Butterfly618
The Wallet List
Sep 16, 2010
I have always felt this way but sometime I need to remind myself....... I am not equated to what I look like-how much I weight or what I have accomplished. It is rather to the core of who I am as a person.
When someone asks me who are you? I do not answer I am Gina. I weight 200+lbs I wear a size 18 and I hate the way I look. I think about who I am. What I have to offer the world. What I have to contribute and I answer the question with ..I am a kind person who cares about people who love me and I love. I am very responsible and I have wisdom beyond my years. I may even say I am cute and adorable with a dark sense of humor and people love being around me and why wouldn't they!
As a person who is medical described as mobility obese I need to remember I am "more" then what I weight and what I look like.
I want to make a list of the things I like about myself. That is not weight related and put it in my wallet. This way when I am feeling bad about how I didn't make the right choices this day and may have fallen off the wagon, I will take this list, before I start beating myself up and read it.
What is on my wallet list?
q Be grateful for all the people you have in you life that love you are worry about you.
q Feel blessed that we have a roof over our heads.
q Feel blessed that we have money to pay our bills and a brain in our heads to figure how to get a
job done.
q Feel blessed to live in a county that has the technology to help us achieve almost anything we could
conceive and the freedom to do what we conceived, so if we choose.
I could be that perfect weight/size but that does not guarantee me happiness. I need to remember to be happy with my selves now. At this size/weight to even think that I will be happy when we get to that magical place.
I just wanted to but this out there because I know that sometime I get caught up on the scale or weight victory as a sign of success. I don't think I will be denied excess to heaven if I am over weight but I will be denied if I am not a person who contributes to this world. At least I hope that is true. lol.
I am having success with my weight. I don't weight 300+lbs anymore! Am I were I would like to be? No but that is the point. I think I always will want something even if I was at that magic size or weight. I can't imagine anyone waking up one day and saying OK I have everything I need or want. I don't want anything else from my life.
I'm good, thanks…
That is why I need that wallet list for those times , I compare my self to others who seem to be doing better at the game of life.
