8 weeks and feeling weak.....

Aug 05, 2009

8 weeks post and I'm feeling weaker than ever.  I haven't been taking my protein.  I need the protein but I get nauseous just thinking about it.  I'm working 5-6 days a week and 12 hrs a day.  I'm taking my vitamins but I just can't seem to take my protein.  I'm going to GNC today and try some of the protein bars and see if that works.  I'm also going to go buy some Biotin because my hair is already starting to fall out.  That's why I went and got this drastic short-short haircut that I don't even like.  I'd been use to having the same hair style for the past 7-8 yrs and thought since my body  was changing it was also time for a hair change.  Well I was WAY WAY WRONG.  I just hope that it grows sooner than expected.  I was feeling OK up until I got this haircut.  I think I got a little depressed after the haircut.  Especially since my hubby did not like it at all.  He's never seen me with short hair nor do I think he ever wanted to.  My smart azz answer to him that day was, "Well it's a good thing I went in for the haircut for me and not for you so who cares if you don't like it because I do."  He knows that was a lie because he could see it all in my face when I was trying to style it before leaving for work.  It's crazy how your self-image can get you so down.  Also my new relationship with food is starting to get depressing.  Don't get me wrong, I would never regret exchanging my bad eating habits for a healthier life but I sure do miss eating certain foods, like bread, meat, and sticky rice.  RNY is still the best choice I've ever made and I strongly feel that way, but I guess I thought it was going to be a lot easier than it has been.  Well enough of the sad drama, on a lighter note, I went out dancing for the first time since surgery on 8/1/09 and I had a blast.  I couldn't believe how much energy I had and to top it off, I danced and danced and my ankles or back didn't even hurt.  AMAZING.  I felt so young again.  I am only 25 yrs old but with all the excess weight I felt like I was 35.  I really did.  But not anymore and as long as I live, not ever!  Can't wait to go out again soon.  Dancing is what makes me the happiest.  To be able to enjoy it again without pain is well worth having WLS for.  Maybe if I'm feeling a bit depressed this weekend I'll go out and dance to pick my spirits back up again.  :)  Goal for the day:  PROTEIN, PROTEIN, PROTEIN!!!!!

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06/11/2009
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