Back from the Brink

Jul 25, 2012

I never got into wonderland.  I never was the 170 that I was was hoping for when I first had my surgery.  But the weight came off and I was moving into the smaller lbs and I was happy.  I felt beautiful.  People saw me as beautiful and I stopped worrying about my weight and thought I didn't need to worry because the band was there to control me. But then I realize something If you don't keep focused old habits return. Inch by inch, pound by pound.  I stepped on the scale and I was back into the 240's. If I didn't do something the 250 260 270 and so on were just around the corner.  I knew I needed to stop myself before it got too far.  I up 29lbs from my lowest.  I came back to the boards.  I started to journal food and thoughts.  I made that dreaded doctors appointment.  I took out the pamphlets that I received when I started this journey.  Got back to basics. So what did I learn... I learned YOU CAN NEVER EXPECT THIS BAND TO DO ALL THE WORK.  You have to participate because who are were is who you will always be. You just pushed it into a smaller size and it is waiting for the moment when you take you eye off of the job to step up and cause trouble.  I am proud that I got back on track before I gain 50lbs 75lbs or even 100lbs.  Back on track and helping myself to a healthy me with my band. 

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01/08/2009
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