgeries, now they are shooting steriods into his eyeball to help but having needles insert into your eye has got to be the worst.  any way I tried to get myself healthier to help him, but the stress of the situation effects my motivation.
These are excuses, I realize this and it is actually a cope out.  I did the surgery but now want to lay back and do nothing.  Bad move on my part. 
Just so others know, it has been three years since surgery and have gained back about 10 or 11 pounds, I am determined to stop from gaining more.  Now is the time to nip the cycle of weight gain.  Have to start again, let my pouch do the work it was meant.  I am finding it easier to eat more of the snacks.  I am taking ambein to sleep and I find myself waking in the middle of night to eat.  I dont realize I am doing it, until I awaken in the morning and find an empty bowl with a spoon in it, or cereal box open...I did ask my husband if I eat at night and he has seen me walk into the kitchen and come back with food.
Then I fall back to sleep.  I have ask him to take the food from me when he sees me sleepwalking.  On the side effects of the medicine it states some will find themselves eating and sleep walking.  I stop eating at 8p.m. to curb my appetite and get a mindset to tell my brain that we are not eating until I get up around 6:30a.m. 
This just goes to show why ones do gain after surgery, we must remember that food is still our addiction.  It must be a daily battle such as drugs or drinking.  I will be updating weekly to let ones know my progress. Kind of like Weight Watchers weighing in and making me accountable.  Well thanks for reading my update and I wish everyone else great sucess!!!

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